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I have no idea what to do…
It happened a few months ago. She came over with hugely dialated pupils, acting strangely and anxious. She swore she wasn't on anything, that she was just tired, just exhausted. But as I went to the bathroom and picked her jeans up off the floor a little white baggie of powder fell out. I was shaking, horrified, and crying and I tossed it on the bed and asked what the hell was going on.
She said it was just a few times, she just got it because other people did. No big deal, blah blah. I wanted to believe her so she promised it was over. She had just quit the job where she was around the people who influenced her to do it so now it wouldn't be a problem.
A few weeks later, same kind of situation except this time it was her roommates who found empty bags in her dresser. She said they were really old and she just kept the empty ones to remind her of where she'd been. We all wanted to believe her, so we did.
And then there was lat night. She met me at a bar with friends and came in looking trippy. She went to the bathroom and left cigarettes on the table so i went to toss them in her bag and low and behold, three baggies inside 2 half empty, one full.
We got home (to my apt) fought, yelled, she cried, I cried, she said she didn't know what she was doing, blah blah. It was 5am by now and we both fell asleep, she had to head to work this morning but promised to come over on Monday so we could talk about all this and try to figure out what to do. I asked her to leave the coke with me, so she did.
What in the hell am I supposed to do? I love her, we've been together 4 years and she claims her problem isn't too severe but does own up to have a problem. I've been researching all day, looking up CA programs, buying books, I'm in the dark here people. I don't do drugs, I never have. I grew up around people who did and saw what it did to all of their lives and just never had any desire but now I'm faced with this.
Should I offer help? Just be supportive? There's a CA meeting on Monday night I wanted to go to her with, that is, if she'll go. I don't know. I really don't. Should I just walk away? The idea of that feels so wrong, giving up on someone when they need you the most.
I need help here...
She said it was just a few times, she just got it because other people did. No big deal, blah blah. I wanted to believe her so she promised it was over. She had just quit the job where she was around the people who influenced her to do it so now it wouldn't be a problem.
A few weeks later, same kind of situation except this time it was her roommates who found empty bags in her dresser. She said they were really old and she just kept the empty ones to remind her of where she'd been. We all wanted to believe her, so we did.
And then there was lat night. She met me at a bar with friends and came in looking trippy. She went to the bathroom and left cigarettes on the table so i went to toss them in her bag and low and behold, three baggies inside 2 half empty, one full.
We got home (to my apt) fought, yelled, she cried, I cried, she said she didn't know what she was doing, blah blah. It was 5am by now and we both fell asleep, she had to head to work this morning but promised to come over on Monday so we could talk about all this and try to figure out what to do. I asked her to leave the coke with me, so she did.
What in the hell am I supposed to do? I love her, we've been together 4 years and she claims her problem isn't too severe but does own up to have a problem. I've been researching all day, looking up CA programs, buying books, I'm in the dark here people. I don't do drugs, I never have. I grew up around people who did and saw what it did to all of their lives and just never had any desire but now I'm faced with this.
Should I offer help? Just be supportive? There's a CA meeting on Monday night I wanted to go to her with, that is, if she'll go. I don't know. I really don't. Should I just walk away? The idea of that feels so wrong, giving up on someone when they need you the most.
I need help here...
