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Reflection (into a crappy pond…)
Okay, I'm in a pretty goofy mood, so this is a good time to post about a habitual problem.
It's been about 10 years since I graduated high school (I know, probably a lot of you still consider me a young 'un...). Every now and then I hear about a person I went to school with who is now doing great things. This makes me feel like a crusty turd. I know this is wholly my problem…but here’s my question:
How can I shift the focus from what others are doing vs. what I’m not doing to who gives a flying crapper what anyone else does because I’m going to worry about myself and what I’m doing to improve my life?
I tell myself all the time to forget about them and concentrate on me, but it doesn't change how I feel. I can't make that leap and trying to fool myself isn't working.
It's been about 10 years since I graduated high school (I know, probably a lot of you still consider me a young 'un...). Every now and then I hear about a person I went to school with who is now doing great things. This makes me feel like a crusty turd. I know this is wholly my problem…but here’s my question:
How can I shift the focus from what others are doing vs. what I’m not doing to who gives a flying crapper what anyone else does because I’m going to worry about myself and what I’m doing to improve my life?
I tell myself all the time to forget about them and concentrate on me, but it doesn't change how I feel. I can't make that leap and trying to fool myself isn't working.
Oxy User
Hi. I'm brand new to this site and I have a big problem or I feel that way tonight. Maybe I will change my mind. I'm not even sure if this is the right place to post and I don't know if anyone can relate to me but I know that my life is going down the crapper so to speak because of my oxy addiction. Mostly I am concerned about the amount of money is costs me, which isn't a great reason to get help.
Long story short I am pretty hooked on oxy, my boyfriend had a back injury several years ago and he started selling them. I took recreational painkillers but maybe (at the most) 7 a week when we met for stress, to get high basically and it didn't hurt anyone. I've always held a great job, am college educated, etc. You can't tell by looking at me that I'm a junkie. I don't smoke, eat meat and rarely drink. I bike to work and am very healthy.
Anyway, over the past couple years my intake has gone up and up. Now I'm hooked on the relationship, the pills: snort and take them orally. I go into withdrawal when I try to break up with my boyfriend. I'm not even sure I love him or if I've just stayed together for the "benefits." It's costing me a lot of money and I'm not sure I want out and I honestly don't know what to do. How did I get myself into such a mess? I've never had a problem like this before. I guess i just want to know that there is hope to have a better life than this. I am feeling like such a looser.
Long story short I am pretty hooked on oxy, my boyfriend had a back injury several years ago and he started selling them. I took recreational painkillers but maybe (at the most) 7 a week when we met for stress, to get high basically and it didn't hurt anyone. I've always held a great job, am college educated, etc. You can't tell by looking at me that I'm a junkie. I don't smoke, eat meat and rarely drink. I bike to work and am very healthy.
Anyway, over the past couple years my intake has gone up and up. Now I'm hooked on the relationship, the pills: snort and take them orally. I go into withdrawal when I try to break up with my boyfriend. I'm not even sure I love him or if I've just stayed together for the "benefits." It's costing me a lot of money and I'm not sure I want out and I honestly don't know what to do. How did I get myself into such a mess? I've never had a problem like this before. I guess i just want to know that there is hope to have a better life than this. I am feeling like such a looser.
