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Time for Life
Have you ever considered how short our time on this earth really is? Yes, I know that there are situations and events that seem to stretch forever, particular those that are unpleasant and painful and those that are full of joy and promise. Nothing can change the span of time each person is allotted and the sooner one understands the value of time the more prosperous that person is.
Now that I have given up my old life; a life foolishly wasted in the pursuit of another drink, another woman and another moment of escape, I have come full circle to see the beauty of a life well lived without the crutches of the past and look forward to the challenges of life's new discoveries.
Life is that exceptional gift of learning and exploration. For years, I placed myself on the outside of the mainstream of life, believing in my self-manufactured pain that life had rejected me, when in fact I had rejected life. While I sought to relieve the pain of my circumstances, I willing chose again and again to move away from the life giving embrace of hope and closer and closer to the depths of despair.
And time moves on. Yesterday, I was but a boy, gazing out of my bedroom window gazing at a road that weaved its way to a future most unknown. Today, I am older and no less astonished at the possibilities that life offers freely as I travel new roads in this happy journey. Was it all a waste, all the missteps, all the pain, all of the experiences? No, it was my life and regrets serve nothing as I look for the beginning of another new day.
What did I learn; move away from despair and grasp the hope of tomorrow. There is time to live, if one truly wants its gifts.
Now that I have given up my old life; a life foolishly wasted in the pursuit of another drink, another woman and another moment of escape, I have come full circle to see the beauty of a life well lived without the crutches of the past and look forward to the challenges of life's new discoveries.
Life is that exceptional gift of learning and exploration. For years, I placed myself on the outside of the mainstream of life, believing in my self-manufactured pain that life had rejected me, when in fact I had rejected life. While I sought to relieve the pain of my circumstances, I willing chose again and again to move away from the life giving embrace of hope and closer and closer to the depths of despair.
And time moves on. Yesterday, I was but a boy, gazing out of my bedroom window gazing at a road that weaved its way to a future most unknown. Today, I am older and no less astonished at the possibilities that life offers freely as I travel new roads in this happy journey. Was it all a waste, all the missteps, all the pain, all of the experiences? No, it was my life and regrets serve nothing as I look for the beginning of another new day.
What did I learn; move away from despair and grasp the hope of tomorrow. There is time to live, if one truly wants its gifts.
lets make a worldwide prayer…add a simple line of beauty
As now i lay me down to sleep,
i pray my higher power will keep,
all my loved ones in its arms
an keep me in recoveries charms........
i pray my higher power will keep,
all my loved ones in its arms
an keep me in recoveries charms........
60 days sober…and still going
Wow,
So I just realized tonight that I have over 60 days sober and I have never felt this good about life. God, I know that everybody hear has heard it time and again, but I too never thought I'd make it; I couldn't even imagine one day sober much less 60+ days. I have re-found my love for my work, I am meeting more people than I ever have - good people, building positive relationships and actually finding a love for life that I just never thought would/could ever exist for me. I don't normally keep track of "the days"; I learned early on that for me, that puts me in a dangerous mindset. Once I start thinking that I have x-days sober, I start thinking that I might not be sick, but I AM. I just keep putting in my work to recovery and living each day to it's fullest. I know I'm not out of the woods, I know I never will be. This disease will be with me my entire life. BUT, I don't have to die young, I can find beauty in life, and I too can be happy. When I think of all of the good stuff that's happened to me just in the past two months, I know that I'm finally heading down the right path. It does bring a tear to my eye at times and I just wanted to thank everyone here for their story, their faith, their receptive ears and their caring nature. And, I hate to sound like a broken record, but to everyone that thinks that their too young or too old, too far gone or not far gone enough, you CAN get help, you can find happiness, you can get well. You DO NOT have to die from this disease. Yes, for me, as I'm sure for many others, truly committing to step one is really hard, but TRUST ME, once you let go, you can start grabbing life. No, it sure as hell isn't easy, but it is definitely worth.
Thank you...everyone.
So I just realized tonight that I have over 60 days sober and I have never felt this good about life. God, I know that everybody hear has heard it time and again, but I too never thought I'd make it; I couldn't even imagine one day sober much less 60+ days. I have re-found my love for my work, I am meeting more people than I ever have - good people, building positive relationships and actually finding a love for life that I just never thought would/could ever exist for me. I don't normally keep track of "the days"; I learned early on that for me, that puts me in a dangerous mindset. Once I start thinking that I have x-days sober, I start thinking that I might not be sick, but I AM. I just keep putting in my work to recovery and living each day to it's fullest. I know I'm not out of the woods, I know I never will be. This disease will be with me my entire life. BUT, I don't have to die young, I can find beauty in life, and I too can be happy. When I think of all of the good stuff that's happened to me just in the past two months, I know that I'm finally heading down the right path. It does bring a tear to my eye at times and I just wanted to thank everyone here for their story, their faith, their receptive ears and their caring nature. And, I hate to sound like a broken record, but to everyone that thinks that their too young or too old, too far gone or not far gone enough, you CAN get help, you can find happiness, you can get well. You DO NOT have to die from this disease. Yes, for me, as I'm sure for many others, truly committing to step one is really hard, but TRUST ME, once you let go, you can start grabbing life. No, it sure as hell isn't easy, but it is definitely worth.
Thank you...everyone.
