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30 Days Friday
That's a good thing. I've had 30 days so many times before...I'm really trying to keep it in the one day at a time mind set. I find it a lot easier to stay in the present and focus on whats in front of me today. To stay honest...I continue to take Antabuse daily ( monitored ) I know the use of antabuse is somewhat controversial but it helps me...I'm going to confront that issue later on...right now I'm just trying to stay sober and get some time under my belt.
Anxiety, for whatever reason, has been a huge struggle this past month. Much more so than I remember experiencing before. Pretty much daily episodes of sadness...panic...doom and gloom thinking...I call it "catastrophizing"...seeing no way out of things or getting really regretful and focused on things I can't change or can't change right now. Getting caught up in worries about the future..."what if" scenarios...financial worries...impending heath crises...anybody else get that??
I guess it could be PAWS symptoms...but drinking is not an option. Thanks
Anxiety, for whatever reason, has been a huge struggle this past month. Much more so than I remember experiencing before. Pretty much daily episodes of sadness...panic...doom and gloom thinking...I call it "catastrophizing"...seeing no way out of things or getting really regretful and focused on things I can't change or can't change right now. Getting caught up in worries about the future..."what if" scenarios...financial worries...impending heath crises...anybody else get that??
I guess it could be PAWS symptoms...but drinking is not an option. Thanks
I don’t know what’s wrong with me….
I'm lost
I couldn’t give a sh*t about the time I have….I'm close to 60 days....the cheers……the day by day crap.
What happens when you just feel overwhelmed?Seriously?What do you do when everything around you falls apart and no matter what you do ‘right’?(you know-do the next right thing etc) doesn’t work and you’re here-staring at your life-sober and wondering WTF you’re going to do because every other option says –just drink it away?You can’t handle real life?
I want to be better than this.I thought I was.I am so close to 60 days sober for the first time in a long time and I feel nothing but lost…WTF?
These past 3 weeks?I could’ve given in every day.I had ‘reasons/excuses’-LOL.The ones I pull other people here up on.I had huge financial worries, my son was driving me mad, my husband was sick and needy and my parents are ailing-in and out of hospital and I’m the person everyone turns to and I CAN’T DO IT ANYMORE.I just can’t.
I am desperately hanging on to my sobriety because if I don’t? My entire world will fall apart but I’m wondering now if I’m doing it for all the wrong reasons? Am I just trying to keep the previous staus quo but I just happen to be sober now and feel it more deeply?
I have great support-I’m not isolating and I have people who really do support me in being sober.But I feel like I’ve missed some important piece of the puzzle and I don’t know what it is….
I started going to yoga classes recently and it really helped me feel better in my mind and body.But I’m just overwhelmed by my life lately-too much stress and worry and I’m not handling it well.
Maybe….prickly me?I just need a hug and for someone to tell me it’s normal and I’m going to be okay?
I’m off to cry now-please don’t be mean to me….LOL
Julesxox
I couldn’t give a sh*t about the time I have….I'm close to 60 days....the cheers……the day by day crap.
What happens when you just feel overwhelmed?Seriously?What do you do when everything around you falls apart and no matter what you do ‘right’?(you know-do the next right thing etc) doesn’t work and you’re here-staring at your life-sober and wondering WTF you’re going to do because every other option says –just drink it away?You can’t handle real life?
I want to be better than this.I thought I was.I am so close to 60 days sober for the first time in a long time and I feel nothing but lost…WTF?
These past 3 weeks?I could’ve given in every day.I had ‘reasons/excuses’-LOL.The ones I pull other people here up on.I had huge financial worries, my son was driving me mad, my husband was sick and needy and my parents are ailing-in and out of hospital and I’m the person everyone turns to and I CAN’T DO IT ANYMORE.I just can’t.
I am desperately hanging on to my sobriety because if I don’t? My entire world will fall apart but I’m wondering now if I’m doing it for all the wrong reasons? Am I just trying to keep the previous staus quo but I just happen to be sober now and feel it more deeply?
I have great support-I’m not isolating and I have people who really do support me in being sober.But I feel like I’ve missed some important piece of the puzzle and I don’t know what it is….
I started going to yoga classes recently and it really helped me feel better in my mind and body.But I’m just overwhelmed by my life lately-too much stress and worry and I’m not handling it well.
Maybe….prickly me?I just need a hug and for someone to tell me it’s normal and I’m going to be okay?
I’m off to cry now-please don’t be mean to me….LOL
Julesxox
