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three months, three weeks sober. but brand new to this forum, so i guess i just thought i'd say hello. i'm finding sobriety lonely as hell, and i guess i thought this might be a nice place to come and talk about it (sobriety). i'm your garden variety drunk, really. been living in london for two plus years, used ever day, all day. before that in new york, same thing some times replaced with bulimia. five years constant use of some substance. booze specifically, although i was deemed a hallucinogenic addict in rehab as well. moved back from london to my parents home in the bible belt, hence the lonely sentiments of late. anyway, that's me, just wanted to say hello.

I was raised in the heart of the bible belt and was spoon fed the fire and brimstone propaganda throughout my early childhood and teen years. Fast forward to January 30th of 2006 when I found myself walking into an AA meeting in Dallas,Tx and finding all the familiar trappings of my upbringing waiting on me. I struggled with belief always and never could quite make the stories seem rational enough to swallow them whole. I was able to stay in AA for almost two years but finally found the hypocrisy of it all too much to take and so I left. The last 15 months without meetings and being alone to wrestle with my beliefs have been very cathartic and uplifting. I have embraced the strength I have within and have said so long to my imaginary friends who have both scared and comforted me my whole life. I share this only to point out that I have achieved a peace in my life without the aid of god and have stayed sober and flourished without attending a support group everyday. I hope this helps someone else to know that there isn't only one way to break the cycle of addiction. I will always appreciate my time in AA for the support I received but the path I am on feels stronger and less codependent and less cultish.