Drug Rehab Options Blog

Well I started driving to a hospital tonight. I did turn around though.
It just seems these feelings I have been trying to repress are hitting me pretty hard.
I guess I have been such a "ghost in a shell" for all these years, my mind is just scrambling for ways to escape.
I do notice it has gotten worse since I have take this effexor stuff? But don't know if that is a coincidence or what though. I just wish it would end, though I know that may be awhile away. I really have no one to talk to and that in itself kind of sucks. Been to a couple NA meetings last week but still have not really conected with anyone just yet. I wish there was an easy button to press but I guess it is allot easier to get on them than to get off em.
I feel like a love sick kid who had his heart broken yet I am the one that left??
Gonna try the earphone method.. Put on some good music and blast those eardrums out! Maybe it will take away the thoughts for a couple minutes!!

Only thing I am happy about right now is I did turn around. Yes I would have felt good after taking some pills but it would have started all over again!! Just don't know anymore.

The Value of a Drink

"Sometimes when I reflect back on all the wine I drink
I feel shame. Then I look into the glass and think
about the workers in the vineyards and all of their hopes
and dreams . If I didn't drink this wine, they might be out
of work and their dreams would be shattered.
Then I say to myself, "It is better that I drink this wine and let their
dreams come true than be selfish and worry about my liver."
~ Jack Handy

WARNING: The consumption of alcohol may leave you wondering what the hell
happened to your bra and panties.

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"I feel sorry for people who don't drink. When they
wake up in the morning, that's as good as they're
going to feel all day. "
~Frank Sinatra

WARNING: The consumption of alcohol may create the illusion that you are tougher, smarter, faster and better looking than most people.

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"When I read about the evils of drinking, I gave up reading."
~ Henny Youngman

WARNING: The consumption of alcohol may lead you to think people are laughing WITH you.

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"24 hours in a day, 24 beers in a case. Coincidence? I think not."
~ Stephen Wright

WARNING: The consumption of alcohol may cause you to think you can sing.

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"When we drink, we get drunk. When we get drunk,
we fall asleep. When we fall asleep, we commit no sin.
When we commit no sin, we go to heaven. So, let's all
get drunk and go to heaven!"
~ Brian O'Rourke

WARNING: The consumption of alcohol may cause pregnancy.

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"Beer is proof that God loves us and wants us to be happy."
~ Benjamin Franklin

WARNING: The consumption of alcohol is a major factor in dancing like a retard.

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"Without question, the greatest invention in the
history of mankind is beer. Oh, I grant you that the
wheel was also a fine invention, but the wheel does
not go nearly as well with pizza."
~ Dave Barry

WARNING: The consumption of alcohol may cause you to tell your friends over and over again that you love them.

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To some ! it's a six-pack, to me it's a Support Group. Salvation in a can!
~ Dave Howell

WARNING: The consumption of alcohol may make you think you can logically converse with members of the opposite sex without spitting.

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And saving the best for last, as explained by Cliff Clavin, of Cheers.
One afternoon at Cheers, Cliff Clavin was explaining the Buffalo Theory to his buddy Norm.
Here's how it went:

"Well ya see, Norm, it's like this... A herd of buffalo can only move as fast as the slowest buffalo. And when the herd is hunted, it is the slowest and weakest ones at the back that are killed first This natural selection is good for the herd as a whole, because the general speed and health of the whole group keeps improving by the regular killing of the weakest members. In much the same way, the human brain can only operate as fast as the slowest brain cells. Excessive intake of alcohol, as we know, kills brain cells. But naturally, it attacks the slowest and weakest brain cells first. In this way, regular consumption of beer eliminates the weaker brain cells, making the brain a faster and more efficient machine. That's why you always feel smarter after a few beers."

WARNING: The consumption of alcohol may make you think you are whispering when you are not

hope this works



I know this will work!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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all odds
I am not sure if it will work
Lets just see shall we.......
Don't know about the wish, but i got a text when i got to the bottom . . . coincidence? -- DeAnna
Holy smokes, after i read this my boy mike called me....Sammii
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Mine did it tooo!!!!! - Bryan WOW EEEE!!!2@@@
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My phone did to!! =l
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My phone rang while I was reading this
**** my phone rang too
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hOLY MoLy, mY cell phone RANG!!!!! ahHHHHHH
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I hate chain letters, but my phone rang and it freaked me out
Collin
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friend joey called me right after i read the last lines in this bulletin....man...creepy....
~jr
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This works so try it yourself
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My phone rang... thats creepy!
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The second i finished it my phone rang
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okay my phone didnt ring but some1 who i havent
talked to in a while contacted me. it really does work,
just believe(yes i kno, corny)
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My phone didn't ring but I got a text message as soon as I was done reading...really odd!!
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my cell fone rang it was my friend erik thats weird
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wow. my cell phone rang. wierd.
amanda
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yo it worked
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it works man my sister called as i finashed reading it.
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That was weird as hell!!Steve B.
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This really works! I sware to god Morgan just called me as soon as i finished! NOT LYING!
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omg one of my friends called while i was reading this!!! how crazy is that! it works, no lie
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this is scary
lets see if it works....
I am taking the bait -
what do I have to lose right?
Hope it works!
Supposedly The Phone Will Ring
Right After You Do This.
Just read the little stories and
think of a wish as you scroll all
the way to the bottom. There is
a message there - then make your
wish.

No attachment on this one.
Stories
I'm 13 years old, and I wished
that my dad would come home from
the army, because he'd been having
problems with his heart and right
leg. It was 2:53 p.m . When I made
my wish. At 3:07 p.m. (14 minutes
later), the doorbell rang, and
there my Dad was, luggage and all!!

I'm Katie and I'm 20 and I've been
having trouble in my job and on the
verge of quitting. I made a simple
wish that my boss would get a new
job. That was at 1:35 and at 2:55
there was an announcement that he
was promoted and was leaving for
another city. Believe me...this
really works!!!
My name is Ann and I am 45 years
of age. I had always been single
and had been hoping to get into a
nice, loving relationship for many
years. While kind of daydreaming
(and right after receiving this email)
I wished that a quality person would
finally come into my life. That was at
9:10 AM on a Tuesday. At 9:55 AM
a FedEx delivery man came into my
office.He was cute, polite and
could not stop smiling at me. He
started coming back almost everyday
(even without packages) and asked me
out a week later. We married 6
months later and now have been
happily married for 2 years.
What a great email it was!!
Just scroll down to the end, but
while you do, think of a wish.
Make your wish when you have completed
scrolling. Whatever age you are, is the
number of minutes it will take for your
wish to come true. ex.you are 25 years
old, it will take 25 minutes for your wish
to come true).

Go for it!!!
SCROLL DOWN!!!!
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*****
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*******
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*****
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STOP!!!
Congratulations!!! Your wish will
now come true in your age minutes.
Now follow this carefully....it
can be very rewarding!!!!
If you repost this within the next 5 min.
something major that you've been wanting
will happen.
This is scary!
The phone will ring right after you repost as "Cell Phone Trick

Dear Wife:

IÂ’m writing you this letter to tell you that IÂ’m leaving you forever. IÂ’ve been a good man to you for seven years and I have nothing to show for it. These last two weeks have been hell. Your boss called to tell me that you quit your job today and that was the last straw.

Last week, you came home and didnÂ’t even notice that I had a new haircut, had cooked your favorite meal and even wore a brand new pair of silk boxers. You ate in two minutes, and went straight to sleep after watching all of your soaps. You donÂ’t tell me you love me anymore; you donÂ’t want sex or anything that connects us as husband and wife. Either youÂ’re cheating on me or you donÂ’t love me anymore; whatever the case, IÂ’m gone.

Your EX-Husband
P.S. DonÂ’t try to find me. Your SISTER and I are moving away to Western Australia together! Have a great life!

The wife repliedÂ….

Dear Ex-Husband -

Nothing has made my day more than receiving your letter. It’s true that you and I have been married for seven years, although a good man is a far cry from what you’ve been. I watch my soaps so much because they drown out your constant whining and griping. Too bad that doesn’t work. I DID notice when you got a hair cut last week, but the first thing that came to mind was “You look just like a girl!” Since my mother raised me not to say anything if you can’t say something nice, I didn’t comment . And when you cooked my favorite meal, you must have gotten me confused with MY SISTER, because I stopped eating pork seven years ago.

About those new silk boxers: I turned away from you because the $49.99 price tag was still on them, and I prayed that it was a coincidence that my sister had just borrowed fifty dollars from me that morning. After all of this, I still loved you and felt that we could work it out. So when I hit the lotto for ten million dollars, I quit my job and bought us two tickets to Jamaica . But when I got home you were gone. Everything happens for a reason, I guess.

I hope you have the fulfilling life you always wanted. My lawyer said that the letter you wrote ensures you wonÂ’t get a dime from me. So take care.

Signed,
Your Ex-Wife,

hi -

Got up this morning, headed out to the front porch...
USUALLY-
I sit in the sun, and let the pain medication start it's work for the day,
Have a cup of coffee, read the 'Daily Meditations For Women' while I wait...
... while looking across Butte and the Continental Divide.

but THIS morning ...
I step out, coffee and Hazledon book in hand...
and the neighbor's abf is yarking off her front porch.
(our porches are barely fifteen feet away from each other)
:yikes: EEEEEEK-a-lah!

*and a good morning to YOU, too, I say!*

So I spun on my heel, and went back inside.
And went to my BACK porch to have my coffee and 'greet the day'.

I picked up the phone and called my neighbor
(mty back porch faces her house across the alley)
and asked her if she was going to a meeting today.
And could I hitch a ride.

I haven't been to a meeting in a month or so ...
and really, I wasn't even aware I was doing it
but I've been 'around' long enough to know there must be a reason.

okfine.

So I go back out to the front porch later in the morning -
figuring the coast was clear, right?

And I step out into the morning sunshine
and witness a very verbal quite abusive eviction
of the woman across the street.
Who is also active in her addiction.

I'm teetering on the reality myself
(possible eviction and all that)
and to witness the thing like that ...
didn't take much to feel the makings of a cave-in, you know?

oh yeah. Need a meeting.

what a coincidence - I've already arranged a ride.
I'm already GOING...

So I go -
it's a good meeting...
a woman there had her week-old baby...
and I'd calmed down and centered before they even read the Promises.
Funny how that is, isn't it?

So anyway, yadda yadda meeting...
get home ...
and people proceed to come visit.
One after the other.

It was so amazing, really.
I was in continual company until about five o'clock
when a friend said I looked tired and they should go.
and it was like the meeting never really broke up.

I told 'em about what had happened in the morning...
I mean, right at my front step were CONSEQUENCES of alcoholism.
man ya-hooing off the front porch
and a woman getting evicted.
WIth much drama volume obscenity and ... drama.

Nothing like a divine reminder that THAT life can be had again ...

It's always only one drink away.

I spent the entire day so very unspeakably grateful
that that is not my life any more.

*pause*
I'm grateful to be sober.
And I'm grateful to be here.


:ghug

Well.....after 8 months of living in a household where I have set firm boundaries....and after almost 19 years of living in a household where any kind of behavior was accepted......my AH has decided that he wants a divorce!!!

Is it a coincidence that he feels our marriage is not savable now that I've finally stood up for myself and am no longer enabling him?

All I can say is Wow....this disease is so powerful, and it has torn my family apart...

My job now is to protect myself and my children, as he wants 50/50 custody!!! I've told him that I will have to bring up his drinking and use of drugs, and he says that it would not be in the best interest of the children if I do this, and do I want to fight or go about it reasonably!!!!!????????

I tell him that I have a major concern about his ability to parent while he continues to drink....he says....here we go again, it always goes back to the drinking!!!!!

Well.....I wonder why it always goes back to the drinking????? Maybe because that is the root cause of the demise of our marriage????

I can't wait to see my counselor next week...I need some sanity!!!!

I am standing my ground no matter what anybody says (i.e., comments from neighbors telling me that I need to compromise and let my poor husband drink in his own home)!!!! Huh???? I wonder what they'd think if I told them how many times my AH has urinated in places other than the bathroom in our home????

Yikes.........please pray for me and my children.


Shivaya

Did you ever find that some days you read or hear the same thing over and over and wonder if it's a coincidence or your HP is trying to tell you something.

Twice today I have heard "You can live in the problem or you can live in the solution...it's up to you to choose."

And twice, not once but twice again, I heard that line from The Shankshaw Redemption `Get busy living or get busy dying`

I think someone is telling me to find some positive energy and start living my life as if it were worthwhile.

Or maybe there`s just an echo in here. :D

I think I will start by taking a drive in the country tomorrow and picking up some fresh vegetables and fruit at a roadside stand and maybe a fresh pumpkin pie.

And maybe I`ll take some time to stop for a new hairstyle, or at least a trim and a new colour.

My husband begins vacation Monday and we are heading up north of Lake Superior for a week....and I promise you I will be living well in my favourite neck of the woods hiking by day and nice drives looking for bear and moose, and then a nice hotel at the end of the day...with room service of course :D

A week of no work, no cooking, no housework....just living it well and enjoying each day.

Okay, so maybe we can`t all take a week off and head north, maybe I`m just having a lucky week....but you CAN get busy living if you set your mind to it.

How about you, I double dog dare you to get busy living well this weekend...and of course share it with all of us. :a122:

Tell us your plans to get busy living.

Hugs