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Hi guys....i'm new to this forum. this is actually my first post. i am a 21 year old female(with borderline personality disorder and OCD) who has been struggling with an eating disorder since age 11, and substance abuse problems at age 16 (my father passed that year). when my ed first developed, i was just bulimic, but then the sicker i got, i developed anorexia as well. I have just gotten out of an residential inpatient eating disorder hospital (Renfrew Center of Philly). I weighed 100 lbs after leaving, and i was doing very well, but lately i've been relapsing, both with drugs and with ed. i am now down to 85 lbs (my lowest being 51 lbs), drinking constantly, taking speed, etc. it's like i thought i was doing so well but now i'm worse. i'm afraid my illness is going to take my life. I am seeing a therapist for my ed, but i am relapsing pretty bad. any advice?

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well, let me just explain: i guess you could say i am the epitome of cross addictied. i have been diagnosed with anorexia, bulimia, drug addiction, and alcoholism...along with the standard mental disorders of social anxiety, PTSD, and depression. having said that, alcoholism is the main evil of the moment. really, i can't make it for two days without flying into a rage and heading for the liquor store. and i do *try*...but the irritability that comes along with the withdrawls is too much to bear sometimes. also, i read some previous posts about the alcohol and facial puffiness *which i cannot stand*...i notice it most the first few days of withdrawl and as someone with an eating disorder i am aware that i am waayyy too sensitive as to what other people think of me. HOWEVER, one comment on how bloated my face looks and BAM, it's back to the vodka bottle. you all seem to have a lot of strengh and i know you don't have "all the answers", but if you all could give me advice on how you got throught that initial month of sobriety (most i've had is 2 weeks in the past 2 years) i would love to hear it. thanks!!

So it's been a month and a half since my spouse and I split up. I've never lived on my own and this has been good for me as I explore new and healthy ways of living.

Thing is as i've become more healthy from bipolar anorexia and drinking my spouse has been so supportive and loving. It's a good thing in someways but I'm worried I'll get sucked back in and return to a sick relationship that we where living for the past ten years.

I know I need to live on my own and continue to doing healthy things, and not let my heart get in the way. I think I will always love the caring man that I married but I need to remember that living with him will lead to an unhealthy me.

Anyone else have a relationship like this?

sober is easy but the bipolar and anorexia are out of control. It's going to be so quiet and lonely.

with bipolar and anorexia at least sober is easy. Haven't had a craving in a long time.

Hey there. I am new here. I have been struggling with food issues since childhood. I went between anorexia(pills) and binging in high school, more binging in college and now, I am married, have children, and have become a compulsive overeater and binger. It worsened with my diagnosis of Lupus four years ago, and two years ago, I fell very ill, and was unable to work anylonger. Now that I am doing better on the Lupus front, my eating problems have worsened.

I have awful self esteem, but seem to put up a great front, since not even my husband thinks there is an issue with me sitting in front of the TV and eating about 3000 calories in an hour. I don't even realize I have done it either, until its over. IT's like I can't stop.

I just had a baby last spring, and lost weight while pregnant(not intentional - my illness contributed to it) and since his birth, I have gained 30lbs. I am restarting Wellbutrin, and topamax for my headaches, which are worse since my desire to eat all the time returned.

I am basically needing support, and I need to know WHAT to do to start getting my life back. I need to loose weight, I am now at 250 lbs, but most seem to think I weigh 200 or so, since I dont carry weight all over, just in my hips and legs.

I am unhealthy, swelling and I cry everytime I look at myself. I know I can do this, because I have my children depending on me, and they are my life, I just need some guidance and support. I am going to look for a therapist, but to be honest, we are on a very fixed income with my rheum doc, pcp, my meds, etc.....

I am just lost, and as bad as I want to return to work, now that I am moving past the flare from a few years ago, none of my clothes fit and I am a mess. I couldn't go back and be professional and presentable if I wanted to.

I do however, manage to pull it together for my kids. I am very active with the school, just make sure I have good excuses when I don't eat at functions or attend pizza parties.

Sorry this is so long, but I am wide awake and miserable and wanting to go fix a bowl of ice cream.:(