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Day 2
Well, I made it through day 2.
The day started out really rough, I felt horrible when I woke up. Not to mention the really strange dreams I had last night a long with the sweating. I only worked a half day today so after work I went for a very long walk.
Made some plans and I'm going to try to act on them. I thought really hard about the last two years and why I've been drinking so much. I'm coming to the conclusion that I can not focus on the bad and try to focus on what I can control.
The first thing I'm going to do is get myself back in shape physically. For six years I woke up and went to gym first thing in the morning five days a week. I also watch my diet very closely. Over the last two years I haven't done that.
I think I was able to hide my drinking problem for so long because I looked and ate so healthy, nobody would have ever thought I was pounding six to eight beers a night.
Then, it all went wrong. Anyway, I just had a bowl of chocolate ice cream and that helped with the cravings. I'm going to continue to post on this forum and read other peoples stories to help me through this long journey.
Thanks everyone!
The day started out really rough, I felt horrible when I woke up. Not to mention the really strange dreams I had last night a long with the sweating. I only worked a half day today so after work I went for a very long walk.
Made some plans and I'm going to try to act on them. I thought really hard about the last two years and why I've been drinking so much. I'm coming to the conclusion that I can not focus on the bad and try to focus on what I can control.
The first thing I'm going to do is get myself back in shape physically. For six years I woke up and went to gym first thing in the morning five days a week. I also watch my diet very closely. Over the last two years I haven't done that.
I think I was able to hide my drinking problem for so long because I looked and ate so healthy, nobody would have ever thought I was pounding six to eight beers a night.
Then, it all went wrong. Anyway, I just had a bowl of chocolate ice cream and that helped with the cravings. I'm going to continue to post on this forum and read other peoples stories to help me through this long journey.
Thanks everyone!
A New Chapter
I've started a new chapter in my life, a chapter that I hope is just the beginning to a really great book. My life hasn't always been easy. For so long, I have let the past and the present control me. I've lived in fear; I've lived with anxiety and panic; I've felt lonely and depressed; I've done things that I never thought were possible; and lastly....I've lost myself in others.
About a week and a half ago, I left my boyfriend. I fell so completely in love with him in no time and convinced myself that we would be together forever. I wanted to believe that so much. All of the little lies and all of the crazy things he did were okay because he loved me and those few "perfect moments" kept me going.
Well, our relationship lasted for just eight months and in that eight months, I had lost everything that was important in my life, including myself. And up until the end of last week, I didn't feel very good about moving on and looking forward. I was scared.
BUT.....a friend gave me the shove I needed. He challenged me to take a really good look at myself, a really good look at my life. Boy, I didn't like what I saw. I kept convincing myself that I was okay when really, I was so lost inside.
In just a short time, I must say that I have come a long way. You see, you can sit there and dream about what you want your life to be like or you can actually take the initiative, set goals and meet them so you can actually "live" the life you dream of. That's what I've decided to do.
I go to the gym daily....something that I kept promising my friend I would do but then always found excuses not to. Now I can see why he wanted me to go. I feel INCREDIBLE. I have so much energy and I just feel so confident. It's really nice. It also has reduced my cravings for coke.
I started eating right and have almost quit smoking. I've made plans with another close friend....she is going to take me hiking in about four months. I should be in pretty good shape by then and I've always dreamed about going hiking....so instead of dreaming about it, I'm making it my reality.
My whole point to this long blah, blah, blah is to tell you that you can do anything you "dream" of doing. This is YOUR life. Nobody can tell you how to live it.
If you're trying to quit drugs, think about why. Make a list of what the drugs do for you and then make a list of how they hurt you. I'm sure the "hurt" side far outweighs the good. Write down things you want out of your life. Stop thinking about what you've done wrong in the past and look at what you are going to do right in the future.
I've always been a present and past dweller. I had to see my ex the other day and I started crying and then something just hit me. If I kept crying, it was going to ruin "my" day. Nobody can make you feel something you don't allow. I wasn't going to allow him to keep hurting me. This was not my addiction anymore. This was not my problem and as much as I love him, I decided to completely let him go. And after, I felt such a weight lifted.
Everytime you choose good over bad, it gets easier. Everytime you say no to a substance, it gets easier the next time.
Sometimes we forget our true potential....we are so used to thinking negative and after a while, negative is the only thinking we have. We program our brains. We are what we think.
I'm so happy now that I have learned to let go. I never thought it was something I was capable of and because of that thinking, I kept using and I kept staying in an unhealthy relationship. Then one day, a friend told me that I "could" do it. I thought about it and realized he was right. I could do it if I really wanted to. And I did. I wanted my life back. I know you want your life back. Don't ever give up because one of those tries are gonna be the one that sets you free from your addiction....sets you free and gives you your life back.
Hugs
About a week and a half ago, I left my boyfriend. I fell so completely in love with him in no time and convinced myself that we would be together forever. I wanted to believe that so much. All of the little lies and all of the crazy things he did were okay because he loved me and those few "perfect moments" kept me going.
Well, our relationship lasted for just eight months and in that eight months, I had lost everything that was important in my life, including myself. And up until the end of last week, I didn't feel very good about moving on and looking forward. I was scared.
BUT.....a friend gave me the shove I needed. He challenged me to take a really good look at myself, a really good look at my life. Boy, I didn't like what I saw. I kept convincing myself that I was okay when really, I was so lost inside.
In just a short time, I must say that I have come a long way. You see, you can sit there and dream about what you want your life to be like or you can actually take the initiative, set goals and meet them so you can actually "live" the life you dream of. That's what I've decided to do.
I go to the gym daily....something that I kept promising my friend I would do but then always found excuses not to. Now I can see why he wanted me to go. I feel INCREDIBLE. I have so much energy and I just feel so confident. It's really nice. It also has reduced my cravings for coke.
I started eating right and have almost quit smoking. I've made plans with another close friend....she is going to take me hiking in about four months. I should be in pretty good shape by then and I've always dreamed about going hiking....so instead of dreaming about it, I'm making it my reality.
My whole point to this long blah, blah, blah is to tell you that you can do anything you "dream" of doing. This is YOUR life. Nobody can tell you how to live it.
If you're trying to quit drugs, think about why. Make a list of what the drugs do for you and then make a list of how they hurt you. I'm sure the "hurt" side far outweighs the good. Write down things you want out of your life. Stop thinking about what you've done wrong in the past and look at what you are going to do right in the future.
I've always been a present and past dweller. I had to see my ex the other day and I started crying and then something just hit me. If I kept crying, it was going to ruin "my" day. Nobody can make you feel something you don't allow. I wasn't going to allow him to keep hurting me. This was not my addiction anymore. This was not my problem and as much as I love him, I decided to completely let him go. And after, I felt such a weight lifted.
Everytime you choose good over bad, it gets easier. Everytime you say no to a substance, it gets easier the next time.
Sometimes we forget our true potential....we are so used to thinking negative and after a while, negative is the only thinking we have. We program our brains. We are what we think.
I'm so happy now that I have learned to let go. I never thought it was something I was capable of and because of that thinking, I kept using and I kept staying in an unhealthy relationship. Then one day, a friend told me that I "could" do it. I thought about it and realized he was right. I could do it if I really wanted to. And I did. I wanted my life back. I know you want your life back. Don't ever give up because one of those tries are gonna be the one that sets you free from your addiction....sets you free and gives you your life back.
Hugs
subs and school
Hey, I wrote about this in the HIV thread and figured I should just start another one.
My first issue is this: I got off heroin about 4 weeks ago now (!!!!!) and I was supposed to be on subs just to control the withdrawal and I was supposed to taper off within a couple weeks of starting them. Then I just didn't do it cause I "didn't want to have any withdrawal over the holidays" and now I've been on 8 mg a day for a few weeks and only have about 15 pills left. I am scared to get off them entirely because I don't entirely trust myself to not do dope, though I don't think it's necessarily think it's healthy to be using subs as a crutch like that. I've definitely heard not to stay on subs for 6 months or whatever, but I'm really scared that I'm going to relapse. I haven't had bad cravings for heroin but there's been a few times I think if I knew where to get it in Atlanta I might have but I always think "well I'm on subs, it would be pointless", so I don't. What are your thoughts on that?
Also, I have been drinking, smoking a little weed, and taken a little valium here, nothing excessively, but obviously it's not a good pattern. Do you think moving to Asheville where I don't know anyone and being a full time student in a couple weeks is a stupid idea? My family and I just don't know what to do because I'm supposed to be living in an apartment there and they think I should be in sober living, which I refuse to do again even though I really do want to be sober. My other options are staying in Atlanta with them and working or something but I'm already 24 and only have 57 credits and I just feel so behind. I know I haven't been sober the last few months but I really have been in sober living for about a year and a half of my life and I really can't do it anymore. I am very conflicted and I have to make up my mind within a couple days about where I'll be living and everything. What do you guys think?
My first issue is this: I got off heroin about 4 weeks ago now (!!!!!) and I was supposed to be on subs just to control the withdrawal and I was supposed to taper off within a couple weeks of starting them. Then I just didn't do it cause I "didn't want to have any withdrawal over the holidays" and now I've been on 8 mg a day for a few weeks and only have about 15 pills left. I am scared to get off them entirely because I don't entirely trust myself to not do dope, though I don't think it's necessarily think it's healthy to be using subs as a crutch like that. I've definitely heard not to stay on subs for 6 months or whatever, but I'm really scared that I'm going to relapse. I haven't had bad cravings for heroin but there's been a few times I think if I knew where to get it in Atlanta I might have but I always think "well I'm on subs, it would be pointless", so I don't. What are your thoughts on that?
Also, I have been drinking, smoking a little weed, and taken a little valium here, nothing excessively, but obviously it's not a good pattern. Do you think moving to Asheville where I don't know anyone and being a full time student in a couple weeks is a stupid idea? My family and I just don't know what to do because I'm supposed to be living in an apartment there and they think I should be in sober living, which I refuse to do again even though I really do want to be sober. My other options are staying in Atlanta with them and working or something but I'm already 24 and only have 57 credits and I just feel so behind. I know I haven't been sober the last few months but I really have been in sober living for about a year and a half of my life and I really can't do it anymore. I am very conflicted and I have to make up my mind within a couple days about where I'll be living and everything. What do you guys think?
When do the cravings/urges go away?
I had a very strong urge to drink tonight and while I'm really glad I didn't go through with it, I was wondering when the cravings start to go away for people.
Thanks in advance. I hope everyone had a nice holiday.
LD
Thanks in advance. I hope everyone had a nice holiday.
LD
Sub detox, trouble dropping below 1mg, anyone able to share experiences?
Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays everyone!
I've tapered down from 16mg to about 1mg of suboxone per day. All went well, felt great, until got below 2mg. I'm struggling to keep the dose less than 1mg; managed .75 one day, next day had to take an additional .5 to be able to stay at work.
I usually take half my daily dose in the morning when I wake up, then the rest around noon or 1 (whenever I start feeling a little unwell). After dropping below 1mg, I started having the restless feeling hit, trouble sleeping at night (RLS type symptoms), sneezing and yawning during the day.
To those who have been through this, did they find that the fairly mild w/d symptoms (especially as it's holiday time, so I have a lot of time off work) went away fairly quickly, or did you stabilize on the last dosage (for me, 1mg) before dropping the dose again?
If I choose to drop the dose despite not being stabilized, will the w/d symptoms get much worse? For me, my worst w/d symptoms is the restlessness and later the lethary. Even when I kicked methadone in the past, the body aches and chills were less an issue for me than the restlessness and extreme lethargy, insomnia. Cold sweats are a problem but I haven't hit that point yet, or the diarrhea, so my whining is relative.
In other words, my w/d isn't all that bad, definitely tolerable, but if they get worse, it might be difficult to work/function, and I may go running back to sub dr for another prescription (I have 6mg left right now). I have a handful of days off (4 1/2) for New Year weekend, but last time I quit c/t, I wasn't feeling any better by day 5. Maybe I should schedule another day or two off to use this time as my jumping off point? If I suffer through dropping the dose as scheduled in the next couple days, I'll be jumping off from .5 or .25. I'm curious as to others' experience regarding the jumping off phase and the very end of the detox.
At this point, no cravings, even on this low dose. I don't want to let myself get in a bad spot during a holiday weekend.
Any words of wisdom, advice, from anyone especially those who've been through this sub detox?
I've tapered down from 16mg to about 1mg of suboxone per day. All went well, felt great, until got below 2mg. I'm struggling to keep the dose less than 1mg; managed .75 one day, next day had to take an additional .5 to be able to stay at work.
I usually take half my daily dose in the morning when I wake up, then the rest around noon or 1 (whenever I start feeling a little unwell). After dropping below 1mg, I started having the restless feeling hit, trouble sleeping at night (RLS type symptoms), sneezing and yawning during the day.
To those who have been through this, did they find that the fairly mild w/d symptoms (especially as it's holiday time, so I have a lot of time off work) went away fairly quickly, or did you stabilize on the last dosage (for me, 1mg) before dropping the dose again?
If I choose to drop the dose despite not being stabilized, will the w/d symptoms get much worse? For me, my worst w/d symptoms is the restlessness and later the lethary. Even when I kicked methadone in the past, the body aches and chills were less an issue for me than the restlessness and extreme lethargy, insomnia. Cold sweats are a problem but I haven't hit that point yet, or the diarrhea, so my whining is relative.
In other words, my w/d isn't all that bad, definitely tolerable, but if they get worse, it might be difficult to work/function, and I may go running back to sub dr for another prescription (I have 6mg left right now). I have a handful of days off (4 1/2) for New Year weekend, but last time I quit c/t, I wasn't feeling any better by day 5. Maybe I should schedule another day or two off to use this time as my jumping off point? If I suffer through dropping the dose as scheduled in the next couple days, I'll be jumping off from .5 or .25. I'm curious as to others' experience regarding the jumping off phase and the very end of the detox.
At this point, no cravings, even on this low dose. I don't want to let myself get in a bad spot during a holiday weekend.
Any words of wisdom, advice, from anyone especially those who've been through this sub detox?
Hiya, new to the site and a question…
I had been drinking for about 20 years, then a couple of weeks ago I faced losing my family because of my addiction. I quit drinking and haven't had any real cravings or wants except one night when we went to Hooter's, then bowling for my son's 15th birthday, I missed "knocking off the edge". My problem is that I'm sure like others, I get extremely bored and am easily agitated almost all the time. Will this agitation subside as I continue to get used to sobriety, or is it something I will have to constantly work on? Since quitting, it is sometimes very difficult to just "put on a happy face". Some things just **** me off and since I don't have a way to numb these feelings anymore, I tend to get frustrated very often. I appreciate anyone else's input especially if they have had similar experiences.
New to the Civilian World
Hmmm...where to begin? I'm a 4.5 year veteran of the military. I've just gotten out about 2 months ago and only then, have I truly realized my experience? dependence? stupidity? with alcohol.
I never used to drink in high school and got introduced to it while in the military. Slowly but steadily, I noticed that all of our off-time revolved around drinking. Whether it was fishing, going out to eat, the bars, camping, etc. I didn't mind, nor did I see anything wrong with it, as I was "with the boys". Some of them would even show up at 6AM drunk as hell and still run 5 miles like it wasn't anything hard.
About 3 years in, I realized I started drinking (mainly while on the internet, like the other thread stated) out of boredom. I still managed to stay in very good shape, but continued to drink heavily at least 4-5 times a week.
When I got out 2 months ago, I sort of lost it. I think over the course of 3 weeks, I drank 6 handles of Jack Daniels. Coping with the loss of my friends, plus PTSD in a whole new world sort of made me lose it for a bit.
Two weeks ago, I kind of came to the conclusion that this would destroy me in college (chemical engineering in January), it was costly and was doing a lot of stupid things while under the influence.
I've been sober for 2 weeks now, with the exception of 2 parties. However, I did a test and managed to only have 2 beers a piece at each party, acting as the DD. No shakes or seizures of any kind (so far). I do still feel the cravings like an alcoholic (I know I am one) but I have managed to control myself from going to the store. Discipline? I don't know.
I don't know whether to stop completely or just try to continue to go back into the world of moderation. I feel helpless and empowered at the same time. I feel like I can control it but I don't want to go back to the same old totally drunken self.
Any thoughts?
I never used to drink in high school and got introduced to it while in the military. Slowly but steadily, I noticed that all of our off-time revolved around drinking. Whether it was fishing, going out to eat, the bars, camping, etc. I didn't mind, nor did I see anything wrong with it, as I was "with the boys". Some of them would even show up at 6AM drunk as hell and still run 5 miles like it wasn't anything hard.
About 3 years in, I realized I started drinking (mainly while on the internet, like the other thread stated) out of boredom. I still managed to stay in very good shape, but continued to drink heavily at least 4-5 times a week.
When I got out 2 months ago, I sort of lost it. I think over the course of 3 weeks, I drank 6 handles of Jack Daniels. Coping with the loss of my friends, plus PTSD in a whole new world sort of made me lose it for a bit.
Two weeks ago, I kind of came to the conclusion that this would destroy me in college (chemical engineering in January), it was costly and was doing a lot of stupid things while under the influence.
I've been sober for 2 weeks now, with the exception of 2 parties. However, I did a test and managed to only have 2 beers a piece at each party, acting as the DD. No shakes or seizures of any kind (so far). I do still feel the cravings like an alcoholic (I know I am one) but I have managed to control myself from going to the store. Discipline? I don't know.
I don't know whether to stop completely or just try to continue to go back into the world of moderation. I feel helpless and empowered at the same time. I feel like I can control it but I don't want to go back to the same old totally drunken self.
Any thoughts?
Non -Alcoholic Beer
Hello again,
I know I'm new to this site and I hope I'm not starting too many new threads; however, I was speaking to a good friend of mine today about our drinking problems and he mentioned to me how he's been able to cope by ordering non-alcoholic beers when he goes out.
He also mentioned he always has one available in the fridge at his house to help kill any cravings he might have at any given time.
I thought this was too important of a topic not to get other peoples advice before forming a solid opinion of my own. He swears by it, but it sounds way too risky to me.
Any thoughts?
I know I'm new to this site and I hope I'm not starting too many new threads; however, I was speaking to a good friend of mine today about our drinking problems and he mentioned to me how he's been able to cope by ordering non-alcoholic beers when he goes out.
He also mentioned he always has one available in the fridge at his house to help kill any cravings he might have at any given time.
I thought this was too important of a topic not to get other peoples advice before forming a solid opinion of my own. He swears by it, but it sounds way too risky to me.
Any thoughts?
lost as usual
I took my sleeping pills fews nights back and still couldn't sleep was out of skoal so I went and got a box at the store bout mile away. As I awoke next morning wife was already up and when I found her washing bedding she was some kind of pissed off. She said I came home drunk as I ever been. I dont think I drank anything no hangover and I dont remember buying any or drinking any. She assures me I was and in all fairness she should Know. I am in shock not denial I know I am capable of anything but this has never happened to me before. I have had zero cravings so I just dont know, this ever happen to anyone eles.
Yeah, I made it 2 weeks
Well I made it through day 14 since my relapse binge. I'm still having cravings but I'm sure I can manage them. It is driving me crazy though that I can smell and taste the cocaine. I was wiping my face off at the gym and could actually smell coke on my towel. I've also been experiencing the taste of it on food. But I think I learned my lesson on my relapse, I had gone 230 days since I decided to quit.
What really sucks though is that my wife (at least for now) thinks that I'm still using. She refuses to believe that I only relapsed for that one day and since that is the case she is even being a bigger b than usual. Oh well, let her think whatever she wants. It just goes to show that she has never really known me. I'm more determined now than ever. I hate cocaine!
I want to think everyone on SR for the support. This place and the people on it are awesome.
:ghug
What really sucks though is that my wife (at least for now) thinks that I'm still using. She refuses to believe that I only relapsed for that one day and since that is the case she is even being a bigger b than usual. Oh well, let her think whatever she wants. It just goes to show that she has never really known me. I'm more determined now than ever. I hate cocaine!
I want to think everyone on SR for the support. This place and the people on it are awesome.
:ghug
