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This entire weekend I spent countless hours rehashing my finances from the past ten years- trying to figure out what income I could have lived on- why I couldn't make enough to live a decent life, in a decent neighborhood despite working full time and often two jobs, which interfered with my painting. Stupid student loan. I kept trying to figure out where I went wrong- I have lived down to the wire for ever and ever- seriously I have never owned more than two pairs of shoes and having to shop for anything sends me into a panic. It was an emergency when I had to buy a pair of glasses and I even declared banktruptcy after accumulating doctor bills I could never ever pay, even with insurance... I have a stack of papers with numbers and notes and covered over and over with different incomes, how and when I could have attained them... It looks insane and I know I'm just going to do it all over again tomorrow.:scared::e136::smashfrea
A Good Day to Get Sober
Hello all,
I am new to this website but have been reading here for a little over a month. I went through rehab in March and stayed at a halfway house for a month and got sober for 59 days. Since then I have relapsed several times. I learned that it is much easier to stay sober than to get sober again. Let me tell you about insanity - I hope this helps keep someone sober today.
Because of my drinking, I have given away: A good job, my drivers license, several friendships, support of my family and countless hours of wasted time. Every time I pick up, I lose something. I walked out of my office drunk yesterday because I couldn't control my drinking from the night before, and brought the bottle to work. I have spent entire days drunk in bed, I am a real alcoholic. I'm starting posting on here hoping that I can stay sober just for today, everyday.
Today is day 1 for me once again, I hope that it is the last time I feel this awful and ashamed.
I'll leave you with a quote that has helped me from the 24 hour a day book:
"Keeping sober is the most important thing in my life. The most important decision that I ever made was my decision to give up drinking. I am convinced that my whole life depends on not taking that first drink. Nothing in this world is as important to me as my own sobriety. Everything I have, my whole life, depends on that one thing."
Chris
I am new to this website but have been reading here for a little over a month. I went through rehab in March and stayed at a halfway house for a month and got sober for 59 days. Since then I have relapsed several times. I learned that it is much easier to stay sober than to get sober again. Let me tell you about insanity - I hope this helps keep someone sober today.
Because of my drinking, I have given away: A good job, my drivers license, several friendships, support of my family and countless hours of wasted time. Every time I pick up, I lose something. I walked out of my office drunk yesterday because I couldn't control my drinking from the night before, and brought the bottle to work. I have spent entire days drunk in bed, I am a real alcoholic. I'm starting posting on here hoping that I can stay sober just for today, everyday.
Today is day 1 for me once again, I hope that it is the last time I feel this awful and ashamed.
I'll leave you with a quote that has helped me from the 24 hour a day book:
"Keeping sober is the most important thing in my life. The most important decision that I ever made was my decision to give up drinking. I am convinced that my whole life depends on not taking that first drink. Nothing in this world is as important to me as my own sobriety. Everything I have, my whole life, depends on that one thing."
Chris
