Drug Rehab Options Blog

Today my RAD turned 23. It has been a long journey. Addict behavoir still sneaks up on her, but she will usually catch it & have some kind of a joke to say. She worked from 4 till 9:30ish wed night waitressing, then went to the halfway house & did 11pm-7am. I didn't realize she would be the only staff member there for the night. gulp. But everything was fine. She slept for a few hours then came here for Thanksgiving dinner, went to her boyfriend (ex fiance) house. She went shopping at 4:30 am with a friend & her boyfriend, then went to work waitressing for the day shift, then worked in the kitchen for the night shift. She is happy as all get out cuz she got a WII on their shopping outing. She will prob crash & burn tomorrow. But it is so nice to see that she has life & friends beyond addiction. Anything is possable. Hang on, your addict children just might surprise you.

hey guys its been a while since i posted here but i want some opinions on my non-cold-turkey try...

last night i went out with my roomate to a party at and apartment owned by my roomates friend. this was not the first time id be partying there, and over the past couple months i had kinda built up a reputation as the guy, the only guy, who would drink 1.5 pint of vodka and black out. but this time i had my roomate and my friends physically stop me at a certain point. i promised i would only have 5 beers, and that i would sip them, which is normally barely enough to give me a buzz (when i normally chug 4 to start)- which i have never done before.

so i had my 5, but i craved more, and i had some other kid sneak me some, i ended up being stopped for the night at around 7-9 beers, i wasnt exactly counting. i remember feeling sometimes during the night depressed that i was barely drunk at all, and i remember complaining about how much i wanted more. but i wasnt given any more.

but the key thing here is- i actually remember the whole night.

i was actually able to converse with people, have a few good laughs, being approached by the ladies (the girls can see a drinking problem from a mile away, and usually dont like that, and when they see someone on the couch near dead from drinking theyre going to stay away), play some games, DANCE (like wtf), joke around, instead of getting so drunk i couldnt stand and just crash on the couch, staring drunk at the tv, alone.

and by the time my roomate and i left the apartment around 2:30, i had pretty much sobered up completely, and i had realised how easy it was to have a good time without getting wrecked, something that seemed impossible for so long.

just goes to prove what a blessing caring friends are.

I just have to get this out.

My AH woke me up at 1:00am pounding on my bedroom door yelling that he was bleeding. I open the door to see blood all over him and his ear half-way torn off. He's got some crazy story about being at a party and getting into a crash on the way home -- even though I know he was home all night. He was and is delusional. Rushed to the ER. The ear, nose, & throat specialist was able to reattach the ear. The whole time he is saying things that don't make sense and talking to people who aren't even around. He must have taken something but I don't know what -- I've never seen him like this before. He did tell me yesterday he bought pills from a guy at work. But this is just too crazy. One doctor wanted to keep him for observation but the primary doc gave him something to calm him down and sent us home. There is blood all over the house. He doesn't remember what happened. This is just so sad.

So glad SR is here.

I've not been here for a long, long time. I've just simply gone downhill.

I'm unemployed now so I can totally devote my days and my nights to drinking my life away.

I have really, really good insurance........Anthem........the best plan they offer.

My question is this.............where do I begin?

Do I start with a doc and ask for the pills that help you not to drink, do I start with AA or do I start with the insurance company?

I'm ready to check in to rehab.......ready to do whatever it takes.

I'm to the point that I drink all day and all night...........crash for a day to get over the hangover and then go do it again.

My life is totally out of control and I need help and I need help bad and I need it now.

I am a drunk.............an alcholic...............I can't help myself no more.......I need someone to help me help me and I want it.

Where do I begin? Please help me!

Love.............Starlite Dawn

PS...........Thank you in advance..............

hi, im really glad i found this forum, and pardon if my first post is really blunt, but im in a tight rope and feel hopeless, its something i have a really hard time telling anyone about. Ive been using abusing drugs for the past 15 yrs as a somewhat functional addict. Ive tried 12-steps programs, 3 short rehabs cut short due to lack of funds , and have continually failed, 9 months was my longest sober time. Ive given it everything i had, even sharing what i write here, but ive always felt alone regardless.

Im at the mercy of a mutual cocaine/crack -sex/porn addiction that is destroying me, one doesnt go without the other. At the beginning of using/experimenting i experienced sex with cocaine and was so overwhelmed by it, that till this day it haunts me and persuades me to repeat the process over and over again. And to be honest i love it, but the behaviors and the after effects are really turning my life into dust, its such a big easy lie which i fall mysteriously for everytime, i feel like ive become some primitive animal, and i know im not i have alot going for me when sober for even a short time. My relationships have suffered, along with career and all the other things going down the tubes. Ive tried seeking professional counseling, but everything is so expensive, and it seems no ne really cares, gives time if you dont have funds, and opening up to someone at meetings about this is really really hard, people dont like to get into deep topics, "keep coming back." is all too common. I dont have insurance and as everyone knows medicaid doesnt cover anything real, except a shrink who's quick to dispense prozacs or the like. This is my problem and i have a hard time finding anyone who is fimiliar with this, and what people with similar issues have done to find help, im willing to give anything to change. I want a life, a family, a real relationship not a superficial one with a porn mag, a gram, and a hotel room, and the crash with the sun coming up. Deep stuff i know, but its real, and its taking my life. If anyone could recommend something please suggest anything relevant...Im a very open, willing, trying to be honest individual, yet i have some issues with AA/NA, and sometimes have a really hard time believing that i was born with an incurable disease, i really admire many of the lessons learned from AA/NA, but also believe that everyone is unique and that there exists more than one solution to a problem. please feel free to ask me any question or dissect what im saying, maybe my answers can shed light on something too. At this point i dont care in how far ill share, i wish i had the same confidence in other places.. thank you...

When will I learn! My AW came back into our house in January, after being out for relapsing again. She had 10 months sobriety and the same pattern to relapse happened. It's amazing to me how they can feel, look and interact as sober and healthy wives, mothers, friends and daughters and make that decision to go backwards. My AW is an amazing person when she's healthy and can just as quickly crash into relapse. When she goes...she goes hard. This time it was the ER for detox treatment so bad they needed to put an IV in her jugular vein because they couldn't get a vein in her arms or hands. Each relapse is harder for her to recover from. I know that I can't keep going on like this.