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Last nite in the SR chat room , Dean mentioned simple things and it really got me thinking bout somethings myself , I have a big window the only window really with a view , Out side my window its white and cold but there in the lil patch of yard Is what I enjoy the most , My bird feeder . In the summer time there are a verity of birds all come to feed and bath . Something so simple as wathing them hope thu the grass and on the feeder , Just makes me think how greatful I am to be able to see such a thing , Now winter time is here theres fewer feeders out and fewer birds but i do have a pair of huge Blue Jays that come and go periodicly thu the day . they adapt to the elements and learn to survive on what lil bit they get , I always find myself worrying bout my lil featherd friends and try to make sure they have enuff food for the day . Its just lil simple things like watching them frolic in the snow that gives me an appreciation for what I do have , And that Im able to watch them day in day out and how it makes me smile , What simple things in your life makes you smile ? :thank4:thankg

I read this book recently about this guy who grew up in an alcoholic home and in there it talked about how none of his family took pride in their possessions nor took care of things that were special to them.

The book also talked about their family home being like a rubbish tip. The house was jam packed with rubbish because his parents didn't care enough to keep it clean.

The family I grew up in was similar to this and as children we were not taught to 'take care of our special things' either.

So a couple of weeks ago I decided I would start to take care of my car as I do love it. It's a convertable and brings me great joy in the summer.

I have a car cover I have been trying to put on it every night because I park my car in a carport (at night) and lots of birds live in there too, and doing what birds do, they crap all over my car! But so far so good. Most nights I remember to put the car cover on and I feel quite good about it doing it.

Are any of you trying to change something about yourself at the moment?

Ok, so here goes a little about me... A few years back I found this site & only posted a little bit. I really didn't make much of an effort to quit drinking. For the last few months, I have been lurking & reading a lot of your posts. I feel like I already know a lot about most of you. I don't have any sober time yet. I'm hoping that posting on here will help me want to quit. I think I'm still in that stage of knowing that I should quit, but I don't really know if I'm ready to. I hope some of you don't take that the wrong way & have negative feelings towards me. I'm just trying to be honest about it.

I'm 34, married to someone in the military, no kids yet, just my dogs & birds & a stray cat that decided to make his home in my backyard. I don't want this to sound like an excuse, but being in the military, there's usually alcohol flowing pretty freely especialy on the weekends. Growing up, I was always around alcohol... dad, uncles, brothers, cousins all drink. I can't even imagine a family function without alcohol being involved. When you see it so much, it all starts to seem normal. Same thing with my neighbors now. It's strange when I see him without a beer in his hand. Then his wife drinks, smokes pot & will take any anxiety/slash pain meds she can get her hands on. Strange thing is that they don't see anything wrong with it & would never consider getting help for it. It's just how they like to live. I'm not trying to say that I'm better because I only drink & don't take anything else, but I'm just trying to explain my situation. I know some of you will say to just not hang out with them. Unfortunately I'm living in a small town which is 1000 miles away from my friends & family. On a Friday or Saturday when she knocks on my door & everyone is already drinking, it's hard not to join in. This town is pretty depressing, & sometimes you just want to not deal with everything. My husband drinks too, but I don't think he's an alcoholic like me. He doesn't know that a lot of times I drink during the day when he's at work. I have a pretty high tolerance, so a few glasses of wine doesn't do a whole lot to me. Some days I'm stressed & I drink. Other days I just really like the feeling it gives me. Now I think it's just more of a habit. I almost don't know what I would do with my free time. Right now I'm looking for work. I know I need a job to fill my free time & to make some extra money. I've read some of your posts about job hunting. Well, yes it does suck. I have a college degree & I've been applying for cashier positions that probably won't even pay me $7.00/hr. Sad thing is I can't even get someone to call me for an interview. I know for a fact that one of the grocery stores is hiring, & the manager asks me for my name & number whenever I'm in there, but she won't call me. What's going on?? What a blow to your ego. I'm way overqualified for the position, & she won't call me. At this point, I'm basically just begging for any job because I think it's the only thing that could help me stop drinking right now. I need to be forced out of bed in the morning & have a place to go & not think about drinking as much. Sorry this is so long, but once I started typing, new thoughts kept popping into my head. I hope to get to know some of you better. Thanks for listening to me ramble.