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new here - don’t know the ROOT of my disordered eating
Hi - I came on this site for a different reason, but once seeing this section, I had a question of my own I have never been able to answer myself regarding my ED.
I have issues with food - I overeat, I binge, starve, overexercise, purge in different ways...sometimes I'm fine for weeks or months...but the point is I have issues. I am not under or overweight I look 'normal'. I have always loved food, I used to sneak chocolates when I was 6 years old and enjoy so much foods from my native country where I grew up!
Everyone says there's a reason for this issue just as other addictions - something I am trying to ignore, or a hole I'm trying to fill - there was damage or trauma somewhere along my path to where I am. BUT I HAD AND HAVE A GREAT LIFE! It's not perfect (I did come on here for something that has recently happened that has me under a great deal of stress), but I have a great family (dysfunctional like any other, but loving and caring!) I have never been abused or neglected in any relationships.
Any stresses in my life are internal - I am innately an anxious person who worries a lot and is insecure (since I was a toddler). I'm an underachiever. I'm a bit lost in the world and haven't found my footing or purpose. But I know my self worth and I respect myself. Despite my feeling 'not good enough', I know that I'm ok in this world.
SO WHY do I have these issues? There is nothing that sticks out to me that I'm trying to sedate, or hide from or 'fill' with food. It reminds me of my chiropractor insisting that I was in some kind of accident because my back so screwed up and me insisting that if I had been I would have known about it!
Any insight, maybe a different way of looking at this would be so helpful!
Thank you!
Liv
I have issues with food - I overeat, I binge, starve, overexercise, purge in different ways...sometimes I'm fine for weeks or months...but the point is I have issues. I am not under or overweight I look 'normal'. I have always loved food, I used to sneak chocolates when I was 6 years old and enjoy so much foods from my native country where I grew up!
Everyone says there's a reason for this issue just as other addictions - something I am trying to ignore, or a hole I'm trying to fill - there was damage or trauma somewhere along my path to where I am. BUT I HAD AND HAVE A GREAT LIFE! It's not perfect (I did come on here for something that has recently happened that has me under a great deal of stress), but I have a great family (dysfunctional like any other, but loving and caring!) I have never been abused or neglected in any relationships.
Any stresses in my life are internal - I am innately an anxious person who worries a lot and is insecure (since I was a toddler). I'm an underachiever. I'm a bit lost in the world and haven't found my footing or purpose. But I know my self worth and I respect myself. Despite my feeling 'not good enough', I know that I'm ok in this world.
SO WHY do I have these issues? There is nothing that sticks out to me that I'm trying to sedate, or hide from or 'fill' with food. It reminds me of my chiropractor insisting that I was in some kind of accident because my back so screwed up and me insisting that if I had been I would have known about it!
Any insight, maybe a different way of looking at this would be so helpful!
Thank you!
Liv
