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Day Two
Hello. :)
I've been toying with the idea of quiting drinking alcohol altogether for years.
Recent Drama:
I was having happy hour drinks with some friends two days ago, then rode my bike home. It was a long trek, and I didn't realize how dang drunk I was until I was almost home. I'm actually worried that parts of the ride I don't even remember. At one point, while peddling up a big ol' hill... I dumped my bike. Suffered a bruised skull, shoulder, hip and knee.
I feel so stupid.
I went into the bar saying to myself, and out loud to the bartender, no hard alcohol. I'm just here for a few beers. Evidently, I cannot control how drunk I get anymore. I'm so upset and worried about that to the point of wanting to quit drinking completely. Not even a glass of wine with dinner. WOW...that thought really bums me out. :(
I haven't had the courage to admit to my fiance that I had been drunk when I fell on my bike. And If I have to lie, I feel things can only get worse.
Today is Day Two. I'm happy about that. Going to stay busy and away from drinking friends and bars this week. If I can stay sober for a week, I'll be proud.
I've been toying with the idea of quiting drinking alcohol altogether for years.
Recent Drama:
I was having happy hour drinks with some friends two days ago, then rode my bike home. It was a long trek, and I didn't realize how dang drunk I was until I was almost home. I'm actually worried that parts of the ride I don't even remember. At one point, while peddling up a big ol' hill... I dumped my bike. Suffered a bruised skull, shoulder, hip and knee.
I feel so stupid.
I went into the bar saying to myself, and out loud to the bartender, no hard alcohol. I'm just here for a few beers. Evidently, I cannot control how drunk I get anymore. I'm so upset and worried about that to the point of wanting to quit drinking completely. Not even a glass of wine with dinner. WOW...that thought really bums me out. :(
I haven't had the courage to admit to my fiance that I had been drunk when I fell on my bike. And If I have to lie, I feel things can only get worse.
Today is Day Two. I'm happy about that. Going to stay busy and away from drinking friends and bars this week. If I can stay sober for a week, I'll be proud.
Being A Alcholic
Yesmy b/f
is gone kicked out. But I have to say I feel so horrible for a acholic.
People do not grow up and say boy I want to grow up and be a drunk.
I think it is a horrid disease. What it must be like for them.
I have saw my b/f drink and drink throw up blood and go drink again morning noon and night. It is like he has demons inside him something inside him that torments hims. I see these people walking down the streets turned into bums I bet many of them had some kind of life before liquor took over.
I find it very sad to see one throw there wholelife away.
My b/f or ex now has totally hit rock bottom.
He had a nice home here with me he always paid his half of the bills was clean. The last time I saw him he was shaking and drinking and looked like a man off the street. They also hurt those around them I have never got I am sorry kelli for calling you horrid names night and day never. I try to talk to him about it when he was sober well forget that he acted like he never said allthose things. And on every holiday he ruined everyone why I do not know.
This last x-mas we went to my moms and yes she had acholic it is her home and everyone has a drink or two well tom had about 50 it seems. I hurry and get him in the car so it would not be to embarrising for my family to see and my son is 21 and I was scared he may say something to tom and trouble would start. It started out such a nice x-mas eve, We got in the car and the verbal abuse started out of no where. Is this a pattern to ruin things.
My best friend and her husband were always inviting us over to play cards they have never met him I always made a excuse because we play cards and drink some beer if I had taken Tom it would have turned into a distaer.
So yes I feel sorry for them I know it must be hell pure hell.
I think love and hate can go together.
I have learned from here there is nothing in the world I can do nothing.
But I still have him in my heart and wish him some kind of peace and God willing he will get his life together, He is almost 62 I am only 46 and his health is going down very quickly so when I see a drunk on the street I say a little prayer.
And to all the women and children who are abused by a drunk I really pray and hope they get out.
It all seems so hopeless for them at times.
Kelli...
is gone kicked out. But I have to say I feel so horrible for a acholic.
People do not grow up and say boy I want to grow up and be a drunk.
I think it is a horrid disease. What it must be like for them.
I have saw my b/f drink and drink throw up blood and go drink again morning noon and night. It is like he has demons inside him something inside him that torments hims. I see these people walking down the streets turned into bums I bet many of them had some kind of life before liquor took over.
I find it very sad to see one throw there wholelife away.
My b/f or ex now has totally hit rock bottom.
He had a nice home here with me he always paid his half of the bills was clean. The last time I saw him he was shaking and drinking and looked like a man off the street. They also hurt those around them I have never got I am sorry kelli for calling you horrid names night and day never. I try to talk to him about it when he was sober well forget that he acted like he never said allthose things. And on every holiday he ruined everyone why I do not know.
This last x-mas we went to my moms and yes she had acholic it is her home and everyone has a drink or two well tom had about 50 it seems. I hurry and get him in the car so it would not be to embarrising for my family to see and my son is 21 and I was scared he may say something to tom and trouble would start. It started out such a nice x-mas eve, We got in the car and the verbal abuse started out of no where. Is this a pattern to ruin things.
My best friend and her husband were always inviting us over to play cards they have never met him I always made a excuse because we play cards and drink some beer if I had taken Tom it would have turned into a distaer.
So yes I feel sorry for them I know it must be hell pure hell.
I think love and hate can go together.
I have learned from here there is nothing in the world I can do nothing.
But I still have him in my heart and wish him some kind of peace and God willing he will get his life together, He is almost 62 I am only 46 and his health is going down very quickly so when I see a drunk on the street I say a little prayer.
And to all the women and children who are abused by a drunk I really pray and hope they get out.
It all seems so hopeless for them at times.
Kelli...
Are all active alcoholics bums?
As some of you know, my ASO and I have been separated for 6 weeks now and we have a 9 month old daughter together.
Ever since we separated, he has rarely seen our daughter and is still driniking actively. He and I have an arrangement that he pays for day care. He helped out with the day care bill one week and has not pitched in since. Of course, we have not seen him since either. Now he is saying that he will give me enough for both weeks of day care that he was not around when he gets paid next week. He is supposedly in recovery since yesterday, yet he still does not have 24 hours of sobriety under his belt.
Anyway, I plan to officially file for child support if he does not follow through next week and begins to contribute every week going forward. I can get by without him, too, so sometimes I wonder if it is worth it to go through all the hassle or if I should just move on and accept him for the A/bum he is. However, a part of me thinks that it is only fair that he supports both his children as he does pay child support for his first daughter from a previous marriage already.
My A always took advantage of me even when we lived together because I let him do that. Although he is a functional A with a great job, he never paid rent or utilitites during the few years we were living together. He would buy the groceries most of the time and would pay for most of our entertaining bills (restaurants, outings, etc.), but what he spent never came close to what I spent on the house. His spending was always spontaneous. In other words, he could go out and buy something for the house and get a dress and/or a toy for our daughter, but it was only when he felt like it and was in the mood. He was never good with scheduled payments like rent, utilities, car payments, etc.
What are your thoughts on that? Have you had similar or different experiences with the A's in your life?
Ever since we separated, he has rarely seen our daughter and is still driniking actively. He and I have an arrangement that he pays for day care. He helped out with the day care bill one week and has not pitched in since. Of course, we have not seen him since either. Now he is saying that he will give me enough for both weeks of day care that he was not around when he gets paid next week. He is supposedly in recovery since yesterday, yet he still does not have 24 hours of sobriety under his belt.
Anyway, I plan to officially file for child support if he does not follow through next week and begins to contribute every week going forward. I can get by without him, too, so sometimes I wonder if it is worth it to go through all the hassle or if I should just move on and accept him for the A/bum he is. However, a part of me thinks that it is only fair that he supports both his children as he does pay child support for his first daughter from a previous marriage already.
My A always took advantage of me even when we lived together because I let him do that. Although he is a functional A with a great job, he never paid rent or utilitites during the few years we were living together. He would buy the groceries most of the time and would pay for most of our entertaining bills (restaurants, outings, etc.), but what he spent never came close to what I spent on the house. His spending was always spontaneous. In other words, he could go out and buy something for the house and get a dress and/or a toy for our daughter, but it was only when he felt like it and was in the mood. He was never good with scheduled payments like rent, utilities, car payments, etc.
What are your thoughts on that? Have you had similar or different experiences with the A's in your life?
