Drug Rehab Options Blog

First let me thank each and every one of you - You are so very special to my heart - Spent the first nite at my rent house Thanksgiving nite and haven't looked back.

I made that frightening leap of that cliff that keeps so bound in fear and holds us back for so long . . . As I took that big jump, I opened my eyes and began to feel the thoughts, prayers and encouragement of all my wonderful recovery family with me and my fear disappeared.

As I knew I would suddenly hit the ground with a crushing blow; but I landed in the softness and safety of my God's hands. And I have been at peace every moment since.

Yes, There have been moments of tears, twinges of memories and little times hints of the future that will be sad - but no regrets. I know I am exactly where my God wants me to be.

And I thank everyone of you for helping me walk this path of recovery, grow in my relationship with the God of my understanding and gather the strength, courage and wisdom I need to be living Happy, Joyous and Free One Day at a Time.

May each of you have that in your lives forever,
Love & HUGS to all,
Rita
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Hi guys, I know I am only new here (today), but I am starting to stuggle, and have no support, well I do, I have my wonderfull husband and my oldest daughter who is 19, but I can beat them with all sorts of excuses and good intentions, I never lie, but they fall for any reason I give then about being in controll or that it is better for me to have another drink.

I am cutting down on my intake because I don't want to detox in a center again because it is so far from my husband and children and if I go back they will keep me there for 3-4 months and we can't afford for my family to travel & visit me, my children are my life, and I quit rehab last time because I couldn't see them, and I ended up severely depressed.

Also they put me on drugs to stop seizures, which are some of the same I had a 12 year addiction to (I have been clean from them for 12 years now) and I like thm too much, they scare the bejebers out of me, so I need to do it this way.

I used to drink 3ltres of wine per day 14% and had to detox in a center because of seizures, now I am down to 10 cans per day of beers at 4%, I need to knock off 2 cans per day now, to get to a point where I can safely detox at home, but now I am struggling.

I am scared, and the more scared I get, the more I want a drink, it sux big time and I feel like I am close to losing it and going backward.

I guess I am asking for some tips/tricks/hints on keeping on reducing my intake so I can stop in a few days time.

Any help would be so appreciated, thankyou guys.

Hey everyone.. I remember sitting in rehab & my counselor pulled up this website and printed out a sample "goodbye letter" to your drug of choice and the whole idea of a internet sober community is brilliant, I finally feel like I can open up and be honest about my victories, struggles, and whatever else happens on the road to recovery here on this website. THank God for this page!
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Today my RAD turned 23. It has been a long journey. Addict behavoir still sneaks up on her, but she will usually catch it & have some kind of a joke to say. She worked from 4 till 9:30ish wed night waitressing, then went to the halfway house & did 11pm-7am. I didn't realize she would be the only staff member there for the night. gulp. But everything was fine. She slept for a few hours then came here for Thanksgiving dinner, went to her boyfriend (ex fiance) house. She went shopping at 4:30 am with a friend & her boyfriend, then went to work waitressing for the day shift, then worked in the kitchen for the night shift. She is happy as all get out cuz she got a WII on their shopping outing. She will prob crash & burn tomorrow. But it is so nice to see that she has life & friends beyond addiction. Anything is possable. Hang on, your addict children just might surprise you.

Hey all, I'm new to this forum, but I wanted to discuss or have a place to vent where people know where I'm coming from. I'm a young professional chef, worked my way up within the culinary industry since I was 15 years old. I suffered from a drug addiction & alcoholism for almost 3 years. Although I'm clean now, sometimes I feel like going back, because my line of work drives me insane & I still don't know how I'm functioning sober. If there is anyone out there who are within the industry & would like to share, please do!

I am really having a hard time today...feeling really angry with the world around me! Went to dinner yesterday with my family only to be greeted by alcoholic drunken brother, sister-in-law & just turned 21 drunken nephew!!! Makes me want to scream when I think about the show that ensued!!!! EEEEEKKKKKKKK
Made it through 3 hours and had to bolt out of there...couldn't sit and watch it and worse was watching my parents! Neither one of them are drinkers and I could tell that this whole scene was killing them but they don't say anything and neither does anyone else...everyone just sits around pretending all is well....makes me sick!!! :wtf2
Then today I have to deal with the tenants that don't do what they say they're going to do, the electric company that is incompetent and a bunch of other freaking idiots that can't seem to do what they say!
I'm trying to have compassion and understanding but this is really bothering me! The only good thing is I don't want to drink...I just want to throttle someone!! So therefore I am hanging out at home by myself typing this rant!! Sorry, by the way but needed to get it out!! I'm trying to point the finger back at me and figure out why I'm so bothered by all of this stuff that is out of my control, and that's exactly it, I'm not in control and it stinks!!! But I'm sober...so there is the most important thing!!
Anyway, that is it for now!! Would love to hear how some of you deal with times when you are so stressed and MAD!!! :c004:

Thanks for listening!
Lisa

Trying to change the Font color on my member page for the Recent Visitors & Friends .. they are dark blue. How can I change their color ?

So you can see what I mean...

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/members/aw2486.html

I promised myself that when I ran out of cig&^%$#es, I would quit.

I started Chantix about two weeks ago, and had my last smoke about 3 am this morning. (Yea, I smoked in bed - on medication, no less).

So, as of this minute, 11:16 am, Pacific Standard Time, I have 8 hours and 15 minutes being smoke-free.

I've been thinking about it, and even wondered where I threw the last butts, but yesterday bought packs of SUGAR FREE LifeSavers (no pun intended!) and just popped one into the old pie hole.

Please, even in your struggle, send me a prayer - thank you.

Steph

OH here's a God-shot for ya! A week ago, I started much-needed dental work - deep scaling and a CLEANING! hahahaha - Ain't HP cool? :ghug3

My roommates girlfriend is a rcovering alcoholic, 2 years clean. She has quite a few sponcees & has not only been asked to speak at one of the local NA meetings, which she said was a big deal, but has also recently been asked to speak at some big convention next year.

I'm really good friends with her, but she doesn't know that I'm addicted to speed. I'd like to ask her to be my sponcer, but she is a tiny bit controlling and very obsessive about hitting meetings every day.

Really, my two main concerns are these:

1.) If I fail at becomming clean & relapse, she won't want me to be around her boyfriend, who is not only my roommate but my best friend as well. She's already told me that the best thing to do if he relapses is to kick him out.

2.) I have severe social anxiety, which is part of the reason I started taking speed. I've never found a.medicine that really helps, so once I'm off the speed, i doubt i will be able to hit many meetings. She already fusses at her boyfriend about it, and he hits at least 2 a week.

What do yall think? Should I ask her to be my sponser, or just get a list from one of the meetings and go from there?

Today I'm greatful for the unconditional love that animals bring.

Theres a 'shelter' around here that's notorious for putting about 90% of its animals down, and not even taking great care of the rest of them.

An addict friend & I had just gotten off work around 9:15pm, and we passed by the shelter to feed an emaciated horse the kept there. while we were there, a woman came with a car full of dogs, threw 2 of them into an outdoor pen, and left.

There was a rat terrir mix & a young cocker spaniel mix. We went to check them out, but the terrier bit my friend and ran off; the saniel mix ran right to my car, jumped into the open front door, and parked her behind in my back seat, like she belonged there.

I didn't have the heart to put her back in that damned cage.

But, I have a pit bull mix & my roommate has a kitten, so we are already a full house... so i put out an ad in the paper, and a week later a nice woman with an autistic boy took her home.

Now, 2 weeks later, Foxy is back at home... huge & about to burst with a litter of puppies. The adopter dropped her off while i was at work, and when i drove up and she saw me from her kennel she immediately began wiggling with joy.

Now she's asleep next to me in bed. Puppies are coming anytime from now to 2 weeks. I think she's glad to be away from the kids, and she follows me around the house to make sure that when i sit down, she has room to cuddle up against me.

I have a feeling that we have a new permanant family member...