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not sure what i’m doing
i have not been here in a while so heres the thing, i was clean almost 3 years
(two years 10 months) whent on a cruise with some family and drank i stoped again a few days after i returned. i told the people in my support group not (a.a) and did not drink again till halloween night and that weekend and have not drank again i have not been back to my group because i'm not sure how i feel or were im heading. at this point i know that i can not drink the way i like too so i need to just not drink easeier said then done. i'm embaresed to tell my group and i'm thinking i should just wait till after the holidays in case i slip again...i know it's crazy thinking but my mind is just not in the game i think it has not been since the cruies. any advice would help
(two years 10 months) whent on a cruise with some family and drank i stoped again a few days after i returned. i told the people in my support group not (a.a) and did not drink again till halloween night and that weekend and have not drank again i have not been back to my group because i'm not sure how i feel or were im heading. at this point i know that i can not drink the way i like too so i need to just not drink easeier said then done. i'm embaresed to tell my group and i'm thinking i should just wait till after the holidays in case i slip again...i know it's crazy thinking but my mind is just not in the game i think it has not been since the cruies. any advice would help
A Cruise, A Halloween party & A Mother-in-Law
and I made it thru all 3! With the help of everyone here. Thanks for all our posts, threads, support and suggestions. I am grateful today for all of you and AA.
To anyone scared they can't do it without alcohol know that you can and it can be better than you imagined. Oh don't get me wrong the thought of a drink passed my mind a different times but as a wise women in my AA group says...you aren't responsible for the first thought that comes into your head but yo are responsible for what you do with it! True words of wisdom.
With all these recent events have shared with more and more people my little secret...i am an alcoholic and I do not drink anymore. No I tell them not even a little!
One friend even asked Do you have to go to those meetings? I told her I didn't have too I wanted too!
Thanks again for always being here!
Jen
To anyone scared they can't do it without alcohol know that you can and it can be better than you imagined. Oh don't get me wrong the thought of a drink passed my mind a different times but as a wise women in my AA group says...you aren't responsible for the first thought that comes into your head but yo are responsible for what you do with it! True words of wisdom.
With all these recent events have shared with more and more people my little secret...i am an alcoholic and I do not drink anymore. No I tell them not even a little!
One friend even asked Do you have to go to those meetings? I told her I didn't have too I wanted too!
Thanks again for always being here!
Jen
Recently relapsed and struggling
Hey there. I haven't posted in awhile - gosh, it's been probably 2 years. Anyhow, in July, I had almost 3 years of sobriety when I went out on a European cruise. I convinced myself that it would be alright for me to try a different drug (other than alcohol) and it took my mind exactly 2 hours to justify having a few beers - my sobriety was "officially blown", right? Well, after that night, I didn't think much about drinking. In fact, I was honest with my partner and put it behind me. About a month after that, I started getting more and more obsessed with it and found myself jonesing for my most favorite DOC, Jack Daniels. Well, I had my first Jack & Coke about a month ago and I was off from there. I don't drink every night, but my mind is consumed again. My partner discovered that I had been drinking again last Saturday night - old behavior creeping back. I promised I would be honest with him but I had a drink each of the last two nights behind his back. Of course, my mind is telling me that I didn't get plastered like I used to ...I just had a couple of drinks. I know that thinking will take me down the path of multi-day binges and hotels like it has before. It's so crazy how it was so easy for me to remain sober for the past almost 3 years and 1 episode just triggered my crazy mind into thinking it's ok to drink from time to time...even though it means obsessing, hiding and lieing. Well, that's it for now... I just wanted to vent. I'll be back.
~Sara~
I met Sara in my 3rd year of college. It was in January of 1985. I can remember that day we met, I was on crutches because I had turned my ankle and sprained it. She offered to carry my books to my car. How sweet!! From that day on, we became the best of friends.
We used to cruise around in my orange VW bug to all the college parties. We would do meth together on the weekends, and return to school on Monday a bit hung over, and start all over again the following weekend.
Sara was one of the sweetest people I knew. She still lived at home and her parents were both professionals and really nice. Her mom was the head of the sociology dept and Dad was the head libarian of San Diego City Libaries.
They always had the yummiest food at their house and a pool!!
We pretty much became addicts together. We started using every day and our lives both were taking a tumble. But there were still fun times that we had. I can remember we always could find one another in town. We ran into each other all the time w/ our boyfriends and would laugh saying we had our attennas up once again! We could hone in on each other!!
I became pregnant in 1988. Sara was there and supportive when I decided to have the baby. I got clean and saw less and less of her for a while.
Then I had the baby and became a Christian, but slipped back into use. I went to her house one day and a mutual friend of ours was teaching her how to shoot up. I watched, but didn't follow suit.
I got clean and entered rehab. Sara didn't.....her life kept spinning out of control until she became a prostitute. I was always there for her when she called.
In 1992 she became pregnant and wanted to abort. I prayed for her and told her to keep it. I got my whole church to pray for her and even against her parents wishes she kept the baby. I had a baby shower for her. Her baby girl was so beautiful! I was there at the birth! I wasn't going anywhere!
Sara got clean for a while. I can remember giving her her 30 day key tag. I cried. Then she relapsed. Her mom and dad got custody of her daughter who was then 3 at the time. I was relieved.
Over the next several years Sara attempted to take her life. She tried jumping from over passes, cut her wrists, was arrested for prostitution, went to jail more times than I can count. I kept loving her when she called, praying w/ and for her, and picking her up when she needed me.
I cannot remember the last time I saw Sara. I remember going home to San Diego in 2005 and she wanted to meet my 3 year old. I just didn't feel comfortable going over to her house because I didn't want my son around the drugs.
I got the call from her mom, the dreaded call on July 27, 2005, Sara had died of an overdose. She was gone forever. I had spoken to her earlier in the week by phone. I can remember she called and I was busy and told her I would call her back. I am so grateful I did call her back, even though I hated to talk with her when she was high. That was the last time I ever spoke with her.
I miss you Sara. Wish I could see you just one more time. Give you a hug and take you to an NA meeting.
I love you forever!
Your friend Sheila
Sara Ann S. Sept. 17, 1967~ July 27, 2005
Her daughter is a healthy teenager who is still living w/ Sara's folks. She is a friend of mine on my myspace. Her grandparents love her so much. She looks so much like Sara.
We used to cruise around in my orange VW bug to all the college parties. We would do meth together on the weekends, and return to school on Monday a bit hung over, and start all over again the following weekend.
Sara was one of the sweetest people I knew. She still lived at home and her parents were both professionals and really nice. Her mom was the head of the sociology dept and Dad was the head libarian of San Diego City Libaries.
They always had the yummiest food at their house and a pool!!
We pretty much became addicts together. We started using every day and our lives both were taking a tumble. But there were still fun times that we had. I can remember we always could find one another in town. We ran into each other all the time w/ our boyfriends and would laugh saying we had our attennas up once again! We could hone in on each other!!
I became pregnant in 1988. Sara was there and supportive when I decided to have the baby. I got clean and saw less and less of her for a while.
Then I had the baby and became a Christian, but slipped back into use. I went to her house one day and a mutual friend of ours was teaching her how to shoot up. I watched, but didn't follow suit.
I got clean and entered rehab. Sara didn't.....her life kept spinning out of control until she became a prostitute. I was always there for her when she called.
In 1992 she became pregnant and wanted to abort. I prayed for her and told her to keep it. I got my whole church to pray for her and even against her parents wishes she kept the baby. I had a baby shower for her. Her baby girl was so beautiful! I was there at the birth! I wasn't going anywhere!
Sara got clean for a while. I can remember giving her her 30 day key tag. I cried. Then she relapsed. Her mom and dad got custody of her daughter who was then 3 at the time. I was relieved.
Over the next several years Sara attempted to take her life. She tried jumping from over passes, cut her wrists, was arrested for prostitution, went to jail more times than I can count. I kept loving her when she called, praying w/ and for her, and picking her up when she needed me.
I cannot remember the last time I saw Sara. I remember going home to San Diego in 2005 and she wanted to meet my 3 year old. I just didn't feel comfortable going over to her house because I didn't want my son around the drugs.
I got the call from her mom, the dreaded call on July 27, 2005, Sara had died of an overdose. She was gone forever. I had spoken to her earlier in the week by phone. I can remember she called and I was busy and told her I would call her back. I am so grateful I did call her back, even though I hated to talk with her when she was high. That was the last time I ever spoke with her.
I miss you Sara. Wish I could see you just one more time. Give you a hug and take you to an NA meeting.
I love you forever!
Your friend Sheila
Sara Ann S. Sept. 17, 1967~ July 27, 2005
Her daughter is a healthy teenager who is still living w/ Sara's folks. She is a friend of mine on my myspace. Her grandparents love her so much. She looks so much like Sara.
Time for the change
I have dug back 3 pages and all I have seen are topic about cars, trucks, sex and drugs... all important topics in their own right.
What about "The Change" in your life.
How are you dealing with it ?
What crazy things have you been experiencing ?
What personality traits changes have you noticed ?
You know they actually have a name for this..? Yea, its call andreapause
I started 3 yrs ago, at least when it was confirmed by the doctor.
You know, the hot flashes, crankiness, being short, feeling restless.
I found its not uncommon to have a career change.
Myself, I went on a full two week Carribean cruise (east and west) 2 yrs ago. This summer I rode to Sturgis SD in the seat of my Harley.
I'm finding that my eye sight is getting worse, my health is good but I'm finding that when I do get sick I get clobbered. When I over do it... I'm wiped out for days, sigh.
Anyone else going thru this ?
What about "The Change" in your life.
How are you dealing with it ?
What crazy things have you been experiencing ?
What personality traits changes have you noticed ?
You know they actually have a name for this..? Yea, its call andreapause
I started 3 yrs ago, at least when it was confirmed by the doctor.
You know, the hot flashes, crankiness, being short, feeling restless.
I found its not uncommon to have a career change.
Myself, I went on a full two week Carribean cruise (east and west) 2 yrs ago. This summer I rode to Sturgis SD in the seat of my Harley.
I'm finding that my eye sight is getting worse, my health is good but I'm finding that when I do get sick I get clobbered. When I over do it... I'm wiped out for days, sigh.
Anyone else going thru this ?
