Drug Rehab Options Blog

Ladies,

I need your advice and input. I went off hormones some months ago after friends of mine told me how bad they were. I thought I could tough out the hot flashes, not sleeping and brain fog. I've been using some herbal stuff; black cohosh and soy supplements and some homeopathic things too.

Nada. It feels like a prolonged detox! Hot and cold. Swiss cheese brain. Fatigue. And now I have a new symptom: Extreme irritability. This is so not me! I am usually fairly calm and patient. Now, I feel like I want to tear someone's head off just for the general purpose.

My GYN started me on the HRT patch 6 years ago when I first went into menopause. He said I didn't have a hormone in my body! After a few days I felt much better. Then came all the bad news about strokes, heart attacks and breast cancer due to the HRT.

If anyone has experience or advice, please let me know. The head I rip off may be a poor, innocent bystander! Or not.

Love,

Lenina

My ex, who was addicted to oxy and percs for almost 2 years due to his back injury, has 27 days clean on suboxone!!! He is taking 8mg a day of subs. Says that he hates them. Thats the good news.

The bad news. He is struggling alot. He says that he really doesnt have emotions doesnt feel anything. I told him today that I feel he still loves me and the kids and his response was "I'm glad you know how I'm feeling cause I sure don't". Has memory issues but that was kinda the case when he was on the opiates. He lost 57 pounds because he has no desire to eat. I spoke with him today about possibly having PAWS, he said he would talk to the docs...

I dont fully trust the things that are coming out of his mouth because he, I feel is still not being totally truthful with me, but baby steps first. I know that true sobriety starts with honesty so I hesitate to say he is getting better but know that that should come with time also....Praying for him.

Anyway, I wanted to post this because I am seeing first hand what alot of you are going through and I just wanted to say that I admire the fight that all of you have for your sobriety. I hope that the fight will start to grow in my ex. Thanks to alot of you whom have posted and helped me understand some of his issues.

Take care....Prayers for continued sobriety.

Was informed a couple of days ago that my EXABF whom I officially went no contact with on Sept 24th announced to some of our mutual friends that he is engaged to a lady from Washington that he met in October and he will either be relocating to Washington or she and her 2 kids will relocate to Colorado once they are married. We split up 3 months ago...the man moves fast....because during the first month of our parting ways he was still dating the waitress who works at one of his favorite bars with whom he was cheating on me with while we were still together(his cheating on me with this person while we were together was confirmed, hence the no contact starting on Sept 24th). I was in such a state of shock and anger yesterday that no matter what I tried to do to detach, remember that what he does is none of my business, and refocus on myself....I couldn't. I was so mad that once again...he is doing everything in his power to avoid dealing with any of his problems and is once again avoiding moving to Texas to be with his 3 kids from his 2nd marriage. I was so angry last night that I almost called him to tell him he was insane to be bringing 3 more innocent people into his insane alcoholic world when he knows that he is toxic (he admitted that to me before I left him). I still am in shock at how this man continually gets away with every bad thing that he does. The bad news is....I let myself get brought back into his drama. The good news is....I didn't call him and went to an Al-Anon meeting this morning to try to puts things into perspective...which it always does. My new found perspective is that what he does is none of my business and by me interfering in anyway keeps him from suffering the consequences of his actions. Like you all say on here....Nothing Changes if Nothing Changes. Thanks for listening.

Hi:evrybody Please when you go into Prayers pray
for my Aunt Emelda !!!!!! two Years ago she was Diagnose with Cancer
How ever she gave her life to the Lord and she had pray to the Lord
to Heal her and He Did cause at the beginning of this year.

my youngest Aunt Pass away and when we were all at the funeral
my aunt couldn't stop talking about How God is Big that he heal her
But just two month ago her cancer came back and there giving her
chemotherapy,and knock her out now they found a blood clock
inside her Lung so they call me and my Dad to give us the Bad News


that she ain't going to make it pass this year they gave her Days
Please Help me Pray for Her peace of mind and for her soul to go straight
to Rest in the Middle of the Bosom of our Dear Lord and Savior Jesus Christ

Thanx you all I'll B:praying to.

Monday, November 3, 2008

Enemy Tactics

I do so with Christ's authority for your benefit, so that Satan will not outsmart us. For we are very familiar with his evil schemes.

— 2 Corinthians 2:10–11


The devil tends to use the same tactics over and over again. I suppose he operates by the old adage, "If it ain't broke, don't fix it."

He has used these techniques, plans, and strategies since the Garden of Eden, and they have worked with great effect to bring down countless people. Therefore, he just keeps bringing them back, generation after generation.

That is the bad news. The good news is that we know what they are, because they are clearly identified in the Bible.

The devil is a dangerous wolf that sometimes disguises himself as a sheep. Sometimes he roars like a lion. But more often he comes like a snake. Sometimes he comes to us in all of his depravity and horror. Other times he comes to us as an angel of light. This is why we always need to be on guard.

He will tempt you and whisper, "Trust me on this. Go ahead and sin. You will get away with it. No one will ever know." So you take the bait and fall into sin.

Then the devil shouts, "What a hypocrite! Do you think God would ever hear your prayers? And don't even bother going to church!" Sadly, some people will listen to this, believe it, and be driven away.

Just remember, no matter what you have done, no matter what sin you have committed, God will always be ready to forgive you if you will turn from that sin and return to Him. Don't let the devil isolate you from God's Word and God's people, because that is exactly what he is trying to do.

Greg Laurie
Copyright ©2008 by Harvest Ministries. All Rights Reserved.

Hi everyone!

I'm going to start this thread because I can't find it anywhere else! Then again, I'm pretty cyber challenged, so if it's out there, please excuse the duplication...

Anyways, having always lived on the 2 week and under thread, I am amazed that I belong here. Believe me, I'm thrilled to say the least!

My issues now are less physical and more emotional and mental. I do still get demon thoughts at 5pm, but being on Antabuse squashes any sabotaging thoughts I may have. However...my mind on the other hand...I am finding it hard to "stick to my side of the street" (in AA lingo). My baser self keeps plaguing me with thoughts such as "how come I'm doing all this work, and you're still (fill in the blank)", or trying to stay centered myself when others are wallowing in the cup is half full stuff. I KNOW that I can only be responsible for myself, but ACCEPTING that fact and BELIEVING it in my heart of hearts and not letting resentments sneak in (bad news for ME), is another matter altogether.

Or perhaps putting it a different way, I'm having a hard time knowing when to let go and "to my own self, be true". Again, I THINK that I should assess any given situation (to assess if I have any control over it or not), figure out if I SHOULD jump in (or let go) and establish my boundaries (ie not rolling over and playing dead if I think that someone is being unfair to me). Does that make sense? My confusion is evident because it doesn't even make sense to ME! But I'm trying. Progress, not perfection, right?

I been learning to deal with acceptance lately the past few days. I got bad news from my Dr on Fri so I've been dealing with that. I've been praying, talking to my sponser and other friends in AA and reading pg 417 in the BB everyday.

I just recently started my 4th step. I've been kind of depressed about that lately cause it hard for me to write it out with the pain in my arms and hands. I had a lot of good suggestions from other AA's to either record it on tape or type it on the computer. So where there's a will, there is a way.

Last night i was so depressed going to my home group meeting and when i walk in they asked me to chair the meeting. I was like Ugh. I didn't want too. But i did and they said it would take my mind off myself. I'm so grateful to all my friends at my home group. They have helped me so many times these past 9 months.

I'm feeling a lot better today and like the title of my thread, i have to have acceptance with all things in life if i want to stay sober one day at a time.

Barb

Hi Guys, It's been a while since I've been on this forum.

I went to the Dr's yesterday about my arms. They been really bothering me again the past few weeks. I got bad news that I now have Thoracic Outlet Syndrome in my right arm now too. So now it's both of them. This really sucks.

When i raise either arm up the the air a certain way I lose the pulse in my wrist. That's how the Dr. found i have it in my right arm too. I'm really depressed about this today. I didn't want to get out of bed this morning. It's really messing with my head. This is one of the biggest reasons for my daily drinking at the end, feeling sorry for myself. For those that don't know or remember i got this condition from my 1st husband that was very abusive.

Anyway, the Dr. put me back on prescription drugs. I'm now taking Celebrex. I'm actually nervous about taking anything. I was on Vioxx a few years ago before the FDA took them off the market. Celebrex is a similar drug. I'm on this cause i told the Dr. I didn't want any drugs that are narcotics or muscle relaxers where I'm in recovery. So, i am able to take tylenol for pain with my Celebrex.

Well, i guess that it. I just wanted to share all this where I'm really depressed about all this today.

Barb

My AD called me thursday from the HIV clinic. She had been waiting for almost 3 hours and was looking for any excuse to leave and go get some crack down the block from there. She asked if I would please take her to her appointments like I used to, because she knows she won't leave then. I said I would think about it, and told her how much it messes up my head to see her the way she looks and lives now, so I'm not really kean on taking her.

She left her last appointment before ever seeing the doctors or nurse, so she really needed to stay for this one; she had not been taking her current meds consistently and I know what that means, and I wonder if she's even got any meds left. She also of course told me she is constantly vomitting (so what else is new? She knows that's what happens when she messes around with her meds and her viral load goes up. )

Her phone died (also nothing new) and I never got to find out what happened, or whether she stayed for the appointment, or what her 'numbers' are (T4 & viral load), etc.

So I'm noticing that I am pretty OK with it - in spite of the fact that my doctor who I saw this week reinforced to me that my AD is "probably going to die if she doesn't get clean very soon" (which I wonder what he thought was the point of telling me that).

So now, at almost 4 am, I am starting to wonder if my failure to freak out is somehow going to jinx things, and I'll be broadsided by another crisis or some really bad news.... You guys know what I mean? As if worry were some majic charm that wards off actual worrisome events in the real world. Superstition. Or maybe I'm just not used to be in this detached state of mind.... :codiepolice

I decided to start a new thread instead of making the other one too long.
My dad just called me. He told me my ex called & that he didn't want to call me to give me more bad news. Joey is back in jail. He left wk at 2:30pm and went out with some girl. He said her car broke down & he didn't get back to wk release until 11 hours later.
Now he will have to stay in jail until Sept or Nov of 09, At least I know he's not dead. I don't even care that he is in jail. I am even happy he made it back at all. One other time he ran away & got an Escape Charge.
I have to call Wk Release cuz I must go pick up his clothes. I just bought him practically a whole new wardrobe.
I can rest easier now.
Thank you a million, all of you, for being there. I cannot tell you how very much your support means to me. I love you all and willl keep you & your loved ones in my prayers.
Love,
Diane