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Not my first rodeo…
First post...
Been drinking pretty heavy for 16 years on and off. Like many of you I used to just get hammered on the weekends and laugh at all the crazy blackouts and craziness my friends and I would end up creating. Normal weekend in college was starting friday night and partying saturday night as well, recover sunday and back to life monday.
As I got older and out in the real world things began to slowly change...now when I would drink it would usually be a situation where I would guzzle like a mad man for 2-3 days straight, and then stop and deal with 2-3 days of suffering coming down from the booze.
Now, years later my last few bad benders have included doing nothing but drink for 7-12 days straight (vodka gatorade's a plenty), 2 arrests on dui charges, lost opportunies with women and possible job advancement, job loss in general, shame, loss of weight due to malnurishment, sweats, shakes, convulsions, depression, money problems.....so on so on......you all know the story. My costs for the neverending benders include: arrests, friendships, girlfriends, scars from fighting, missed appointments, and the worst.....depression and feelings of worthlessness.
The last bender I was on was an 8 day alcohol diet, I missed appointments at work, ruined my relationship with the girl I was dating, lied constantly, passed out 2-3 times a day, and the icing on the cake, smacked the back right of my company car into the side of my garage while in a blackout. That alone could have cost me BIG TIME! The depression and withdrawals I went through following that bender were wicked; sweats, shakes, anxiety, clammy skin, insomnia, nerves shot......
I decided after the last one I would be done with booze, that was over a month ago. I have read many of your posts and I am glad this site is here. That is all for now....just felt like joining this group of people who are like me in knowing we are not good drinkers.
Been drinking pretty heavy for 16 years on and off. Like many of you I used to just get hammered on the weekends and laugh at all the crazy blackouts and craziness my friends and I would end up creating. Normal weekend in college was starting friday night and partying saturday night as well, recover sunday and back to life monday.
As I got older and out in the real world things began to slowly change...now when I would drink it would usually be a situation where I would guzzle like a mad man for 2-3 days straight, and then stop and deal with 2-3 days of suffering coming down from the booze.
Now, years later my last few bad benders have included doing nothing but drink for 7-12 days straight (vodka gatorade's a plenty), 2 arrests on dui charges, lost opportunies with women and possible job advancement, job loss in general, shame, loss of weight due to malnurishment, sweats, shakes, convulsions, depression, money problems.....so on so on......you all know the story. My costs for the neverending benders include: arrests, friendships, girlfriends, scars from fighting, missed appointments, and the worst.....depression and feelings of worthlessness.
The last bender I was on was an 8 day alcohol diet, I missed appointments at work, ruined my relationship with the girl I was dating, lied constantly, passed out 2-3 times a day, and the icing on the cake, smacked the back right of my company car into the side of my garage while in a blackout. That alone could have cost me BIG TIME! The depression and withdrawals I went through following that bender were wicked; sweats, shakes, anxiety, clammy skin, insomnia, nerves shot......
I decided after the last one I would be done with booze, that was over a month ago. I have read many of your posts and I am glad this site is here. That is all for now....just felt like joining this group of people who are like me in knowing we are not good drinkers.
on the rocky road
Hi,
I posted in the newcomers forum the other day. Im 24 female and back living at home after 7 years of being with my partner. He was my employer, we had a company car and a lovely house. I moved back home with nothing, no car, no job and no partner. I also suffer from panic attacks, tachycardia and anxiety to boot!. So I turned to drink, it started off as a few drinks on a friday night and then i realised when i had a drink i could be normal, eat, laugh, chat. So I upped from there, to a quick drink in the morning, lunch, etc untill i got to hardened vodka drinking.
I was hiding it in my room on top of my wardrobe and also in lucozade bottles which i could take downstairs with me (hoping noone would want a sip!).
Anyway long story kind of short im seeking help now and have been to a doctor, im on vit b tablets and alsorts of other stuff. And im starting a detox next week on librium (sp?) ive been told to cut down and ive gone from 6-7 bottles of wine a day to 3.
Im just really struggling at the moment as my parents have cut down my percentage from 14 to 9 and im wanting another bottle as i find its not enough. Anyway this caused a huge row last night and my dad told me to get out of the house within 2 weeks.
Its all sorted this morning but im still struggling. Im going to AA meetings but i just think its too soon to go from so much to so little too soon, but my parents dont understand.
anyway sorry to rant!
I posted in the newcomers forum the other day. Im 24 female and back living at home after 7 years of being with my partner. He was my employer, we had a company car and a lovely house. I moved back home with nothing, no car, no job and no partner. I also suffer from panic attacks, tachycardia and anxiety to boot!. So I turned to drink, it started off as a few drinks on a friday night and then i realised when i had a drink i could be normal, eat, laugh, chat. So I upped from there, to a quick drink in the morning, lunch, etc untill i got to hardened vodka drinking.
I was hiding it in my room on top of my wardrobe and also in lucozade bottles which i could take downstairs with me (hoping noone would want a sip!).
Anyway long story kind of short im seeking help now and have been to a doctor, im on vit b tablets and alsorts of other stuff. And im starting a detox next week on librium (sp?) ive been told to cut down and ive gone from 6-7 bottles of wine a day to 3.
Im just really struggling at the moment as my parents have cut down my percentage from 14 to 9 and im wanting another bottle as i find its not enough. Anyway this caused a huge row last night and my dad told me to get out of the house within 2 weeks.
Its all sorted this morning but im still struggling. Im going to AA meetings but i just think its too soon to go from so much to so little too soon, but my parents dont understand.
anyway sorry to rant!
