Drug Rehab Options Blog

Hello, I'm new to this site.

Four years ago, I met an intelligent, handsome engineer. I couldn't believe my good fortune! Things moved fairly quickly along, and soon we were in love. Very shortly after that, I realized he drank quite a bit. By the time I realized just how much he drank, I had been sucked so far in, I never realized it would take this long to find my way out. I have a great career, my own home - I've got my poop in a pile, so to speak. But never in a million years did I ever expect that I'd be subjected to the crap that my boyfriend has heaped on me - and for some unexplainable reason, I've accepted. This relationship has re-defined my sense of normal. To me, normal is now being lied to, cheated on and so on. And every time I try to walk away, he comes crawling back. He loves me, I'm his best friend, he wants to "buy me a ring" (not sure what THAT one meant). This time, however, after an argument on Friday morning, he decided to hook up with a girl that is now his "girlfriend". Ouch. About a month ago, I left him. He promised to get help. He made arrangements through his employer assistance program to see an addiction specialist (how convenient that he couldn't get an appointment until Dec). I just can't keep up with this turmoil. I'm losing time from work. I'm not taking care of myself. I'm devastated that he can just turn his feelings on and off. I'm so screwed up. Help!

Hi all, I'm a long time lurker, would introduce myself more and I apologize but I am so panicky right now I can barely type. I have been abusing up to 2100 mils of Soma a day since June- I don't want to say my sources but they are not from a doctor. I reached out to an addiction specialist who charged me $300 for the visit and told me I should start Suboxone due to my history of opiate addiction (I've been an addict for a long time.) She advised me how to taper the Somas, but told me that she wouldn't prescribe me any because it would be enabling my addiction and that I would just have to "use my resources that I've been using.) My "resources" have dried up and I will be cold turkeying it- she even agreed with me that it is probably I could have a seizure. I am so scared, I don't want to die, and I am so afraid another doctor will tell me the same thing. Please, does anyone have any suggestions? It seems that it borders on medical negligence what she is doing, I live in a small town and I have no where else to turn in my current panicky mind. Thanks and god bless.

Well, I did it again. Another nasty bender that left me hospitalized, and I got very suicidal and ended up in residential rehab (9th rehab program I've started, but first inpatient) as it seemed a fine alternative to 5150. I just transitioned to day treatment and sober living.

I never got over my past incidents and resentments, and I was working a fairly strong AA program, but one that was full of half measures--lack of service, and recovery was not always my first priority.

I'm pulling out all the stops this time to get some structure and get sober. I lost my fiancee and apartment again, almost a year to the day I lost them last year. Luckily I still have my job; my boss is very supportive, thank god.

I'm being treated for bipolar and have a new therapist who is an addiction specialist. Hopefully this can get me over the hump of depression, mania and obsessive thoughts that keep taking me out every few months. It's hard to believe I have to go through all this when I've drank only six times in the last 400 days. Each time I get drunk now I get drugs, and the coke/booze combo nearly killed me this time. I sink into a dark depression that is worse every time I go out. I just don't have the luxury of "one last run".

Thanks for listening.

MR