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Hi, this is my first post and I know this information is probably somewhere else on the forums but I'm no good at navigating any kind of forums so I'll just ask. First off, I'm 23 years old and would not have considered myself a heavy drinker by any means until the last month. This past month I have drank every single day without a miss. I was drinking because I had the money and I was bored all the time, but now I find myself actually craving alcohol and thinking about it on a regular basis. I'm not to the point where I'm drinking at work yet but I know that might not be too far off. Also the money is gone and I'm actually coming up with schemes to get the money for more booze. This has to stop and it has to stop quick or I'll end up like the rest of my family who are almost all alcoholics(i mean long term). I guess I got a good head start in realizing that I have a problem and it need to fix it so my question is aside from loss of sleep and anxiety what will my body go through while not drinking and should I see a doctor at this point or have I not drank long enough yet? I'm pretty terrified about DTs or something really bad happening to me since I'm going cold turkey.

Never had so much as the desire to try heroin when I was 11, by 14 I was already craving alcohol and before I turned legal it was all I ever talked about. As the depression grew worse, the alcohol still left, I would be in grief for months and that's when the cravings for heroin began. I'd always been drawn to self-destruction, usually it made me feel more connected to the world, got me away from my misery and somehow I wasn't as alone. Yet heroin has always remained a major part of my alcohol-rattled brain these past few years, this isn't a plea for a taste out of curiosity but rather the knowledge with heroin my problems will be short-lived cause it won't take long for the self-destruction to kick in, causing me to purposefully overdose.

It's only my first day of sobriety but I am already feeling encouraged that I can do this. I am not really craving alcohol right now but miss the relaxing, buzzed feeling. The problem is that my husband is drunk and stoned right now and I'm afraid he's going to try and pick a fight with me for being sober. I've been in the front room studying while he's been in the back room. I have not said anything about his drinking or smoking because I know that's not my place but he seems to be feeling defensive anyways. This is the part that worries me. How do I deal with him in a drunk and stoned state when I am trying to create a more positive routine for myself. I came home and studied and by the time I was ready to relax and have some ice cream, he was drunk which was not so relaxing for me. Still, I have to do this for me but I'm worried about what happens when he wants to yell at me or pick fights with me. I hope this works!