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Well, I'm 17 and have severe addiction problems. I used to be into anything that got me messed up that I could get my hands on. At this point, I still drink and can't kick cigarettes.

I've been trying to do this on my own, but I was getting minimal support from my friends, and have a hard time saying no at parties. (Which I refuse to stop going to) I tried doing the whole 12 step thing, but it's not for me.

I'm just glad to be here.

Hi...

I posted a while ago, i cant remember when. But my problem was marijuana.

I can give a little background thing. I've always been shy towards people, but i never had an issue with it. I was always able to talk and go places without being too uncomfertable.

And as i posted before, I smoked alot of weed. I used heavily I would say, maybe not as much as others, but I began to smoke about an eigth a day to myself for about a couple months straight. And i smoked for about five years straight.

But i squashed the weed thing and cigarettes. But i continued drinking on the weekends, which is actually an acomplishment for me because i would drink all the time.

Then i came to find out that drinking doesnt help me.

If we're on this site we all know that feeling where its like you 'need' whatever you need, and thats just what you think. I just realized thats what i've been thinking about alcohol. Just the other day i was thinking i needed a drink.

And like i said, i have always been shy, but it wasnt debilitating. And by the time marijuana was a problem i knew i had a serious problem with anxiety, and considering that when i tried college a teacher asked me, "Whats wrong?" So i must have seemed depressed or seriously anxious.

Anxiety does run in my family, but growing up my family never shyed away from regular activities like going to the mall, watching movies, taking vacations or going to an amusment park. So the anxiety and shyness was never a real problem.

Now, I'm three months into not smoking weed, it may be three months and a week, but i dont know. I'm a week and a half done with drinking. I've had a few cigarettes during this three month period. I'de ball park it around to twelve or fifteen.

My problems are really debilitating as of now. I'm in CBT therapy, and its very hard to live sober.

I've lost every single "friend" I've had because I'm sick of living chemicly dependent upon substances, and you cant say that to anybody because it is never true.

And I've become bitter and envious of very simple things that I know im capable of but can not seem to find it within myself. I believe im more hurt than anything.

A physciatrist told me that the only reason i experience anxiety like i do is because of my marijuana abuse and i didn't believe him at the time, but maybe he is right. It's very ignorant of me to not believe a professional, expeically one experienced with substance abuse.

I'm just real hurt right now. I tried to hang around a certain person who "wants to get into shape." And i hung out with him one day because we wanted to work out, and i told him that tomorrow we could play basketball at this gym that the church rents out, and he said, "Alright." So i call him and he is doing something else, and i already know what he was doing, he was drinking and getting ****** up. I took it as a spit in the face, and i havent called any of these people sense, and that was like three weeks ago. Every single friend i knew is either an alcoholic or drug addict, smoking marijuana or drinking. Then this other guy i know is on his perscribed xanax that he pretty much lied to get, and he smokes every day and drinks. And that can take toll on a person, it has to me. It just hurts real bad. Then i have my anxiety and drug recovery, and im just all alone, it really does hurt.

Thats pretty much where I'm at. I dont have a girl friend or anything, girls really arent too much of a problem, they've always been there, but i got a whole lot of **** to go through right now.

If i look at myself six months ago and compair myself to that, i am "better," but my nervousness just hurts alot. I dont just sit at home all day, i do try, it is just so much harder when you are all alone and then the only people you know just want to go drink or talk about drinking or how messed up they got, or they just dont talk. Life is hard.

And this is my depressing post of where I'm at in my life right now. Thanks for reading if you chose to. See ya, and good luck to everyone.

Santa knows who has been naughty and who has been nice...

My AH just came off his "vacation" tonight, woke up screaming at me, accusing me of being a "bee-ach" when I was actually helping someone, said one day he would knock me out, yada-yada-yada. Asked me how much money I spent this weekend, etc. Well, needless to say, this really made me mad. And I yelled back to stand up for myself. Then he took off to get some cigarettes which I can't stand and said he may go on another "vacation." In the meantime, my bestfriend wanted to know what to get him for Christmas. I told her to get him nothing because he was being a jerk. When he came back from getting his cigarettes he was all nice-nice but I was still mad.

On top of all this, this afternoon while he was in his self-induced coma, I placed an order for $400 for something he really wanted and he already has other gifts that I have bought for him. I want to return the other gifts and cancel the order first thing tomorrow a.m., if I can. I also told him to not get me anything for Christmas. He was like, "Why?" I said "to save money. And you probably won't be getting me anything anyway." He responded, "I'm looking." Yeah, right.

So am I being too harsh?

...not something you want to hear from a recovering cocaine addict, eh?

I've been clean for 6 weeks now. So far so good.

However, today is what would've been my late father's 68th birthday. He died because he was an addict (alcohol and cigarettes) from a combination of lung cancer and liver problems earlier this year.
He wasn't a good man and we didn't get along. Later today I'm expected to go to some sort of family rememberance.
Instead, I want to stay home and get high. Pretty stupid. Oh well, I am an addict!

Trying NOT to do the above is the reason I'm posting here right now. Any advice?

Also, how is everyone coping with Christmas coming up? For most people I know it's a 'tradition' to get as wasted as possible on Christmas day. I'm trying to cut down on drinking too so that might be a problem.
I'm not so much a 'victim' of peer pressure and festivities as much as my mind is looking for any 'good' excuse to **** away the last 6 weeks.

Hi everyone. I'm new to the forum and have been reading a few posts here and there and have already found some answers I have been looking for, but would like some further advice or support from people who are in my shoes so here it goes....
My boyfriend and I have been together for 4 1/2 years. Two months ago he was arrested for possession of meth. That is when it my fears of suspecting he was on meth was confirmed. I like to see myself as very level headed, well rounded, undertanding and smart, but after this I feel that all went out the window. I knew something was not right with him. I have always been very anti drug, never wanted to try it, not even weed or cigarettes. The only thing I do is drink when I go out. When I met my boyfriend, he smoked weed and I knew a couple years before I met him he use to go to raves and do E. he didn't do any of that as far as I know after we got together and after the first 6 moths he stopped smoking weed. A couple of times I found a pipe and cut straws in his pant pockets and as time went on, his financial situation got to be really bad. Come to find out he has been doing meth on and off for 6 years....2 years before we got together. Right before he was arrested, I was going to break up with him. I am 26 years old and my goal right now is to complete my BA, get my house, and start a family and he just did not fit into that picture anymore, but right now I am here for him mainly for support. He comes from a loving family, has a great 5 year old son, HAD good friends. Sorry so long, but here is the gist of it. At this point, he has already stayed 30 days in a residential treatment home, he is currently in a sober living environment and gets tested every so often and attends meeting very frequently. I have noticed a great change in him all around as I think he has noticed in himself as well. His moods are better, he has energy, he takes care of business, he talks about his fears, anxiety...he actually has feelings, but I am fully aware he is in a controlled environment right now. My biggest fear is him relapsing. I am trying to be supportive and I think I'm doing a great job at it, but if he relapses, I know I'll be angry and resentful. As I read in some other posts, I have to decide on what I can live with and ultimately that is what matters, but I feel like I am so unguided in this situation. There is no one I can talk to close to me who can help me sort out my scattered thoughts and feelings because they don't understand. I know there are no "answers", but I need something of substance to help guide me in my decision. I am mad that he was able to hide this for so long, but through meetings and counseling, I know it was the drug who made him that way. I am also trying not to cross the fine line of being educated and understanding to just being blinded and stupid. Before this our biggest issue was money and now I know why, I guess I'm hoping that if he can overcome his addiction things will be the way they were suppose to be and the way we planned. I understand addiction is a lifelong struggle and I have to be prepared to commit to that. Any comments would be much appreciated.

Hello all,

I wanted to introduce myself and just say hello. I came across this forum a while back and have been reading a lot to learn. I came across this group yesterday and posted on the chantix-related threads. Since then, it appears no one has posted. It is giving me a complex. LOL.

I quit smoking almost two years ago. NRTs, then Chantix, then off all of it, then NRTs again, then off again... so for me, it has been a matter of deciding never to smoke again and giving myself the option of chewing the nic gum as a stopgap measure in really stressful times.

I'm certainly no expert about quitting smoking. But there is a lot of information that helped reinforce my decision to quit and I encourage anyone trying to get out of this habit to read, read, read any and all of it you can.

Again, hello to all and good luck!

One year, eleven months, two days, 20 hours, 54 minutes and 48 seconds. 28154 cigarettes not smoked, saving $5,279.03. Life saved: 13 weeks, 6 days, 18 hours, 10 minutes.

It seems to me that a big part of my personality is that I love to consume things... food, cigarettes, beer, shopping. I always have to be on a jag of consuming one thing or the other, sometimes two or all.
I'm on Day 5 and can't stop eating. I'm normal weight, but why can't I stop eating? Why do I always have to have that external thing to consume? I feel so bored without it!
-Majamama:codiepolice

Please I need prayers for my whole family....

I talked to my daughter last night, age 23. She is still living in the same home w/ her EXAfiance, and his parents. The parents live downstairs and her GS, and her abf live upstairs. She and his father went in on a mortgage loan together (I knew it was a bad idea, and a hasty decision on her part from the beginning, now she's stuck). She called last night and told me he's back on pills again (this guy I swear is an exact replica of my AH). How did this happen? I asked her if he was on that stuff when they met, she said no. He said he was a recovering addict. So, she's clear across the states from me and without knowing it ended up w/ a guy just like AH. She hated AH because of what he did to me.
Her exabf lost his last state job because of drug testing positive for opiods/opiates unprescribed. He stopped using, got another job. And now he's using again. He stole her script of hydrocodone, she got from her dentist, he stole $140.00 from her. She has a girl spending a few days w/ her from Oregon, she I guess has a pot prescription (ridiculous) for back pain. He stole some of her pot and cigarettes, opened a pack took some and then blamed it on the baby 2yrs old.
She has to sleep hiding her money, debit card, everything.
She told me last night he was out to dinner w/ a stripper, and took my grandson with him. My daughter had a beautiful brand new $40,000 jeep that was almost paid off, just repo'd, because he's not paying his part of the bills. She's been working over time weekly for years, she's a supervisor at her job.
She told me she almost knocked him out last week. It's getting bad, but she can't afford to leave. I tell her to just leave, and figure out things later. I don't want to see her in trouble or jailed. My daughter says she'll never get married because of what she has seen happen w/ me.
I told her to find naranon/alanon meetings in her area, she said she doesn't have the time.

AS, age 19, whom I have an order of protection against, because of his addiction (pot) and addict behaviors is living w/ his girlfriend. She is pregnant and they don't know if the baby is his or another guys because they were having s_x at the same time she was w/ the other guy.
So they won't find out til the baby is born, and a paternity test is done. My daughter talks w/ him frequently, and says his girlfriend beats on him. AS at times calls my daughter wanting help to get him away from her, but my daughter doesn't have the money to send him to get to her. He's trying to find a job, and attending GED classes, she says he's been clean.

Then here I am supervising visits going through Family Court because AH won't stay clean and sober.

God Please Help My Family!:sad2:

NH7

I believe my daughter is using again. We all know the signs; missing money, unexplained one minute phone calls to an unknown number, avoiding seeing me and when she does she avoids the direct eye contact, not looking bright and perky, etc. etc. She called last night and wants me to take her to Family Independence Agency so that she can get help paying the rent and her bills. Says not to tell the boyfriend because he might not understand. Also I know that in the last two weeks she had made $800, enough to pay her bills, pay for her hair, tanning, cigarettes, etc. Yet she says that she spent most of it on stupid stuff. She is coming over today because she wants to figure out what to do. She will be surprised when mommy does not have the answers she is looking for-as in a bailout. Sorry, no money here honey. The one thing that I know is that we gave her a way to stay clean this summer when we helped with rehab. She has the tools. So no guilt here. She will say we are her parents and we should help her out. We will say we are helping by letting her figure out her life by herself. And on it goes:) Hugs, Marle

I've been on a fairly low dose of Hycodan for about one year. For the most part, I've taken about 20cc (ml) per day, afraid of draining out my supply -(My pharmacy would not refill before the due date!) and I hated calling my MD to bother her for a refill RX every time my refills ran out. I crossed my fingers every time i asked her, hoping she'd just write out the script and I could be on my way. Well. That ended just the other day. She is concerned that I've been on it for a long time and afraid of what it's doing to my body. Today was the very first day in about a year that i have been without Hycodan. I am trying to see this as a blessing rather than a detox. Here are a few questions, as I have never been addicted (other than cigarettes, which i kicked a very long time ago) Am I really in danger of experiencing withdrawl, or am I worried for nothing?

1. Can I detox naturally, using herbs (dandelion root, herbal teas, milk thistle...) or do you guys think I would need more than this? I have not taken more than 20cc/day (maybe at the very max, 30cc, or three tablespoons on occassion).

2. Did anyone out there notice a real increase in body aches?I mean real achiness that makes it hard to move...

3. And emotionally, do you think on that "small" dose I'm going to experience depression?

Any ideas out there would be very appreciated...I am so glad I stumbled upon this site!
Thank you all so much

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