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Life is a little crazy right now…

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Wow, too much to say what all has led to this point. I really hope I can get it back on track but I have doubts. I lost my dream job the other day after being on it for a week (seriously). My wife now says she's done with me and I have virtually no where to turn for support.

To put my job loss in context, I had been planning the transition to the new job since March, earlier this year. I had a contract that I had to wait out with my other job and once it ended I was supposed to start the new one. In the meantime, I picked up some side work here and there to help make it along with my wife's income. I also sold off one of our cars (actually my primary vehicle which was paid off) to keep things rolling along until my start date. Then I found out that the guy who hired me had been let go due to "restructuring", which came along with a merger. So he gave me the contact info for the person who had replaced him.

Almost immediately, I noticed some potential issues that might come up. My start date came and went. They instead made me a lesser offer and essentially said "take it or leave it". All of this on the fact that I had brought them one of the largest deals that they will ever see for our industry.

So I started and everything was great. By the end of the week however, I had apparently given them reason to doubt me due to my partying and arriving hours late one day. We were at a trade show so at night I would want to do things. So I get a message stating that we were done and it wasn't up for discussion. Basically boiling down to they would not trust me to work from my home location away from their offices.

So I told my wife after getting the message and she flipped out. Called her parents and things were said. Her parents are on her side and are advising her to leave me. We have a young child and she says that she's taking him too. She seems dead serious about leaving so I'm trying to figure things out. I honestly can't imagine not being their to raise our son, get him ready for school in the morning, help with his homework, laugh with him, anything and everything etc.

Yes, there's a history of me binge drinking. This has gotten worse since college where we first met 12 years ago, and she's since put up a wall around her. There's been an emotional disconnect somewhere along the way it seems. She drinks too but has never been a big drinker. Me on the other hand, once I start I don't no when to stop.

So here I am, unemployed, depressed, doubting myself, no one to turn to, and maybe no where to live in the near future. The good news is that I have pledged to stop drinking and put it behind me this past weekend. I actually feel (physically) really good since Saturday. That was when I stopped. So 3 or 4 days only but I don't feel like having a drink. It's surprising seeing how I'm sitting at home right now with no appointments to meet and no where to go.

I'm trying to get my wife to go to counseling with me but she said she wouldn't go and if I felt like I needed it then do it, otherwise I needed to take care of myself and she's looking forward to starting her life over without me. At one point, she did say that she would go just one time just so I knew that she was serious about leaving.

Anyone have any thoughts, advice? I'm trying to see a family counselor and maybe get an appointment with a doctor. I don't want to get on medication but it may help. I know without drinking I can be the husband and dad that people expect me to be. Even with the drinking, I've always been a great dad, just not always there for my wife as she says.

Written by youknow

December 17th, 2008 at 7:22 am

greatfulness

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In todays hard times we often feel like were missing out on something Im refurring to not having a nice home or nice car , or a better paying job there's an endless list . I myself find manything in that list . But last nite I watched a program , that literly brought me to tears . and made me relize Im not that bad off like so many in this world . The show was Secret Millionar ( how ever its spelled ) They are very well loaded and live the very highlife . planes cars estates u name it . They gave up all there belongings for one week and were placed in an area of high poverity to live off a small some of money to eat , sleep . something they were totaly not used to . In the end giveing away a very huge sum of money to those they found in there weeks journey that truly were in need and who could beneifit the best from that sum of money , They kept there real life a secret until day 7 where they re-visited those they selected and came clean with who they really were . I was especially touched buy the first hours show . And how they just assumed that people of poverity are there on there own choosing and prefured not to do anything to change there lifes , But the wake up call was them partisapating in this Documentry and finding how how terribly wrong they were , That its lifes hard times and things that happen to ppl that put them in the situation they are in . was a preacher who gave up everthing which was nuttin after Katrina took his home , doing for others while he had nuttin him self to rebuild , A woman who had been homless after a horrible accident on a work site , the hospital bills left her homeless for a yr . a family trying to keep there home while paying for there daughter Cemo treatment for cancer , a Coach who brought together 3 schools to play football after Katrina ( all schools gone ) to win the State HS football Trophy . and many more , The storys shared by these wonderful people who literly have nuttin , but gave of them selfs so much and asked for nuttin in return . They opened there doors to these Secret Millioniars , with out askin for anything in return other then to just help those in need when they need them selfs . They were given a gift of money from these secret ppl . I know this is a long winded post . But Its just something I thought was so heart warming . And a big eye opener for those who have so much and take for granted there upscale lifes and forget that there are people in the world that could beneifit from the money they put out just in a nites meal ( one said 5000$ wasnt even a worry ) to him .... will they change they ways of thinkin .perhaps ...but It sure made me humble and thank My HP for all the things I have in my life , It may not be the best but its sure better then the way things used to be . The show I guess is a new series and will be on again next week it was on Fox ( wensday nites ) for those who wish to watch it . thanks for letting me share this long winded post , and thanks SR for being here for so many that need it . your a life saver for all of us and ask nuttin in return other then we find our lifes better from getting clean or sober .. bless you all this holiday season . :ghug3

In Laws Enable AH

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Well- My Ah did not work all week. He says his back hurts. This is after being out over 2 months with hip replacement. He has excuse for it all! I am slaving working hard and still being cursed at, mouth spitting at and yelled at, told I am horrible yada yada yada-- Oh yea Nag of the Year! I forgot to add that. I came home last night to hear how our chiropractor/neighbor's office manager missed his call and did not return his call. A normal person would call back but Ah cussed me about it- said he will just suffer and the office sucks yada yada yada. I called them - they apologize- say tell him to come now- he refuses and says forget it. NiCE! I went to his folks nearby to talk to his Mom and to tell her he is out of his mind- he is throwing things, cussing, I found a lighter in his pocket so I know he is smoking- I have 2 feet out the door- she needs to talk to him and calm him down as my teen age sons were freaked out and i have had enough.

She comes down- she is terribly sweet- but does not want to mention the drugs or alcohol near Thanksgiving..but talks to him in our room - he goes to bed by 7 when he isn't wasted. By the time he is done with her she comes out and on the way home tells me ...........I am mean to him...you have to give a man credit for the smallest things even if you know it is not deserved.....he told her I missed 1 credit card payment and because of that Discover has jacked my rate to 18.99%. She scolds me for that. Mind you - he has not worked and not been paid a bill since September 1. I have paid the house, the cars, the boat, the college bills- all utilities , medicals, insurance IT ALL! She defended him. No wonder he is an idiot and can't do for himself. I told her I am done paying his way- he can move in with her if he wants and she can deal with him. I am done. She of course does not want that ---- He could not pay 1/5 of the bills here alone. He has said he won't leave and wants me to leave with 2 kids and 2 dogs. I read that post about when the pain stops and I am thinking it is stopping for me because I can barely deal with my terminally ill parents and my business and my bills as it is. I told him I will not spend Thanksgiving with him - He only brings me down and I am sick of his drunken pot smoking ways. He lost his first family - he has pretty much lost us...he doesn't care...Oh well!:a043:

Written by Redheadsusie

November 26th, 2008 at 12:35 pm

update

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As most of you know, I was hit on the head during a robbery earlier this month.

Instead of giving me "plenty of hours" at work on 2nd shift (3rd shift no longer exists), my hours were cut and 3 more people were brought back, or transferred in and giving the hours.

I've been going to workman's comp dr's, because I am still VERY scatterbrained. After finding out that they think this is a mental issue (PTSD) and they don't DEAL with that, I went to my dr. I was put on an anti-d, which hopefully will get my brain back to working okay. I have an appt. with the neurologist on the 19th.

I've been struggling with money, nausea, no appetite, but I turned over the money issue and just keep putting one foot in front of the other.

I've applied for numerous jobs, and will continue to do so. I just got a check, today, for work that I had done for a friend of dad's and can pay my bills. I am applying for reinstatement of my nursing license and am, now, ready to jump through whatever hoops they want me to jump through. I am also applying for gov't jobs and am probably going to take a course online.

On the 9th, I will have 20 months in recovery. I won't deny that when the robbery happened, I thought it was a darn good excuse to get numb. But instead, I came here and clung tight to my friends at SR.

To those of you who have loved ones still struggling, don't give up hope. It's taken me 3-1/2 years to get to this point, and I made some stupid choices along the way. Four years ago, I was homeless, jumping into cars with strange men, and could think of nothing but crack.

Today, I realize that I am learning valuable lessons from my struggles, and my friends, family, and my faith keep me moving forward.

Hugs and prayers!

Amy

Am I still enabling him? - Need advice

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Hi All,

When my XASO left, he took one of our cars and has been driving it to work, but has also been driving it drunk to get home from the bar on a regular basis. My name is on the title for the car he is driving and I paid for it. In addition, my XASO does not have a valid driver's license as it was revoked for a prior DUI a few years ago. His name is also not on the insurance for the car he is driving. I am really worried that one of this days he will hurt himself or somebody else while driving drunk.

Am I enabling him by letting him drive the car that I have the title for? What can I do to find peace of mind? I am not interested in the value of the car or getting money for it, but I am worried. I know I cannot control him, but cn I control the situation and do I have a moral obligation to? I know I would feel absolutely horrible if he ended up hurting himself or somebody else. Can I take the car away from him and tell him that he can get it back if he gets his driver's license back? BTW, he will have to complete a series of SATOP classes in order to get his driver's license back and he has been avoiding having to do that for years.

Any advice would be greatly appreciated as I am so lost as to where my responsibility ends and what he does begins!

Thank you all for being here when I need you.

Parent for my parents?

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Hi,

Some of you may know a little of my story - my dad was an alcoholic, we lost everything from House to cars to friends and family. He did not stop drinking until he was out on the street with nobody who'll take him in.

Now we've all been seperated - my mom is about 3hrs drive away, I'm living with bf 30 mins away and my brother moved into a commune. Now my dad is there with him and they are getting an apartment.

My dad has had over 70 days of sobriety. He sounds good. We're actually talking over the phone and mailing each other, but now my parents have totally swapped. It used to be my mother complaining to me about my father. Now my father is getting a little of what he gave us....but yet again it is me in the middle! I have told them I do not want to be part of their issues, though they'll start a conversation: "I know you don't want to get involved, but...."

My mother has become addicted to Zolpidne's I think: calming and anti-depressants. It makes her a zombie unable to make rational decisions. Now my dad is calling me telling me she is threatening to commit suicide...

I just don't know what to do anymore. My friends say stay out of it, but what if this is a case like many where they need help, don't find any and do the unthinkable??? When I did call her yesterday morning, all she did was hysterically yell at me - that is how she was talking! We weren't arguing or anything...I just don't know anymore.

I've got my own problems to solve, I do not have the time or patience to play parent for my parents! I don't think it's fair that I should have to either. I have enough guilt that I can't be a better sister to my brother!

Any advice would be appreciated.

Idiot sightings

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Be Careful Out There: IDIOT SIGHTING:
We had to have the garage door repaired. The Sears repairman told us that
one of our problems was that we did not have a 'large' enough motor on the opener. I thought for a minute, and said that we had the largest one Sears made at that time, a 1/2 horsepower. He shook his head and said, 'Lady, you need a 1/4 horsepower.' I responded that 1/2 was larger than 1/4. He said, 'NO, it's not.' Four is larger than two..'
We haven't used Sears repair since.

IDIOT SIGHTING
My daughter and I went through the McDonald's take-out window and I gave the clerk a $5 bill. Our total was $4.25, so I also handed her a quarter.
She said, 'you gave me too much money.' I said, 'Yes I know, but thi s way you can just give me a dollar bill back.' She sighed and went to get the manager who asked me to repeat my request. I did so, and he handed me back the quarter, and said 'We're sorry but they could not do that kind of thing.' The clerk then proceeded to give me back$1 and 75 cents in change.
Do not confuse the clerks at McD's.

IDIOT SIGHTING :
I live in a semi rural area. We recently had a new neighbor call the local
township administrative office to request the removal of the DEER CROSSING
sign on our road. The reason: 'Too many deer are being hit by cars out
here! I don't think this is a good place for them to be crossing anymore.'
From Kingman , KS

IDIOT SIGHTING IN FOOD SERVICE:
My daughter went to a local Taco Bell and ordered a taco. She asked the
person behind the counter for 'minimal lettuce.' He said he was sorry, but
they only had iceburg lettuce.
From Kansas City

IDIOT SIGHTING :
I was at the airport, checking in at the gate when an airport employee
asked, 'Has anyone put anything in your baggage without your knowledge?'
To which I replied, 'If it was without my knowledge, how would I know?' He
smiled knowingly and nodded,
'That's why we ask.'
Happened in Birmingham , Ala.

IDIOT SIGHTING :
The stoplight on the corner buzzes when it's safe to cross the street. I
was crossing with an intellectually challenged co-worker of mine. She
asked if I knew what the buzzer was for. I explained that it signals blind
people when the light is red. Appalled, she responded, 'What on earth are
blind people doing driving?!'
She was a probation officer in Wichita , KS

IDIOT SIGHTING:
At a good-bye luncheon for an old and dear coworker. She was leaving the
company due to 'downsizing.' Our manager commented cheerfully, 'This is
fun. We should do this more often.' Not another word was spoken. We all
just looked at each other with that deer-in-the-headlights stare.
This was a lunch at Texas Instruments.

IDIOT SIGHTING:
I work with an individual who plugged her power strip back into itself and
for the sake of her life, couldn't understand why her system would not
turn on.
A deputy with the Dallas County Sheriffs office, no less.

IDIOT SIGHTING:
When my husband and I arrived at an automobile dealership to pick up our
car, we were told the keys had been locked in it. We went to the service
department and found a mechanic working feverishly to unlock the drivers
side door. As I watched from the passenger side, I instinctively tried the
door handle and discovered that it was unlocked. 'Hey,' I announced to the
technician, 'its open!' His reply, 'I know. I already got that side.'
This was at the Ford dealership in Canton , Mississippi

STAY ALERT!

They walk among us... and the scary part is that they VOTE and they
REPRODUCE

When do you stop

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My son is driving me crazy, he is 15 years old. I am having a terrible time with him.

I have to constantly get on his butt to do homework, and study.

I feel like giving up and letting the cards fall where they fall.

I know that I cant give up, but man is it hard.

He sat in his spanish class today and was suppose to be working on a in class assignment that needed to be turned in at the end of the hour and he chose to write a letter to this girl and break up with her. Erggggggggggggggg This is the same girl that he was walking to her class and was late for his class two days in a row lastweek. If he is late one more time he will have to get a letter sent home and signed. So his already C turned into a C-. I asked him about it and he said he didnt pay attention to class today and that he can turn the assignment in tomorrow. I said what if your teacher wont accept it because it was late. Very possible for a sophmore who is suppose to be responsible. Such a laxy daisy attitude I just feel like saying I am so done.

I am the most giving person in the world, and it seems like my children are the most selfish, self centered people in the world.

I drove my (19 year old) daughter's car to work today and she just called and told me she was going to be home in about 15 minutes. She was on a trip since Thursday.

I told her that I took her car so I wouldnt have to move cars around and there was gas in it and I didnt have time to stop and put gas in my van. It was my youngest daughters picture day today so I got off to work later than normal so I could do her hair for pictures. My daughter gave me an attitude and kept saying why, and I said I will talk to you when I get home. She kept saying WHY, I said I will talk to you when I get HOME. I am angry with her attitude she gave me.

I just feel like I cant deal with all this crap right now. I have a good mind to go home and just yell at everyone. But where will that get me accept for both of them looking at me like I am nuts (Love that).

Written by Cassey

September 29th, 2008 at 12:52 pm

My yucky new assignment

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My sponsor assigned me to ask for a ride to a meeting this week. She thinks it'll be good for me to humble myself and ask for help. I don't need a ride, as I have two running cars at this point, so it seems odd. But, I suppose I'll have to give it a try, as I'm trying to be more open to suggestions.
Anyone else ever get this "homework assignment?"
KJ:wtf2

Written by kj3880

September 26th, 2008 at 7:31 pm

kids’ shoes

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And I can sprint....when somebody yells, "Lindsey, a kid's been hit by a car!" We had just gotten out of the van for my son's football practice. He followed me when I ran, and I told him to get my stethoscope from the van. I could hear people screaming down at the highway, about 100 yards away. The girl is the 15 y/o daughter of my son's football coach, and when she left in the ambulance she was looking amazingly good for the trauma she had sustained. I was worried about a potential subdural, but nothing else....of course a subdural is enough. But she tore up the front end of the car that hit her, so the fact that she was awake, talking, and otherwise looking good (despite the very bloody face) was encouraging.

When it was all over and I walked back to the football field, another parent told me about my son and how he had been crying unconsolably. He told me later that he was scared that the girl was going to die because he couldn't find the stethoscope. Of course he's not used to seeing bloody kids after they've been hit by cars, so that had to be a lot for him, but it's amazing that he felt that responsible for her. Bless his heart. He's such a good kid. I can just imagine him tearing up the van looking for that stethoscope that was at home on the kitchen table....