Archive for the ‘Compulsive Overeater’ tag
Re-introduction
Hi everyone,
My name is "dionysianstupor" and I am an alcoholic and compulsive overeater...also a "tortured artist," but I'm working on being a sober one. ;-) I love performance and conceptual art, critical theory/philosophy, and writing. I've posted here before under a different name, but that was back during my questioning period and I figured I'd just start anew. I still don't always believe that I am an alcoholic because my creative mind tricks me into thinking I have multiple selves, but I had a pseudo-spiritual experience last week where my Higher Power was sending me signs (through art!) to stop drinking...so I've chosen to listen.
Nice to meet you all!
This is Day 4 for me. (And my drink of choice is wine.)
My name is "dionysianstupor" and I am an alcoholic and compulsive overeater...also a "tortured artist," but I'm working on being a sober one. ;-) I love performance and conceptual art, critical theory/philosophy, and writing. I've posted here before under a different name, but that was back during my questioning period and I figured I'd just start anew. I still don't always believe that I am an alcoholic because my creative mind tricks me into thinking I have multiple selves, but I had a pseudo-spiritual experience last week where my Higher Power was sending me signs (through art!) to stop drinking...so I've chosen to listen.
Nice to meet you all!
This is Day 4 for me. (And my drink of choice is wine.)
Can I join?
Hey there. I am new here. I have been struggling with food issues since childhood. I went between anorexia(pills) and binging in high school, more binging in college and now, I am married, have children, and have become a compulsive overeater and binger. It worsened with my diagnosis of Lupus four years ago, and two years ago, I fell very ill, and was unable to work anylonger. Now that I am doing better on the Lupus front, my eating problems have worsened.
I have awful self esteem, but seem to put up a great front, since not even my husband thinks there is an issue with me sitting in front of the TV and eating about 3000 calories in an hour. I don't even realize I have done it either, until its over. IT's like I can't stop.
I just had a baby last spring, and lost weight while pregnant(not intentional - my illness contributed to it) and since his birth, I have gained 30lbs. I am restarting Wellbutrin, and topamax for my headaches, which are worse since my desire to eat all the time returned.
I am basically needing support, and I need to know WHAT to do to start getting my life back. I need to loose weight, I am now at 250 lbs, but most seem to think I weigh 200 or so, since I dont carry weight all over, just in my hips and legs.
I am unhealthy, swelling and I cry everytime I look at myself. I know I can do this, because I have my children depending on me, and they are my life, I just need some guidance and support. I am going to look for a therapist, but to be honest, we are on a very fixed income with my rheum doc, pcp, my meds, etc.....
I am just lost, and as bad as I want to return to work, now that I am moving past the flare from a few years ago, none of my clothes fit and I am a mess. I couldn't go back and be professional and presentable if I wanted to.
I do however, manage to pull it together for my kids. I am very active with the school, just make sure I have good excuses when I don't eat at functions or attend pizza parties.
Sorry this is so long, but I am wide awake and miserable and wanting to go fix a bowl of ice cream.:(
I have awful self esteem, but seem to put up a great front, since not even my husband thinks there is an issue with me sitting in front of the TV and eating about 3000 calories in an hour. I don't even realize I have done it either, until its over. IT's like I can't stop.
I just had a baby last spring, and lost weight while pregnant(not intentional - my illness contributed to it) and since his birth, I have gained 30lbs. I am restarting Wellbutrin, and topamax for my headaches, which are worse since my desire to eat all the time returned.
I am basically needing support, and I need to know WHAT to do to start getting my life back. I need to loose weight, I am now at 250 lbs, but most seem to think I weigh 200 or so, since I dont carry weight all over, just in my hips and legs.
I am unhealthy, swelling and I cry everytime I look at myself. I know I can do this, because I have my children depending on me, and they are my life, I just need some guidance and support. I am going to look for a therapist, but to be honest, we are on a very fixed income with my rheum doc, pcp, my meds, etc.....
I am just lost, and as bad as I want to return to work, now that I am moving past the flare from a few years ago, none of my clothes fit and I am a mess. I couldn't go back and be professional and presentable if I wanted to.
I do however, manage to pull it together for my kids. I am very active with the school, just make sure I have good excuses when I don't eat at functions or attend pizza parties.
Sorry this is so long, but I am wide awake and miserable and wanting to go fix a bowl of ice cream.:(
