Archive for the ‘Blob’ tag
Hopelessness
Here's how i feel...I feel as if i want to be sober, and i also feel that no matter what after a certain period of time i'll relapse...That would in a way be a thing called a reservation??? right??? I dont want to use......i absolutely CANNOT figure my self out, and i am getting so DAMN AGGRAVATED!!!!!!! I see people at the store or driving down the road, and i cant help but to think i wish i was them, automatically assuming they are not addicts....and they dont have to worry about the things i do. I feel so pitiful, im jus a blob of misery...i cant seem to pull myself out of it. I want to get into meetings, but i go there and watch the clock, waiting for it to be over. I cant fathom the thought of putting my life and faith into someone/something else...I feel so hopeless
