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Lashing out to make yourself feel better…OT
I read something on another thread that was personally upsetting, not because I care about this particular poster or give any credence to what was said, but I've read similar insults, for lack of a better term, from this person and don't understand why they are so vile and seemingly hateful. I think it's because that used to be me.
Before I got into recovery and got off my high horse, I used to do the same things, this was mostly in high school and in my early twenties. The backhanded compliments, the insults, the degrading remarks, then the tags on the end with the pot stirring comment knowing you're going to p*ss someone off, but waiting for that thrill of hearing what they say back, just so you're sure you got them. This used to make me feel better. For a few moments I could escape the h*ll of my own life by making someone else as miserable as I was, even if it was for just a minute.
I am thankful this is not be anymore, however, I am sad that it exist on this board. I know I can't control someone else's behavior and that I can take what I like and leave the rest, however, I don't understand why someone would come to what should be a respectful, calm and welcoming place and do that. It's sad to me really.
Before I got into recovery and got off my high horse, I used to do the same things, this was mostly in high school and in my early twenties. The backhanded compliments, the insults, the degrading remarks, then the tags on the end with the pot stirring comment knowing you're going to p*ss someone off, but waiting for that thrill of hearing what they say back, just so you're sure you got them. This used to make me feel better. For a few moments I could escape the h*ll of my own life by making someone else as miserable as I was, even if it was for just a minute.
I am thankful this is not be anymore, however, I am sad that it exist on this board. I know I can't control someone else's behavior and that I can take what I like and leave the rest, however, I don't understand why someone would come to what should be a respectful, calm and welcoming place and do that. It's sad to me really.
