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I am have been clean for 1 year from opiates and I'm personally doing pretty good, but my fiance, the man who helped me get clean, is an alcoholic. He won't admit it, and he doesn't want to quit. He moved me out of state to get away from the drugs and without him I probably never would have got clean if it wasn't for him and I want to support him and be there for him like he was me. I wouldn't mind his excessive drinking but when he drinks he becomes a completely different person. He's short tempered, easily offended, and just altogether mean. He is the manager at a liquor store and comes home with a different kind of beer every night. He won't quit his job to get away from the alcohol because the money's too good. He says if he wanted to quit he would. I think deep down he knows he has a problem, he admitted to me once but later denied it. I know whether he drinks or not isn't up to me, and I know he has to want it, but I don't know how much longer I can deal with this. He was there for me when I needed him and he never gave up on me. When i'd wake up at 4 am crying for a pill and he had to get up for work at 6, he'd stay up with me. He spent $3,000 on methadone. I can't give up on him. Any advice on convincing he has a problem, or even just how to tolerate it better? I've started going to bed earlier when he drinks so I'm not awake to see him that way, but there has to be another answer. Any advice??

Hi guys, I know I am only new here (today), but I am starting to stuggle, and have no support, well I do, I have my wonderfull husband and my oldest daughter who is 19, but I can beat them with all sorts of excuses and good intentions, I never lie, but they fall for any reason I give then about being in controll or that it is better for me to have another drink.

I am cutting down on my intake because I don't want to detox in a center again because it is so far from my husband and children and if I go back they will keep me there for 3-4 months and we can't afford for my family to travel & visit me, my children are my life, and I quit rehab last time because I couldn't see them, and I ended up severely depressed.

Also they put me on drugs to stop seizures, which are some of the same I had a 12 year addiction to (I have been clean from them for 12 years now) and I like thm too much, they scare the bejebers out of me, so I need to do it this way.

I used to drink 3ltres of wine per day 14% and had to detox in a center because of seizures, now I am down to 10 cans per day of beers at 4%, I need to knock off 2 cans per day now, to get to a point where I can safely detox at home, but now I am struggling.

I am scared, and the more scared I get, the more I want a drink, it sux big time and I feel like I am close to losing it and going backward.

I guess I am asking for some tips/tricks/hints on keeping on reducing my intake so I can stop in a few days time.

Any help would be so appreciated, thankyou guys.

Hi. I'm obviously new and I have a question.
I've be told one of the ways to get away from drugs is to disassociate yourself from the people you know do them.
But that's one of the main things I have a problem with.
Some of these people are family and others are really good friends I've known all my life.
I've done drugs with them, but I've also been sober with them too.
They think its fine that I'm choosing not to do drugs and they don't pressure me to do them either.
But sometimes I find it hard to not do them when they're around.
Pot is nothing, but its other substances I have problems with.
Yet I can't bring myself to stay away from these people.
Anyone have any advice?

It's been a while since I've been on. For all of you who don't know my story, here it is in short. I've always been an honest, good and decent person. One of those good girls who never did drugs and didn't really drink except the occassional social event. About 7 months ago, I fell in love with a man who I later found out was addicted to pain killers. He is on a program that uses suboxone to recover however, he abuses that as well.
A few months ago, I was so entangled in what he was doing, where he was and if he was going to kill himself. One night, I fell hard. I slit my wrists and wound up in the pshych ward. I loved him so much and I couldn't imagine my life without him. I was so depressed from thinking he was going to kill himself that I ended up losing myself in him. I was becoming a horrible mom and didn't really like myself. I got help.
We moved in together and everything seemed to be going fine. Now, the worst has happened.
I was an enabler, as much as I hated to admit it. In one of my enabling events, my world turned upside down. Now, instead of an enabler, I am writing to you as an addict. A cocaine addict.
We have spent so much money. We have so much to lose. I don't know what to do. I can't go into rehab because I will lose my job and with the economy the way it is, I definitely wouldn't be getting another one anytime soon. It has not gotten to the point where I steal or sell my stuff but if I keep going, I'm sure it would.
I love cocaine. I love the way I feel when I do it. But I also hate cocaine. I hate the way it takes all of our money. I hate the way I'm an addict instead of the mother I should be. I hate the way it separates him and I because we are each so busy doing stuff that we end up not spending time with each other. And mostly, I hate the guilt and depression that follow. I swear I'll never touch it again and then a couple days later, we are back at it. I don't know what to do.
Advice would be good right now. I'm sure you are all shaking your head wondering how I could be so stupid. I deserve that.

Can you just walk into a drug store and get opiates?

I quit drinking a long time ago and can walk into a liquor store and buy something for a party so that's no big deal. I guess the same thinking applies for over the counter drugs too.

Resisting the temptation gets far easier the more time passes.

This is the kind of chit I did when I was loaded.

:e088::e088:Check it out down below at you tube.

Im so glad that I can have fun now and not be on drugs.

YouTube - ELVIS LIVE

Love ya all, Michael

I recently celebrated 3 yrs sober, and it felt good, but I am still unhappy that I suffer from certain character defects. I easily get a negative outlook on life and just wish for the instant feeling of good I got from booze/drugs. I have had a lot of extremes in life, more than other people in recovery I know. I did a lot of narcotics, got a lot of money without working for it early in life, and sex was the same. I don't like journeys, I just like destinations. I have difficulty in life not seeing it in these terms (black and white, all or nothing, sex/booze/money/status), and I often live my life just wanting to escape or find a means to escape. This makes me more selfish than I would like. I notice most people in general are very selfish.... most people in aa are still selfish to some degree, and the people who I see as less selfish are only selfless IF they think it will benefit them. I am like that, but more extreme. I feel like it will take a lifetime to undue the damage I did to myself (if it is possible). Getting sober and getting a job is easy, overcoming this stuff feels almost impossible. All I can manage to do is pray about it, do my readings, and try not to commit the selfish acts that have ruined me and my attitude/approach to life (or at least ones that are obvious to me). I am only now starting to accept myself a little more for who I am, so I am only beginning to accept others a little more too and want to be a part of their lives.

So today was depressing, stressful and makes me wanna drink. Dealing with family...well my family just sucks.

Well I suppose I should properly introduce myself. I am in desperate need of someone to talk to about my issues. I am a habitual dui offender. Finishing up my 2nd dui...classes...fines...etc. Oh but it gets better...I got my third dui last august and have to go to court next month for it. Since I was on probation still from my second I was put on SCRAM. So I have no choice but to be sober. With all that being said...I realize I have a problem. I am trying to deal with it everyday. Wake up first thing on my mind is my dui's...last thing before bed are my dui's. I was never an everyday drinker...well...maybe when I was younger. These days I am more of a binge drinker...I drink to get smashed. And not just alcohol but some drugs as well...weed, coke, ectasy mostly.

Now I am a sober mess...it's been about a month and realize that my drinking seems to be stress/anxiety induced...it seems I get cravings mostly when stressed or anxious these days. And with the story I just admitted above I am anxious and stressed nost days and am desperately trying to find an escape from my life. I was even thinking about getting some coke this week. I know I know...not a good idea...I didn't get any anyways. But I thought about it. No one knows about this last dui so I am dealing with it on my own. I am so embarressed. But it's more then that now...I can't live like this any longer. I don't want to live like this anymore. I need help. I want a way to live right/normal. I'm scared. I'm a mess...ha ha. Sorry had to laugh. Anyways I guess I just needed to vent I hope no one minds. Any advice would be much appreciated...I know I tried to cram a lot of info on the first time. Thanks!

Sometimes, I don't know were I stand! I'v been on and of drugs for yrs around the rooms 5 times. In and out of hospitals rehabs etc... Yah I can stay clean if I want too!! Or it seems that way!!

I struggle with even believing that im addicted. Because its so easy for me to get clean if i want too. The issue is staying clean. You see Ive had allot of stuff going on lately and you would think i would have picked up but actually i stopped using!!! honestly I feel comfortable with it.

I don't go to meetings They make me paranoid!!!!???? I know I have allot of character defects. I really don't think I can say that i'm powerless though because i'm choosing not to use and that's that, so how can i be powerless? I'm not using, not going to meetings, have no friends that use anymore and no money to even get any thing with. SO, I ask myself am I an addict, alcoholic and any other itc. you could add to the end of a word? So, back to my question what makes me powerless?

In the past i have gotten a few sponsors over the yrs yet never even came close to completing the first step with anything close to a dignified way!

I hope that this method of posting works. I can?t type online because the online computer is in the livingroom. I?ll save this to my portable drive and then try to paste it quickly. I?m not even sure that I should be posting anything. I?ve never been addicted to anything stronger than Newports :) but I?m afraid that was only for lack of opportunity. I liked getting high as a teenager and now, as an adult, I can remember how much I liked it. There?s my ?dark side? (what I call my desire because the rest of my life is ? or looks ? so stinkin? squared-away) that misses it and would get high in a heartbeat if I didn?t have to be so responsible or worry about scandalizing people. (I have an image to maintain. I always have and always will. Actually, it?s an image that I want to be.) So, I don?t think that I would ever actively seek to get high again. But, there are times that I sit back and try to imagine the rush ? and, you know, I almost can. Still, it?s like an itch that can?t be found. You scratch somewhere else but it really doesn?t satisfy what you want. To all of you who have had your lives turned upside down by addiction, I apologize for the following comment: I don?t hate drugs, except when it comes to my kids (please don?t ask me to explain that one ? I can?t even explain it to myself). I never had a real reason to hate them, I guess. I only enjoyed them. They had little consequence in my life, unlike alcohol. Although I?m not alcoholic, I have alcoholism throughout my family tree, and I know that I don?t control it well ? dead giveaway should have been when I lost my virginity to a guy whom I didn?t know. He thought that, although I wasn?t sober enough to walk to the car, I was sober enough to give consent. Call me dense. That lesson took me a couple years to figure out. But, I haven?t had a drink in twenty years. So, here I am, all grown up, a woman who loves God, has a family and a job. Still, I know that if someone were to restrain me and were to force a needle in my arm, although I would scream indignantly for all the world to hear, I would be silently thanking them for the opportunity. (I can?t believe that I actually admitted that.) Am I simply crazy? Maybe I should be posting in the mental health section. Not for awhile though, because it took me over an hour to get up the courage to post this one.