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Detection early pregnancy test
Home pregnancy tests determine the occurrence of a snitch of a hormone called human chorionic gonadotropin in your urine. This hormone, formed by cells from the placenta penetrates your bloodstream while the fertilized egg is inserted in the uterus of the woman. The amount of hCG in your body then increases quickly over the few [...]
Something scary I realised…
Just something scary I realised:
When I was still drinking I drank a lot, daily. I threw up every day, sometimes blood, I had to have alcohol in my bloodstream to feel "normal". I woke up with terrible anxiety every day, etc. etc.
This went on for years and years.
Here it is:
During those hellish drinking years I hardly EVER considered giving it up!
Once in a while I would think about moderating my drinking (this never worked) and would check out some internet pages about alcohol abuse, but for the rest I had just fully accepted the debilitating presence of alcohol in my life and kept drinking!
This, in hindsight, strikes me as really warped and strange. Truly sick.
When I was still drinking I drank a lot, daily. I threw up every day, sometimes blood, I had to have alcohol in my bloodstream to feel "normal". I woke up with terrible anxiety every day, etc. etc.
This went on for years and years.
Here it is:
During those hellish drinking years I hardly EVER considered giving it up!
Once in a while I would think about moderating my drinking (this never worked) and would check out some internet pages about alcohol abuse, but for the rest I had just fully accepted the debilitating presence of alcohol in my life and kept drinking!
This, in hindsight, strikes me as really warped and strange. Truly sick.
What a week
I haven't been on the forum for a week now because my ABF was hospitalized with cellulites and it got into his bloodstream...he has been in critical condition until yesterday....to top it off he had to go through the DT's....it's been a nightmare and tonight he was having problems again when I left the hospital...currently he has a raging staph infection that is affecting every organ including his brain....it can lead to meningitis and death
I will admit I have been there most of the week...his daughter came to see him twice for a few minutes....no emotions at all....said what bad timing this was for her to have her dad sick....I wanted to lose it on her but decided to let it go....what's the sense of trying to reach the unreachable...
I told everyone of his friends and family that I would see him through this but if after all this he returns to the bottle I am never going through this again....I would leave and just wait for his obituary in the paper...I hold no hope he will change and want no thanks from him for being with him while in a coma....I know our hospitals are understaffed as I work in the health system so I believe it's important that anyone in a vulnerable state have someone with them in case things go wrong.
Just tonight when I got there he was having great difficulty breathing and his tongue was severely swollen....the nurses were unaware and when I told them they rushed in with oxygen and a shot of steroid to reduce the swelling....his fever was mounting again as well...It was had to leave the hospital tonight but I am exhausted...
I know I may have slipped into my codependent role but I would have had way too much guilt walking away from this situation..
He is so much more than his addiction and God willing he will recover someday....his doctor plans on an intervention when he is better so we shall see...
Good Night all...Now I am going to say a prayer for him.
Peace
Maggie
I will admit I have been there most of the week...his daughter came to see him twice for a few minutes....no emotions at all....said what bad timing this was for her to have her dad sick....I wanted to lose it on her but decided to let it go....what's the sense of trying to reach the unreachable...
I told everyone of his friends and family that I would see him through this but if after all this he returns to the bottle I am never going through this again....I would leave and just wait for his obituary in the paper...I hold no hope he will change and want no thanks from him for being with him while in a coma....I know our hospitals are understaffed as I work in the health system so I believe it's important that anyone in a vulnerable state have someone with them in case things go wrong.
Just tonight when I got there he was having great difficulty breathing and his tongue was severely swollen....the nurses were unaware and when I told them they rushed in with oxygen and a shot of steroid to reduce the swelling....his fever was mounting again as well...It was had to leave the hospital tonight but I am exhausted...
I know I may have slipped into my codependent role but I would have had way too much guilt walking away from this situation..
He is so much more than his addiction and God willing he will recover someday....his doctor plans on an intervention when he is better so we shall see...
Good Night all...Now I am going to say a prayer for him.
Peace
Maggie
