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Oxycodone addiction for pain
I just want to let everone out there who is taking oxycodone for pain and have been taking it for a year, or more, to please find it in your every being to detox off the stuff. I had 3 ankle surgeries in 18 months and was given more and more of the devil drug. It always seemd to me that I needed more and more and the doctors didn't hesitate to give me more. I was up to 18 oxycodone and 2 morphene a day after my last surgery on Aug 26th of this year. Well last week my doctor decided to cut me off and so I went to detox. I was so scared because I didn't think I could deal with the pain in my ankles. I had my first surgery in june of 2007 so I have been on crutches for 17 months.
I went to detox on monday the 17th of November. It was the hardest thing I have ever done in my life. I had help from the people at the detox and several of the councelors had been there before. I struggled through the first night and the second night it got a little better. I was finally able to go home wednesday which was earlier than expected but I talked to all the councelors to make sure I was making the right choice. It was so nice to be home and believe it or not I am not in pain. This whole time that freakin oxycodone was causing the pain. I am now able to take advil or tylnol for my pain and it goes away. Now that is something I thought would never be possible. I am actually walking without crutches and feel like my life has a whole new beginning. Thank GOD for DETOX........ Please think about it cause I am living proof that oxycodone was causing the pain.
Thanks for listening Danielle
I went to detox on monday the 17th of November. It was the hardest thing I have ever done in my life. I had help from the people at the detox and several of the councelors had been there before. I struggled through the first night and the second night it got a little better. I was finally able to go home wednesday which was earlier than expected but I talked to all the councelors to make sure I was making the right choice. It was so nice to be home and believe it or not I am not in pain. This whole time that freakin oxycodone was causing the pain. I am now able to take advil or tylnol for my pain and it goes away. Now that is something I thought would never be possible. I am actually walking without crutches and feel like my life has a whole new beginning. Thank GOD for DETOX........ Please think about it cause I am living proof that oxycodone was causing the pain.
Thanks for listening Danielle
jumping off lorazepam
I was taking 1mg lorazepam at bedtime for about five months to help me sleep. It stopped working so about four days ago I stopped.
Insomnia, clammy sweats in bed, but I feel good, less anxious than usual. First night was bad because I had a toke thinking it would be a good substitute. Wrong! But since then despite the sleeplessness my mind seems more clear.
Since then I've read I should be tapering, but since my symptoms are relatively mild, I'm wondering if maybe I'm one of the lucky ones who will have an easy withdrawal.
OR! Is it going to take a week or two for the bad part to start?
Insomnia, clammy sweats in bed, but I feel good, less anxious than usual. First night was bad because I had a toke thinking it would be a good substitute. Wrong! But since then despite the sleeplessness my mind seems more clear.
Since then I've read I should be tapering, but since my symptoms are relatively mild, I'm wondering if maybe I'm one of the lucky ones who will have an easy withdrawal.
OR! Is it going to take a week or two for the bad part to start?
No more denial, yep, I’m a serious drunk
Well, here I am in the Canadian oilfields of the North, sober 1 week. I have played this game before, but I always found a way to sneak booze up here before. This time, I decided I was going 3 weeks sober no matter what. So, I passed every liquor store and got on the single engine bush plane and here I am. I have played this game before, but three weeks truly dry has never been done before. My last three weeker was close enough to a small town that we went to a restaurant one night, and a night club a week later. Other times, I may have gone ten days, but always returned with the intention of becoming a social drinker. That was like a staight 45 degree line graph. A little the first night, a bottle the next, then a bottle and a bit, etc.. I found this website by luck last week, and reading the stories makes me say Holy s@#$!!! I have done that, and that, and that. Yes, you all never got a DUI, well I did last May and I was blacked out when I was offered a lawyer. I have to go to trial this May, and I can't even afford the $7000 the lawyer wants to call in an "expect" to discuss the reality of blackouts. I mentioned my knowledge and ability to get literature, but apparently it has to be a special person with the rubber stamp who is the professional on this. I almost lost my wife(well I still might, she is at the end now), I left the house multiple times with a friend behind my wife's back to go to the bar, blacked out quite often in the last few months, pee the bed on really bad nights. I have cancelled appointments from hangovers, and even missed an important exam because I was supposed to get up at 8 AM at the hotel I was staying at, but you guessed it, still friggen spinning from the hotel bar where I was supposed to have 1 beer and go to bed. During this whole s@#$show of a life, I couldn't see the forest through the trees. I was in complete denial about having a problem, or being a full blown alcoholic. I have no chances left here. I am going home to stay sober or my wife is leaving PERIOD!! No more chances, sorry's or oops. I am also starting a new career in the city which I must be on call all the time. If I drink, I lose my new job, wife, house, and half of everything, and my 3 labrador retreivers. In a way, will power isn't even something to worry about. Ever listen to the country song"alcohol" .I heard it the other day, but never appreciated just how crappy he thinks drinking is. I always listened to it while drinking and thought, yeehaa!! he's drinkin', i'm drinkin', alcohol is cool. Yah right dummy, listen again. I did and I misunderstand what he was saying. He thinks alcohol is a life wrecker.
What felt really crappy was two weeks ago I had a nasty no drinking, shakes, dry heaves, hot flash, sweats, bad day. I didn't drink that day, and the next day I had to go to a medical for this new career. I fill out this questionnaire, and then go in this room. First thing he does is grope my personal goods(that trauma is another story). Then he wants to talk about alcohol consumption. "how many times a week" hmm maybe twice "more than 3" nope "ever more than 5" oh maybe Christmas, New Years, and a few times this Summer. "OK, sounds good, let's move on to something else"
What a load of crap, more like this " how many times a week" everyday, unless I have something darn close to DT's "more than 5" yep, usually a 26oz of vodka(that's 750ml for my metric friends), then I might move onto beer(Canadian beer, real beer by the way)
Can you imagine his jaw drop. Not only would I not have gotten the job, but he would have gone from examiner to doctor mode RIGHT NOW!!!
Anyways, it's 12 AM (-7) and I am bored. TV is rotten up here, and I have seen all my movies.
The point of all this was, I am shocked that every stupid thing I did drunk was just what everyone else has been doing. I can't say it works for everyone, but if you can go cold turkey and go somewhere for a month, your cravings go away really quick.
I also get absolutely no withdrawal symptoms either, so maybe it isn't a safe idea for other people. Why don't I get withdrawal from alcohol like others??? I have been drinking hard for 7 years, and only ever get day 1 issues. On day 2, I feel like an athlete and usually hit the gym pretty hard whistling a tune.
What felt really crappy was two weeks ago I had a nasty no drinking, shakes, dry heaves, hot flash, sweats, bad day. I didn't drink that day, and the next day I had to go to a medical for this new career. I fill out this questionnaire, and then go in this room. First thing he does is grope my personal goods(that trauma is another story). Then he wants to talk about alcohol consumption. "how many times a week" hmm maybe twice "more than 3" nope "ever more than 5" oh maybe Christmas, New Years, and a few times this Summer. "OK, sounds good, let's move on to something else"
What a load of crap, more like this " how many times a week" everyday, unless I have something darn close to DT's "more than 5" yep, usually a 26oz of vodka(that's 750ml for my metric friends), then I might move onto beer(Canadian beer, real beer by the way)
Can you imagine his jaw drop. Not only would I not have gotten the job, but he would have gone from examiner to doctor mode RIGHT NOW!!!
Anyways, it's 12 AM (-7) and I am bored. TV is rotten up here, and I have seen all my movies.
The point of all this was, I am shocked that every stupid thing I did drunk was just what everyone else has been doing. I can't say it works for everyone, but if you can go cold turkey and go somewhere for a month, your cravings go away really quick.
I also get absolutely no withdrawal symptoms either, so maybe it isn't a safe idea for other people. Why don't I get withdrawal from alcohol like others??? I have been drinking hard for 7 years, and only ever get day 1 issues. On day 2, I feel like an athlete and usually hit the gym pretty hard whistling a tune.
1st night without drinking - welcom to Queenie
Please welcome Qeenie1 to SR...this is her first night without drinking and she could use the support of all of us as she goes through this.
So glad you are here queenie!:ghug3
So glad you are here queenie!:ghug3
sleep problems
I have been weening myself off alcohol the last couple of days. The first night I went through terrible shaking, weakness, dryheaves, thought I was going too die in my sleep from a seizure, (pretty scary!!) So last night I decided to have a couple (2) beers so I was not going cold turkey. I didn't get the shakes but I kept getting woken by like a sudden shock or jerk of my body. I then again was scared I was about to have a seizure. I can't go to detox because I am a stay at home mom with no daycare options. I have terrible burning in my chest and really scared something might happen to me when I am home alone with my daughter.
Any suggestions to how I can get through this HELL and get my life back? I am desperate!
Any suggestions to how I can get through this HELL and get my life back? I am desperate!
I am 24 and feel I am too young to have a problem BUT
I know I have a drinking problem and have had this problem since about the age of 21. I mean in the last 2 months there have been 3 incidents from drinking.
1. Went camping got really drunk because I drink really quick and in large quantities. I had around 15-20 beers and well I blacked out, fell in a fire and had almost 3rd degree burn on my ankle.
2. Went camping again to a different place, drank a lot we were loud and the end result was getting kicked out of cam site on first night. As well out of like 9 of us I was the only one that got arrested and put into drunk tank. Wasnt charged nor ticketed. Once again blacked out.
3. The very next night got hammered at a friends place and played fooseball and euchre all night and eventually blacked out and passed out in garage, where my friends had to lift me inside onto the couch.
4. This past Friday I got really drunk right after work while playing golf, than going to a restaurant than to a club. I had 5 tall boys while golfing 9 holes, like 5 pints at restaurant and maybe 2 beers at pool hall and 2 or 3 beers at club. I than blacked out and took a taxi home well tried too. I passed out and he for some reason thought I wasnt going to pay so called the cops and than I snapped on the cabbie which I had the money but had to take it out of ATM, the cab fee was 37$ and for some reason i took 200 out of bank machine but dont remember. i only gave cabbie 40 thank god. Than this girl I really liked I guess I called her like 12 times at 1 30 in morning not even realizing it. So she woke up next day and saw all the missed calls and snapped on me now were not dating because of that and other issues that were alcohol related.
So thats 4 issues in last like 40 days, I cant continue to hurt those around me and most importantly continue to hurt myself.
Another incident last week I got drunk by myself while playing xbox and drank 11 beers in a sitting and had to work next morning. Once again I blacked out and woke up at 3am realizing I had to be at work in 3 hrs and didnt have alarm set.
I am sad, confused, lost and just know I ll be much happier without alcohol.
Sorry for the long write up
1. Went camping got really drunk because I drink really quick and in large quantities. I had around 15-20 beers and well I blacked out, fell in a fire and had almost 3rd degree burn on my ankle.
2. Went camping again to a different place, drank a lot we were loud and the end result was getting kicked out of cam site on first night. As well out of like 9 of us I was the only one that got arrested and put into drunk tank. Wasnt charged nor ticketed. Once again blacked out.
3. The very next night got hammered at a friends place and played fooseball and euchre all night and eventually blacked out and passed out in garage, where my friends had to lift me inside onto the couch.
4. This past Friday I got really drunk right after work while playing golf, than going to a restaurant than to a club. I had 5 tall boys while golfing 9 holes, like 5 pints at restaurant and maybe 2 beers at pool hall and 2 or 3 beers at club. I than blacked out and took a taxi home well tried too. I passed out and he for some reason thought I wasnt going to pay so called the cops and than I snapped on the cabbie which I had the money but had to take it out of ATM, the cab fee was 37$ and for some reason i took 200 out of bank machine but dont remember. i only gave cabbie 40 thank god. Than this girl I really liked I guess I called her like 12 times at 1 30 in morning not even realizing it. So she woke up next day and saw all the missed calls and snapped on me now were not dating because of that and other issues that were alcohol related.
So thats 4 issues in last like 40 days, I cant continue to hurt those around me and most importantly continue to hurt myself.
Another incident last week I got drunk by myself while playing xbox and drank 11 beers in a sitting and had to work next morning. Once again I blacked out and woke up at 3am realizing I had to be at work in 3 hrs and didnt have alarm set.
I am sad, confused, lost and just know I ll be much happier without alcohol.
Sorry for the long write up
Having an anxious moment
I kicked out AH the other night and he is now staying with his parents and alcoholic brother. He took the kids to his parents tonight to spend the night. I'm fine with the kids going there since they do not tolerate drinking in their home. But this is the first night that we have lived apart that he has taken the kids over night.
I know they are fine but I have a million thoughts going through my head. AH and his family are always buying the kids stuff. My son told me tonight that his grandpa threw a bag of Yugioh cards at him. Their dad buys them something everytime they see him. At onepoint my son told AH that he gave the Barbie he had just bought for his sister to his cousin because he had bought her 3 of the same one. I can't afford to go out and buy them stuff all the time. Its not appropriate anyways. I'm just worried that they are going to want to go there more because they get stuff all the time.
Then there is my growing anxiety about AH's girlfriend. I have spoken with her and she is nice and all, but has never met the kids. I told her that I dont want her to meet them for awhile and until I had met her. SHe agreed. I'm just so worried that once they meet her that they will think she is "the fun one" or "the cool one." I think alot of this is comming from what I have been told about her. She is a petite blonde who is supposedly a bomb shell. I'm sure alot of it is him quacking. But then here I am some what over weight. I havent exactly been able to have much of a life because of AH's possessiveness and jealousy. I also know alot of these feelings are because AH has done a number to my self confidence. I'm just tired of feeling second all the time. Ok enough of this pity crap. Thanks for letting me vent.
I know they are fine but I have a million thoughts going through my head. AH and his family are always buying the kids stuff. My son told me tonight that his grandpa threw a bag of Yugioh cards at him. Their dad buys them something everytime they see him. At onepoint my son told AH that he gave the Barbie he had just bought for his sister to his cousin because he had bought her 3 of the same one. I can't afford to go out and buy them stuff all the time. Its not appropriate anyways. I'm just worried that they are going to want to go there more because they get stuff all the time.
Then there is my growing anxiety about AH's girlfriend. I have spoken with her and she is nice and all, but has never met the kids. I told her that I dont want her to meet them for awhile and until I had met her. SHe agreed. I'm just so worried that once they meet her that they will think she is "the fun one" or "the cool one." I think alot of this is comming from what I have been told about her. She is a petite blonde who is supposedly a bomb shell. I'm sure alot of it is him quacking. But then here I am some what over weight. I havent exactly been able to have much of a life because of AH's possessiveness and jealousy. I also know alot of these feelings are because AH has done a number to my self confidence. I'm just tired of feeling second all the time. Ok enough of this pity crap. Thanks for letting me vent.
