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Codeine
Too anyone who doesn't think codeine is addictive enough to worry about, or is thinking on giving it a whirl-
Well, I wanted to post this because, even though codeine is a weaker opiate than many out there, it is very addictive none the less.
I am amazed at the "control" over it, that I dont have.
Somewhere in the neighbourhood of about 2 weeks ago, I started using this stuff again because I had to somehow stop abusing other meds.
Swapping one addiction for another is beyond stupid, I know, but in my addict brain, it seemed like a good idea.
But anyway,back to how addictive this stuff is
Now, maybe I'm weaker than a lot of folks.........I dont know, but my use has more than quadrupled (sp) in just 2 weeks.
I've easily taken 1000 pills in 10-14 days and I cant seem to stop.
My skin is itchy and my arms are scabbing up and i have a pain (off and on)where my liver is located.
Now I know that I cant stop on my own, I realized that yesterday.
In all my going to NA (here and there) this will be the first time I will have to use the phone list to stop this madness.
My point is .........codeine mucked me over quick and will do the same for you, if you flirt with it.
Please don't.
I might add............ I am thoroughly ashamed of myself.
Well, I wanted to post this because, even though codeine is a weaker opiate than many out there, it is very addictive none the less.
I am amazed at the "control" over it, that I dont have.
Somewhere in the neighbourhood of about 2 weeks ago, I started using this stuff again because I had to somehow stop abusing other meds.
Swapping one addiction for another is beyond stupid, I know, but in my addict brain, it seemed like a good idea.
But anyway,back to how addictive this stuff is
Now, maybe I'm weaker than a lot of folks.........I dont know, but my use has more than quadrupled (sp) in just 2 weeks.
I've easily taken 1000 pills in 10-14 days and I cant seem to stop.
My skin is itchy and my arms are scabbing up and i have a pain (off and on)where my liver is located.
Now I know that I cant stop on my own, I realized that yesterday.
In all my going to NA (here and there) this will be the first time I will have to use the phone list to stop this madness.
My point is .........codeine mucked me over quick and will do the same for you, if you flirt with it.
Please don't.
I might add............ I am thoroughly ashamed of myself.
Never been so down before
Hi all Im new. I have been addicted to codeine for a years now, not willing to admit it. My doctor has continued prescribing it to me and I wasn't taking it the way I should have. Im also on Effexor for anxiety and depression. Now I went to my doctor when I ran out of codeine (Tylenol 4's I was taking around 8 a day), I know it doesn't seem like much to some people but he has prescribed me codeine contin to try and wean me off. I ended up not taking those as prescribed as well and now have run out, its been over a week now since I have had those, but have been taking Tylenol 1's from the pharmacist to try and relieve the restless legs I get at night. The stomach upset and stuff is bearable. I haven't had any codeine since Christmas eve but I have been crying horribly and very depressed for about 5 days now. How long does this horrible depression last? I honestly don't think I can go on feeling like this for one more day. Any help would be appreciated.
Does this ever stop?
I have had a codeine addiction for years now. I didn't actually even admit this to myself until recently. My doctor has been trying to taper me down but I wasn't following the schedule he gave me. I was taking 200 mg of codeine contin in the morning and evening. Instead of the 50 I was telling him I had gotten down to. I lied to everyone including myself. Now I haven't had any for about a week now, but I have been taking just the tylenol 1's (from the pharmacist) to try and get through the crappy feelings I have been having. I haven't taken any tylenol with codeine in it since Christmas Eve and ran out on Christmas morning. So Im trying so hard not to take anything at all. I feel so horribly depressed and my legs wont stop aching. It seems since I didn't have any more of the high dosage of codeine I haven't slept for a week, the tylenol 1's with 8 mg is very very low and I was taking 3 of those, they would help me kind of fall asleep. But now that I have realized I can't do that anymore, I just wanna stop. But Im soooo tired from the "kicky legs". I haven't stopped crying for 4 days straight, I have never felt so useless and down before. When does the depression go away? When will I be able to sleep again? This is absolutely crazy. I know its not a high dosage of codeine that I was on initially I was at around 500 mg of Codeine a day, my doctor prescribed them, and I of course didn't use them properly. But I have gotten this far I don't want to go back. I just don't want to feel like this anymore. It has to get better right?
Hello (again)
Dear members,
I have been away from this site for awhile. I'm having trouble again at home, so I am back. I'll give you a little bit of background about what is going on.
My bf was in recovery from an addiction to codeine. He was sober for 9 months. At first, he was very active in his recovery; however, things slipped away from him, and he started using again. He found a doctor who would give him more pills. He told me about all of this yesterday. He claims that he is sober now, although I'm not completely sure. He has told his regular doctor that he relapsed and that he found someone to give him pills. The doctor gave him the name of an outpatient treatment center where he can receive intensive therapy. Supposedly, he is going to go there Monday to start treatment. He claims that he used for 60 days (that's how many pills they gave him). He then went through withdrawels around Halloween. That's why he felt so awful that weekend. However, I'm not sure that he is completely off the pills now. I am also not sure that he is not still actively seeking pills. However, he did "confess" as to what happened. I realize that I can't trust anything he says--just what he does. He is "upset" because I don't trust him. "What kind of relationship is that?," he says. Yeah, right. Duh, I don't trust you because you lied to me. Apparently, he came up with a very elaborate lie to tell the doctor so that he could get pills. He typed up a bunch of made up nonsense about falling, injuries, illnesses, etc. He showed me his elaborate scheme. What a mess.
He claims that he wants to be sober. He has goals in life, and those can only be accomplished with sobriety. We will see. I know that I have to take care of myself. I've gotten in kind of a mess. We moved, and I don't have a job yet. Of course, the economy isn't great, so I've had trouble finding a job. My goal is to get my finances back in order and to get myself a job. I just finished a training program for a new career, and supposedly this has a very high rate of placement. So, I should be able to find a job soon.
I am working on my own life--taking classes, meeting people, exercising, eating right (most of the time), etc. My addict claims that I should be positive about his recovery (my negative feelings make it hard for him), I should trust him (what kind of relationship can you have without trust), he is sober, he is going to start treatment, etc. I see the mouth moving, but I don't hear the words. Blah, blah, blah. That's all I hear.
I am feeling upset, angry, scared, etc. Both my parents have terrible substance abuse problems, so I'm the perfect codependent. I re-read half of Codependent No More last night. Since he went 9 months sober, he has "recovery tools." I think I also have some of my own recovery tools. So, I'm just trying to hang in there. One day at a time.
Take care,
bluebelle
I have been away from this site for awhile. I'm having trouble again at home, so I am back. I'll give you a little bit of background about what is going on.
My bf was in recovery from an addiction to codeine. He was sober for 9 months. At first, he was very active in his recovery; however, things slipped away from him, and he started using again. He found a doctor who would give him more pills. He told me about all of this yesterday. He claims that he is sober now, although I'm not completely sure. He has told his regular doctor that he relapsed and that he found someone to give him pills. The doctor gave him the name of an outpatient treatment center where he can receive intensive therapy. Supposedly, he is going to go there Monday to start treatment. He claims that he used for 60 days (that's how many pills they gave him). He then went through withdrawels around Halloween. That's why he felt so awful that weekend. However, I'm not sure that he is completely off the pills now. I am also not sure that he is not still actively seeking pills. However, he did "confess" as to what happened. I realize that I can't trust anything he says--just what he does. He is "upset" because I don't trust him. "What kind of relationship is that?," he says. Yeah, right. Duh, I don't trust you because you lied to me. Apparently, he came up with a very elaborate lie to tell the doctor so that he could get pills. He typed up a bunch of made up nonsense about falling, injuries, illnesses, etc. He showed me his elaborate scheme. What a mess.
He claims that he wants to be sober. He has goals in life, and those can only be accomplished with sobriety. We will see. I know that I have to take care of myself. I've gotten in kind of a mess. We moved, and I don't have a job yet. Of course, the economy isn't great, so I've had trouble finding a job. My goal is to get my finances back in order and to get myself a job. I just finished a training program for a new career, and supposedly this has a very high rate of placement. So, I should be able to find a job soon.
I am working on my own life--taking classes, meeting people, exercising, eating right (most of the time), etc. My addict claims that I should be positive about his recovery (my negative feelings make it hard for him), I should trust him (what kind of relationship can you have without trust), he is sober, he is going to start treatment, etc. I see the mouth moving, but I don't hear the words. Blah, blah, blah. That's all I hear.
I am feeling upset, angry, scared, etc. Both my parents have terrible substance abuse problems, so I'm the perfect codependent. I re-read half of Codependent No More last night. Since he went 9 months sober, he has "recovery tools." I think I also have some of my own recovery tools. So, I'm just trying to hang in there. One day at a time.
Take care,
bluebelle
Hey there
Hey :)
I'm new to the forums, and I suppose technically not really in recovery yet, so here to try to get the strength to quit.
I have been smoking around a quater of an ounce of marijuana daily (often more) for a little over three years, and have also been using rediculous amounts of GHB on and off for the past two years. At one point I got to round-the-clock dosing, and had a week of DTs when I quit, yet I just can't seem to put the darn stuff down. I also put myself in a little coma-like-thing that lasted 3 days; I've blacked out and collapsed on countless occassions in classes at uni, on public transport, and in the middle of the house, as well as losing bank cards, my drivers licence and my iPod (rather a miracle that each and every one got returned to me by the people who found them!)
Needless to say, I didn't exactly afford any of this through honest means - I am a student and have no income whatsoever. Long story short, I've stolen huge amounts of drugs from my mother, as well as getting into debt and pulling various scams... not to mention flirting and doing some sexual things (though I've never had sex with someone for drugs) for pharmaceuticals. The problem is that this has all become tied in with taking drugs, and sometimes I find myself acquiring drugs even when I've decided not to take them... and then, seeing as how I put the effort in, can't stand to waste them.
I have experiences psychotic episodes since pre-puberty and although the GHB doesn't mess with my mental health too much, the marijuana (which I basically chain-smoke from AM to PM every day - I don't leave my bedroom let alone the house unless I absolutely have to) is really messing with me, and my docter is concerned that I may be developing full-blown schizophrenia. However, the local psych wards won't even meet with me until I'm clean.
When I can't get GHB or marijuana, I'll take anything else. I loved diphenhydramine, and went through a phase of taking 20 x 50mg sleeping pills a day, and codeine (extracted from painkillers) was a firm favourite for a few weeks. Any time I've ever tried to give up weed I've ended up drinking absolutely loads, and taking dirty drugs like coke, which reacts really, really badly with me. I can't help but binge - it's like every day is an attempt to take as much as humanly possible, and it's always been that way. The first time I ever tried weed I smoked 8 blunts in a row; the first time I tried ecstacy I dropped 20 pills in two days.
Giving up marijuana is deffinately proving rediculously hard, at least because the second I leave my bedroom I am surrounded by it (my whole family uses, as do all their friends), in university I'm taking two classes in drug policy, and it really is the only thing that keeps me sane. Literally as soon as I stop smoking I start seriously contemplating suicide, and I worry that it's not just a bit of a comedown, but could signal a return to how I felt before I started using drugs - I had a serious self-harm problem all through high-school, got into trouble for aggression, and attempted suicide several times through overdoses. When it gets like that, I can't tell which is worse, drugs and theft or feeling like not only I should die, but that I should take the rest of the world with me.
I'm currently still using daily. For months and months every night when I've gone to sleep I've prayed for God to change my heart; I've written lists of why I'm not going to use; made plans for the next day to keep me busy etc etc, but none of it works. I wake up; I immediately feel angry that I'm alive and having to go about 'living' all over again, and then before I know it I'm stealing and sparking up. And once I've done that, it seems pretty pointless resisting other drugs... so it begins again, another list for tomorrow, another set of plans I know I won't follow through on etc etc.
So now I've signed up on these boards, hoping that, in the same way going on various drug message boards and forums used to make me feel like using and give me new ways of doing so, this will make me feel like getting clean and maybe offer suggestions of how I can.
So I guess... I'll be seeing you around :)
I'm new to the forums, and I suppose technically not really in recovery yet, so here to try to get the strength to quit.
I have been smoking around a quater of an ounce of marijuana daily (often more) for a little over three years, and have also been using rediculous amounts of GHB on and off for the past two years. At one point I got to round-the-clock dosing, and had a week of DTs when I quit, yet I just can't seem to put the darn stuff down. I also put myself in a little coma-like-thing that lasted 3 days; I've blacked out and collapsed on countless occassions in classes at uni, on public transport, and in the middle of the house, as well as losing bank cards, my drivers licence and my iPod (rather a miracle that each and every one got returned to me by the people who found them!)
Needless to say, I didn't exactly afford any of this through honest means - I am a student and have no income whatsoever. Long story short, I've stolen huge amounts of drugs from my mother, as well as getting into debt and pulling various scams... not to mention flirting and doing some sexual things (though I've never had sex with someone for drugs) for pharmaceuticals. The problem is that this has all become tied in with taking drugs, and sometimes I find myself acquiring drugs even when I've decided not to take them... and then, seeing as how I put the effort in, can't stand to waste them.
I have experiences psychotic episodes since pre-puberty and although the GHB doesn't mess with my mental health too much, the marijuana (which I basically chain-smoke from AM to PM every day - I don't leave my bedroom let alone the house unless I absolutely have to) is really messing with me, and my docter is concerned that I may be developing full-blown schizophrenia. However, the local psych wards won't even meet with me until I'm clean.
When I can't get GHB or marijuana, I'll take anything else. I loved diphenhydramine, and went through a phase of taking 20 x 50mg sleeping pills a day, and codeine (extracted from painkillers) was a firm favourite for a few weeks. Any time I've ever tried to give up weed I've ended up drinking absolutely loads, and taking dirty drugs like coke, which reacts really, really badly with me. I can't help but binge - it's like every day is an attempt to take as much as humanly possible, and it's always been that way. The first time I ever tried weed I smoked 8 blunts in a row; the first time I tried ecstacy I dropped 20 pills in two days.
Giving up marijuana is deffinately proving rediculously hard, at least because the second I leave my bedroom I am surrounded by it (my whole family uses, as do all their friends), in university I'm taking two classes in drug policy, and it really is the only thing that keeps me sane. Literally as soon as I stop smoking I start seriously contemplating suicide, and I worry that it's not just a bit of a comedown, but could signal a return to how I felt before I started using drugs - I had a serious self-harm problem all through high-school, got into trouble for aggression, and attempted suicide several times through overdoses. When it gets like that, I can't tell which is worse, drugs and theft or feeling like not only I should die, but that I should take the rest of the world with me.
I'm currently still using daily. For months and months every night when I've gone to sleep I've prayed for God to change my heart; I've written lists of why I'm not going to use; made plans for the next day to keep me busy etc etc, but none of it works. I wake up; I immediately feel angry that I'm alive and having to go about 'living' all over again, and then before I know it I'm stealing and sparking up. And once I've done that, it seems pretty pointless resisting other drugs... so it begins again, another list for tomorrow, another set of plans I know I won't follow through on etc etc.
So now I've signed up on these boards, hoping that, in the same way going on various drug message boards and forums used to make me feel like using and give me new ways of doing so, this will make me feel like getting clean and maybe offer suggestions of how I can.
So I guess... I'll be seeing you around :)
My REAL Day 1 is TODAY
I have 44 Days without alcohol, but ZERO days of true sobriety and freedom from addiction.
Today will be my real Day 1.
No more chemicals.
True sobriety.
I have been fooling myself and others and this cannot go on anymore. I have continued to remain addicted to nicotine through the use of a daily nicotine patch. I have continued to smoke pot, and I have continued to take the Tylenol with codeine pills that we have in the house.
No more.
Today is Day 1.
Today will be my real Day 1.
No more chemicals.
True sobriety.
I have been fooling myself and others and this cannot go on anymore. I have continued to remain addicted to nicotine through the use of a daily nicotine patch. I have continued to smoke pot, and I have continued to take the Tylenol with codeine pills that we have in the house.
No more.
Today is Day 1.
Can Someone Talk To Me About Codeine Addiction
I started taking vicodin a couple years ago after an accident but only got them periodically from the doc. I would rather take vicodin but can't get the doc to give it to me so I take codeine instead. I take anywhere between 80-100 mg at a time usually once a day. Maybe I am not addicted.... how do I know.
New Name - What’s your Opinion? OT
OK, I'm ready for "the" change
I'm soon going to be an EX
No longer a codeine addict's wife, but I'm not going anywhere - I love all of you and this place... so... Opinions on a new name? Apparently MorningGlory can help me
There is:
XCW
ExCodeineWife
ExCW
But, I'm open for any other suggestions - I'd just love something that is who I am "now"...
What do you guys think? Anything come to mind?
I'm soon going to be an EX
No longer a codeine addict's wife, but I'm not going anywhere - I love all of you and this place... so... Opinions on a new name? Apparently MorningGlory can help me
There is:
XCW
ExCodeineWife
ExCW
But, I'm open for any other suggestions - I'd just love something that is who I am "now"...
What do you guys think? Anything come to mind?
day 1
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well day one no more i hope its not worth it i feel parnoid hearing things.thought my wee one was crying and i in a state stupid things i can do it if not for me defo for the kids .my long road with codeine and herion and all the rest was bad enough i have always been put down ur stupid linda u cant do this cause ur a total f*** up my own fault for beliving they were all right i have lost so many loved ones and my way was to get high but u always come down at one point and the hurt and anger is still there ive seen docs but they say here anti dpressents see u in a couple of weeks yea ur a great help idoit or "i think u need mental treatment "haha or counselling for my past i get a counsellor and she more crackers than i am i end up feeling sorry for them yea i been through hell and back mother was heavy drinker i got sexualluy and phyisical abuse went to 22 junior schools 3 high school 2 school for lets just say bad kids trouble with police preagnant by 16 my close family have died just recently got attacked cause of stupid rumours but thats just a part of my life i have to learn to cope with sozz i woke up in a moaning mood
well day one no more i hope its not worth it i feel parnoid hearing things.thought my wee one was crying and i in a state stupid things i can do it if not for me defo for the kids .my long road with codeine and herion and all the rest was bad enough i have always been put down ur stupid linda u cant do this cause ur a total f*** up my own fault for beliving they were all right i have lost so many loved ones and my way was to get high but u always come down at one point and the hurt and anger is still there ive seen docs but they say here anti dpressents see u in a couple of weeks yea ur a great help idoit or "i think u need mental treatment "haha or counselling for my past i get a counsellor and she more crackers than i am i end up feeling sorry for them yea i been through hell and back mother was heavy drinker i got sexualluy and phyisical abuse went to 22 junior schools 3 high school 2 school for lets just say bad kids trouble with police preagnant by 16 my close family have died just recently got attacked cause of stupid rumours but thats just a part of my life i have to learn to cope with sozz i woke up in a moaning mood
hi again
well day one no more i hope its not worth it i feel parnoid hearing things.thought my wee one was crying and i in a state stupid things i can do it if not for me defo for the kids .my long road with codeine and herion and all the rest was bad enough i have always been put down ur stupid linda u cant do this cause ur a total f*** up my own fault for beliving they were all right i have lost so many loved ones and my way was to get high but u always come down at one point and the hurt and anger is still there ive seen docs but they say here anti dpressents see u in a couple of weeks yea ur a great help idoit or "i think u need mental treatment "haha or counselling for my past i get a counsellor and she more crackers than i am i end up feeling sorry for them yea i been through hell and back mother was heavy drinker i got sexualluy and phyisical abuse went to 22 junior schools 3 high school 2 school for lets just say bad kids trouble with police preagnant by 16 my close family have died just recently got attacked cause of stupid rumours but thats just a part of my life i have to cope
