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Hi. I'm brand new to this site and I have a big problem or I feel that way tonight. Maybe I will change my mind. I'm not even sure if this is the right place to post and I don't know if anyone can relate to me but I know that my life is going down the crapper so to speak because of my oxy addiction. Mostly I am concerned about the amount of money is costs me, which isn't a great reason to get help.

Long story short I am pretty hooked on oxy, my boyfriend had a back injury several years ago and he started selling them. I took recreational painkillers but maybe (at the most) 7 a week when we met for stress, to get high basically and it didn't hurt anyone. I've always held a great job, am college educated, etc. You can't tell by looking at me that I'm a junkie. I don't smoke, eat meat and rarely drink. I bike to work and am very healthy.

Anyway, over the past couple years my intake has gone up and up. Now I'm hooked on the relationship, the pills: snort and take them orally. I go into withdrawal when I try to break up with my boyfriend. I'm not even sure I love him or if I've just stayed together for the "benefits." It's costing me a lot of money and I'm not sure I want out and I honestly don't know what to do. How did I get myself into such a mess? I've never had a problem like this before. I guess i just want to know that there is hope to have a better life than this. I am feeling like such a looser.

My husband is an alcoholic. He went into rehab in January for 4 weeks and has been fighting (sometimes unsuccessfully) to stay sober since. He has recently been sober for a little over 90 days and I came home tonight and he was very drunk, he drank a pint and a half pint of vodka in 4 hours.

My question is how do I handle this tomorrow? Do I confront him and treat him how I feel (angry), do I ignore it and just let him feel like he got off the hook, do I try to talk to him?

I'm not surprised that this happened, because he's an alcoholic and I just can't get my hopes up anymore. But I really felt that this time might be different because his whole attitude about being sober seemed different this time. He just seemed almost like a different person this time and I thought maybe this time is it. I know most alcoholics relapse at times, but geez, while 90 days is a long time for an alcoholic, it's not really a long time. I guess we'll see how it plays out for now, but I just need advice on how to make him take the responsibility and not try to blame me or someone else come tomorrow.

Thanks for any advice.

I have a question--I've used oxycodone for about 2 years in pretty high doses (up to 200-300mg day). I've always had problems with my ears since I was a child, but it has been more problems hearing. The past few months, when I using the heaviest, I noticed that I am now extremely sensitive to loud noises like semi trucks and motorcycles. Has anyone else had anything like this? Any other effects you've noticed?

Hello, I have a question. My husband was arrested and had a blood test taken instead of taking a breathalizer. He was then fined several hundred dollars. When I asked him what his alcohol level was he said that they needed to send it to a lab. Is this true, and will we get the results in the mail. How can they fine him if they don't know if he was over the limit. When I did pick him up a couple hours later he did not seem under the influence. Thanks for your thoughts.

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When I started my recovery I never thought that I would make it past the one week mark but her I am on day 45, clean and sober. This is the first time that I have completely given myself to the program, immersing myself in meetings, literature, socialising with fellow AA members and regular contact with my sponsor. In fact he is coming over for dinner on wednesday. I am praying differently too: not the constant complaints and entreaties to God to spare me this (self imposed) suffering, but rather heartfelt thanks for my sobriety and wonder-filled life.

Everything has started falling into place. Work relationships, family, friends and general day to day living. There are exciting oppurtunities on the horizon but I am focusing on "being here now". Just for today I am grateful for AA, my sobriety and the inordinate beauty of a sober, sane life. :a194:

Hi,

I'm a gay male who has been with my partner for over 15 years. He was an alcoholic before we met, but had stopped drinking prior to us meeting. About 7 years ago he started drinking again. I've lost all be friends and have completely lost myself in my relationship. Thats my fault. I've finally come to that realization. It's been a long, long road. Everything that I've read has told me to take care of myself and not focus on his drinking. But, I have a problem. I have always gone out on the weekends to lunch or dinner with him because I like being with him, but then it always ends up with me having to drag him out of the restaurant or bar. I told him a few days ago that I really didn't want to go out with him anymore if he was going to drink when we went out. Well...he hasn't spoken with me for three days. I don't know what to do. Do I just go out with him or stand my ground. Everything I've read says to do my own thing and not to argue about drinking, but nothing says anything about what to do if an alcoholic is contantly on you to go out with him. Please help!

Thanks, Mike

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I'm not sure if this is where I write my first post?
Ummm, just want to say that I am so glad I have found this site, it's so reasuring knowing that I not alone out there.
I've been a heroin addict for about 11 years now. I went to NA meetings recently and it was great! Had me clean for 2 months - but my partner of 6 years died in a car accident a month ago and I have relapsed, badly.
Well, I am at a point now where my body isn't going to put up with the abuse for much longer and despite my pain, I do need to fight it - as I promised her.
I am hear for a little comfort is all, hope that's not silly of me.
Ummm so yeah, just wanted to say hi and ummmm, well anybody going through the same, add me as a pal :)
Take care all,
Damien x

It happened a few months ago. She came over with hugely dialated pupils, acting strangely and anxious. She swore she wasn't on anything, that she was just tired, just exhausted. But as I went to the bathroom and picked her jeans up off the floor a little white baggie of powder fell out. I was shaking, horrified, and crying and I tossed it on the bed and asked what the hell was going on.

She said it was just a few times, she just got it because other people did. No big deal, blah blah. I wanted to believe her so she promised it was over. She had just quit the job where she was around the people who influenced her to do it so now it wouldn't be a problem.

A few weeks later, same kind of situation except this time it was her roommates who found empty bags in her dresser. She said they were really old and she just kept the empty ones to remind her of where she'd been. We all wanted to believe her, so we did.

And then there was lat night. She met me at a bar with friends and came in looking trippy. She went to the bathroom and left cigarettes on the table so i went to toss them in her bag and low and behold, three baggies inside 2 half empty, one full.

We got home (to my apt) fought, yelled, she cried, I cried, she said she didn't know what she was doing, blah blah. It was 5am by now and we both fell asleep, she had to head to work this morning but promised to come over on Monday so we could talk about all this and try to figure out what to do. I asked her to leave the coke with me, so she did.

What in the hell am I supposed to do? I love her, we've been together 4 years and she claims her problem isn't too severe but does own up to have a problem. I've been researching all day, looking up CA programs, buying books, I'm in the dark here people. I don't do drugs, I never have. I grew up around people who did and saw what it did to all of their lives and just never had any desire but now I'm faced with this.

Should I offer help? Just be supportive? There's a CA meeting on Monday night I wanted to go to her with, that is, if she'll go. I don't know. I really don't. Should I just walk away? The idea of that feels so wrong, giving up on someone when they need you the most.

I need help here...

My boyfriend and I broke up today. I've only been sober for three and a half months, and as such have never dealt with great sadness soberly. I don't know how to handle it. I'm overwhelmed by it, and want to just numb it out with wine like I always have before.

Hello everyone, haven't been on here since last May. In January of 2007 my boyfriend from college that i had been with for five years broke up due to his crack addiction...i still cry pretty regularly over him even though we haven't spoken for well over a year. He and I used to do a lot of drugs together all the time (E, vicodin, GHB, coke...) I miss that lifestyle i had with him until he started doing crack and i couldn't live with that since it was always a drug that i never wanted to touch, especially when I saw how it changed him seemingly overnight.

Anyway, i started seeing this guy last summer and still see him but only about once a month or less and he lives a county away and when i come over to see him we do E and have sex...VERY FUN at the time! Went over there last night and we did our routine of E and sex but i am super hung over today from it and am dealing with the emotions i feel every time we do this, since I DO care about him and feel a lot more than like for him at this point after being with him at least a dozen times. And i end up missing my ex because we really truly loved each other and I miss feeling that deep connection with him that i thought may have lasted forever.

E has been my one drug that has stayed with me since my breakup with my ex and I enjoy it sooooo much but it brings back all of these demons. Although it kinda feels good to feel since i always feel like such a robot most of the time working 40 hours a week and just trying to live healthier and away from that lifestyle. It's hard for me to stay away from it even though I know it is so bad.