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has anyone ever tried MS Contin? im currently on oxycontin/codone and my insurance refuses coverage of the oxycontin unless you have cancer...my chronic pain is out of control if i dont take my meds, so because the MS is covered 100% i need to try it as my oxy is almost $400 a month...what has your experience been with it? did it work well/not so well? any bad side effects? any input is appreciated...thanks!

Okay, so ABF is locked up, and has been since Saturday for possession. Hasn't been charged with the VOP yet, but am sure that one is coming. I told him I cannot afford to bail him out because I am already almost destitute because he had lost yet another job right after Thanksgiving. That job took eight months to get! I am feeling horrible guilt and sadness mixed with unbelievable anger at the position I am in right now. On the one hand, I want to yell, scream, point fingers and say This is all your fault!! and then on the other hand, I want to kick myself for being sooo stupid, yet again.
I did finally find the strength to kick him out in the beginning of December, but he begged and pleaded for another chance, started going to meetings almost daily, and then spent most of his time here, at my house. He was offering assistance with housekeeping, chores, and just general maintenance, and I let him keep coming over even though I really didn't want to. I was starting to see what it was like with a little more peace in the house again, and I didn't have to listen to him constantly berate and badger my 7yr old daughter. (who he blames for the demise of OUR relationship because I don't discipline her properly according to him) , of course it has nothing to do with all the financial troubles, legal troubles and everything else having to do with his addiction.
He went to meetings constantly and I was starting to have hope. When all of a sudden, BAM...had that queasy feeling in the pit of my stomach that something wasn't right, he seemed off. Come to find out he was buying pills from some guy at AA. He told me,"He understands what its like to live in chronic pain...blah, blah, blah..., and I've talked to plenty of people, and it doesn't jeopordize my sobriety if I need them...blah, blah," My daughter came out in the middle of the argument to hand me a narcotic painkiller that she found on the floor. Again, told him get out, right now! he took off on the bike like a maniac! The bike was screaming through my neighborhood, full of kids...he had to be doing at least 80mph! when twenty minutes before that, he could barely hold up his head and could barely be understood when he spoke to me, he was slurring so badly. I panicked, and called the police, I was so terrified of what he might do to himself or someone else...I don't know if I will ever feel good about that decision, because it was just a few short moments later that they pulled him over and arrested him. Now I find out that each and every pill he had on him will probably be a seperate charge, and he had several, plus the VOP, and he wasn't supposed to be driving anyway because he has a hardship license for work purposes only....I feel SO GUILTY. Has anyone ever called the police and then felt horrible about it? Part of me knows I did the right thing, the other part of me feels like I should have just left it alone, and not interfered.
Yes, he had a pretty bad bike wreck two and a half years ago, spent the last two years in pain management, until I said that's it, can't take it anymore, either get off the meds or get out! He was taking his full months prescription in a week and a half or less. constantly passed out, stealing from us, lying, borrowing money from everybody and anybody he could. I found out that on Thanksgiving Day, while I was at work he had a dealer come to my house! then he had the nerve to show up at my family's home all messed up. That did it for me, that is when I finally asked him to leave.
I do love him, the guy that I know is somewhere in there. He was the most romantic, sweet and thoughtful men I had ever met. He is so intelligent, and that is really appealing to me. Exactly what happened to my intelligence? Not sure. I kept believing his lies, was shocked each and every time I caught him in another one, and really wanted to believe that he loved me as much as he said he did.
What I guess I'm really having trouble with is the fact that I know, and HATE all the things he has done to me and my daughter, but for some weird reason, still feel sorry for him, don't want to see him suffer etc. I feel like a freak sometimes because I don't know which end is up. Don't know what I really feel...or am I really feeling all of it?
Don't know if it gets better or will I always feel like this? I do know that I have read lots of posts here, and I see many people that are going through the same or very similar circumstances, and that is comforting. I have spent the last two years of my life being obsessed with my bf and his using, it sucked all my energy from me. Now, I am still feeling like the life is being sucked out of me by MY feelings. Feel exhausted and drained. Guess that's it for now. Sure is nice to have a place to be able to just get this stuff out instead of having to hold it to myself because others don't understand.

I posted this in a thread I hopped in yesterday. Yesterday was the first day I actually realized, and knew and told myself, im addicted to Heroin. I was a wreck yesterday, a mess. this crumbled my life to the core. But I am going to try CT tonight. I am going tio post this here in the hopes of getting more responses. I know im going to get alot of "you are not really being clean if youre still taking" etc... Realize. when I stop H, I will still have to take some type of pain killer for a medical condition I have. Im not hiding behind that, I being for real. I want to know is taking OXYS or such while im CTing from H, will it only prolong the addiction, like does my body see them as the same opiate, so taking the OC is just like smoking the H? i wont get off the ****... Welp heres the post.

OH! MERRY XMAS ALL!

"Ok, Im a little calmer now... I still am gonna try to cold turkey tonight. Questionand no one seems to answer it. Ok, I have a condition and really do have chronic pain, thats where i think all this started. But anyways, I have access to a constant supply (limited right now til i get into a doc this week), but I do have some. Like i said I know I( shouldnt substitute one drug for another but, if i take some oxy when the WDs get real real bad, and do that till im out of the woods. Am i gonna be hooked on OCs then? Or will the taking the oc make the heroin addiction still be there, since its still an opiate?? I also have some Wellbutrin, Phenobarbital(that will be handy im sure for the anxiety, some 20 MG ocs, and some 5mg percocets..about 40 of those. Help please???!! I dont want to be thinking Im getting off dope the whole time but me taking the OC is going to make the addiction to dope still be there? Im going to post this somewhere else also, in the hopes of getting more responses. Thank you all so far in your replys!!! I will keep you updated."

Hi - I'm new here but I shouldn't be. I should have been here a long time ago, but I'm sure I've been in denial that the alcoholic I've lived with for 13 years could have destroyed my life so badly. I've been down every avenue, trying to figure out why I'm so sick, both mentally and physically. I suffer from chronic pain. I have no joy in my life. I don't sleep well. I'm miserable. I feel that I'm sicker than the alcoholic himself, yet I don't drink a drop.

I've been seeing an abuse counsellor for 2 years, but the issue isn't around the alcohol as much it is the abuse, and how my life is so financially enmeshed with the abuser, that I'm getting more and more stuck as times goes by and finding it impossible to get out of this nightmare mess that I've gotten myself into. I keep making the wrong decisons and going around in circles and I believe that I'm literally driving myself insane over this.

He believes that he can stop anytime he wants and has no idea how devastating it is to deal with the childish rages and tantrums he has when he's inebriated. When he's sober he is a take charge guy who is very talented and productive. If someone were to stay - why do you stay? - it's because of the Jekyll/Hyde affect.

It just becomes impossible to believe that the guy who says he'll stop being that way and things will be fine, suddenly keep turning into the monster bringing on the nightmare. Insanity sets in after a while, and you start not to believe you can take care of yourself any longer, when you know you always did before and that somehow you NEED this alcoholic.

My question to anyone who reads this is:

Have you, or anyone you know gotten to be as sick as this from living with an alcoholic?

Thanks for listening ...

Dazed!

So here's my short version. I began taking hydrocodone (7.5mg) about 3 1/2 years ago after enduring my 7th ankle surgery due to yet another volleyball injury. I have been taking between 3 and 7 pills a day, every day, since then. I have chronic pain in the mid-foot area of both my feet from arthritis that has formed from the numerous surgeries. I am currently taking an average of 6 pills a day right now and don't really know that I want to quit, although I can see it affecting my personality with both my wife and my 2 awesome kids. I have been seeing a pain management specialist who has limited me to 3 pills per day and will not refill prescriptions early for me; however, obtaining "extra" has not bee a problem for me. I have been true to the contract I signed with my Dr. about hopping from medical professional to medical professional and attempting to gain more. This does not mean that I haven't stolen a few here and there from friends I knew had it on hand.

In addition, I know that I am using the drug to assist in my depression which I have suffered with for a while now. Dad passed away in April and that is when my usage really began to increase. On top of the hydro, I also take Zoloft and Welbutrin for my depression but find it causes such severe headaches that I always stop it on my own and go back to the hydro.

I've tried a couple of times to get off of it and began to get pain in my feet so bad that I just want to cry. I don't know if this pain is from the arthritis or the withdrawal, but I have yet to be able to go long enough to find out.

The only reason I find myself here today is that my Rx will run out well before I am able to refill it and I am out of options for obtaining more. Maybe it's time for me to get on a program.

OK--maybe not the short version, but I could really use some help.

Ok. I fell of a latter 2 years ago working in the factories. I was presribed both vicoden and motrin. I have been on vicoden for 2 years. I've never abused them! I Have had several sergeries with tumors that have developed, and had some torn legiments. I still have pain and therefor have been diagnosed with chronic pain. My leg gives out, I cry myself to sleep ect... Anyways I talked to my doctor about concern of longer term use of the vicoden. I have deveoped a tolorance to the drugs and therfor it takes 100 every three weeks. at one point I was at 120 bi weekly.. He says I am not addicted, But have a high tolorance and therefor I am "Physically dependant". Reason being is I was prescribed both oxycotten & Oxycodone and didnt like the way it made me feel.. (Feels kinda like the anxiety attacks i get) So I gave them back. Anyways My doctor has given me the choice to go through a detox with this sabadone (something along those lines). According to what I research it has same chemicles that methadone has. I've seen the bad things methadone has done to close people. What is approach for pain management? I have no side effects taking the vicoden as prescribed as well as learned to manage staying at the 100 every three weeks. Working on trying to make them last a month which my doctor says would be excellent being thats not much giving my condition. Has anyone taken this new Subadone? Would it be better for pain? ect.. Now I've withdrawled once when i Was in nc from not having my vicoden and it was bad. Actually was hospitalized with high blood pressure and seasure like symptoms at the time. When they gave me the vicoden, It went away so I learned that you can seriously withdrawl from meds. Will this happen from subadone as well? any info between the 2 vicoden and subadone would be nice to know. As with any choices I wish I would have knew more about vicoden before i was first administered it, and dont want to make this same mistake with this subadone. I am afraid of acting like people on methadone I know. Thanks! I have 2 kids that rely on me, and suprisingly even when I first started the vicoden I didnt get like some people who take it. Should I expect to be normal on the subadone? Any help would be GREATLY appreciated as I dont and repeat dont want to get all high and buzzed like some people "experiementing" with these pain meds. I aint got time to do that. I am a 25 year old with lots of knowlege and dont wanna waist it getting messed up on drugs. I have legitimate pain and its hard to do normal day to day activities without any type of pain medication (I've tried long before I started taking anything)

I have chronic pain in my back and not sure why besides what the MRI shows (buldging discs, osteo arthristis, spurs). I also had three babies so close together and when I carried my twins we think I may have broken my pelvic bone which doesn't help me sleeping. I wake when I go on my sides. I get an MRI of the pelvic this week, not sure if it will show anything from eight years ago would it?
Last week I went to my drs for a test where they check my nerves or my reflexes. I was scared of the shocks and sure enough she put the first check on and it was like a bolt of lightening running through me and I screamed and started to hyperventilate. I felt sooooooo stupid. I said "ok maybe that just startled me and let's try it again" so she did and the same thing happend. She said "you're hypersensitive" and we bailed out of the testing. I wanted to cry. I told her I was very sorry I couldn't continue.
I'm not sure what happend or what all of this means. I am jumpy to the touch but not sure why. I've looked it up online and nothing really explains what this means.
I take my prescribed medication but the pain pills do not take away the sensitivity, only the edge off of the back pain.
What is this and what is done about it? Is it a pinched nerve? Are my nerves wrecked? I was so embarrased I didn't want to ask her but to run out of the office. My best friend had this test done and said it was nothing. I lie to you not.......it was like lightening.

Hello ! I have never abused street drugs or alcohol but ... I am posting here because I am now unfortunately dependent on prescribed narcotics for chronic neck pain management.

I am prescribed 360 mg of Dihydrocodeine Tartrate MR per day (for more than two years now).

Sadly the attempts at physio / ultrasound / acupuncture have not helped at all.

Wonder if there any one else with a similar situation ?

Kind Regards & wish you all well.

I suffer with this and I saw this forum and thought I'd ask a few questions from fellow sufferers.
I have back issues going on. At one point I did take my pain relievers more then I should but quickly got back on schedule when I saw how fast it could become a problem. It's still very hard not to take an extra here and there because they have not controlled the pain.
Here's what's going on. I had a four month old child and got pg with twins. They are thinking after the twins my pelvic bones brokes. I was just recently told that. It makes since because I could not sleep on my sides for a few years after their birth. I thought that was normal so I didn't question it.
Over the last several years my back has gotten way worse. I'm mid thirties and feel mid eighties.
I have osteo arthritis in my back, bulding discs, spurs and an issue with the sacrum joint.
Dr's always just wanted to feed me pills and that was ok but now the pills are no longer working. They have me on Vic 10s every three hours.
I just switched dr's offices and finally this dr is getting scans. I told her I've had enough. I told her the pills were no longer working, anti inflammatories are not working, muscle relaxers are not working. I hate to sit or stand longer then ten minutes.
Raising my three kids is a challenge but I suffer through it because I have to. I more or less put a band aid on me for these years.
In a few weeks I am having a brain scan and also put on a machine that will test my nerves.
I explained that in the morning I get up and I feel like a puppet with strings. I can't sleep because I roll on my side and wake up because I hurt so bad, even on my pain killers. It's a chore to get out of bed and walk. I find I stumble alot.
I have a tens unit which is a god send to me but I can not have it on 24/7.
I can't be spaced out on pain meds because of my children or I probably would be.
I also don't take my muscle relaxers during the day because they make me so tired. Tired = cranky.......pain = cranky. No win situation.
I saw on here that someone had a pump. How is that working?
I jokingly said I would like to have an extended metal rod in my back to relieve the pressure but it's sounding better and better every year.
Anyone with any advice or experience? I know there's no cure but I'd like to hear that there is something that can take most of this away. I know I'm reaching for stars huh?
Thank you

how have you all sorted this out? I am sober in AA for 21 years. been living in severe chronic pain since a bad accident when I was 14 (I am 46 now) without help until I had surgery in March. you'll see my other post below. what I really ment to ask is, how do I sort it out? I take my prcocet as directed, never more. in fact, often less, I am in honest pain. I wonder if I am addicted, or just honestly happy to get some pain relief when I take a percocet 10/325? I have been consciously taking less this week because my md is sending me to a chronic pain clinic. this whole sh*##* experience is stressing me out. I am in debt, unable to work, and beginning to really isolate, depending on my pain and depression level.