Archive for the ‘Footing’ tag
new here - don’t know the ROOT of my disordered eating
Hi - I came on this site for a different reason, but once seeing this section, I had a question of my own I have never been able to answer myself regarding my ED.
I have issues with food - I overeat, I binge, starve, overexercise, purge in different ways...sometimes I'm fine for weeks or months...but the point is I have issues. I am not under or overweight I look 'normal'. I have always loved food, I used to sneak chocolates when I was 6 years old and enjoy so much foods from my native country where I grew up!
Everyone says there's a reason for this issue just as other addictions - something I am trying to ignore, or a hole I'm trying to fill - there was damage or trauma somewhere along my path to where I am. BUT I HAD AND HAVE A GREAT LIFE! It's not perfect (I did come on here for something that has recently happened that has me under a great deal of stress), but I have a great family (dysfunctional like any other, but loving and caring!) I have never been abused or neglected in any relationships.
Any stresses in my life are internal - I am innately an anxious person who worries a lot and is insecure (since I was a toddler). I'm an underachiever. I'm a bit lost in the world and haven't found my footing or purpose. But I know my self worth and I respect myself. Despite my feeling 'not good enough', I know that I'm ok in this world.
SO WHY do I have these issues? There is nothing that sticks out to me that I'm trying to sedate, or hide from or 'fill' with food. It reminds me of my chiropractor insisting that I was in some kind of accident because my back so screwed up and me insisting that if I had been I would have known about it!
Any insight, maybe a different way of looking at this would be so helpful!
Thank you!
Liv
I have issues with food - I overeat, I binge, starve, overexercise, purge in different ways...sometimes I'm fine for weeks or months...but the point is I have issues. I am not under or overweight I look 'normal'. I have always loved food, I used to sneak chocolates when I was 6 years old and enjoy so much foods from my native country where I grew up!
Everyone says there's a reason for this issue just as other addictions - something I am trying to ignore, or a hole I'm trying to fill - there was damage or trauma somewhere along my path to where I am. BUT I HAD AND HAVE A GREAT LIFE! It's not perfect (I did come on here for something that has recently happened that has me under a great deal of stress), but I have a great family (dysfunctional like any other, but loving and caring!) I have never been abused or neglected in any relationships.
Any stresses in my life are internal - I am innately an anxious person who worries a lot and is insecure (since I was a toddler). I'm an underachiever. I'm a bit lost in the world and haven't found my footing or purpose. But I know my self worth and I respect myself. Despite my feeling 'not good enough', I know that I'm ok in this world.
SO WHY do I have these issues? There is nothing that sticks out to me that I'm trying to sedate, or hide from or 'fill' with food. It reminds me of my chiropractor insisting that I was in some kind of accident because my back so screwed up and me insisting that if I had been I would have known about it!
Any insight, maybe a different way of looking at this would be so helpful!
Thank you!
Liv
finally willing to admit
Hey everyone... I've posted on here before, mostly about my struggles with my alcoholic dad, and also about my (currently losing) battle to quit smoking... but I'm finally at a point where I'm willing to admit I'm starting to use alcohol a little too much as a crutch to deal with some painful situations going on. I'm definitely the type of person that's guilty of the "oh, I'm not as bad as "that guy" so I must be ok" but I'm starting to realize it's becoming more and more of a problem in my life. I don't drink every day, and there are times where I have one or 2 and no more, and even a lot of situations recently that have come up where I could drink, or am around drinking, and don't have a drop. I even just had ginger ale at a bachelorette party last weekend. BUT, I know how easily and quickly things can slide downhill, and I want to keep that from happening. Beucase there ARE nights when I will very happily settle in at home (I live alone) and finish off a 6-pack or even more by myself... a few times when I've had to call into work because I'm hungover, either from drinking at home or going out with friends and having one too many... I went through an immensely painful breakup in March, and I realize, that pales in comparison to what so many have gone through, but the pain is still real and raw for me and it's like I experience it over and over every day. There's more details to that I'll go into later, but I'll just say the EX is not a drinker and the break-up was not alcohol related in any way. I just see myself walking down a very dangerous hill, and i'm scared I'm going to lose my footing and start skidding and then rolling out of control, and I don't want that to happen. I do go to Alanon meetings because of my dad, not sure if AA is for me at this point, but I do read posts here faithfully, and I know there's a huge wealth of ESH here, and I'm hoping to reap a little bit of that for myself... I know I need to take it one day at a time...
thanks all for listening, and I do appreciate the huge amounts of time and effort and wisdom you all put into making this board what it is...
-Alice
thanks all for listening, and I do appreciate the huge amounts of time and effort and wisdom you all put into making this board what it is...
-Alice
Just For Today August 26~ Tenth Step Inventory
August 26
Tenth Step inventory
“We continued to take personal inventory and when we were wrong promptly admitted it.”
Step Ten
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A daily Tenth Step keeps us on a sound spiritual footing. While each member asks different questions, some questions have been found to be helpful to almost everyone. Two key Tenth Step questions are, “Am I honestly in touch with myself, my actions, and my motives? And have I prayed for God’s will for me and the power to carry it out?” These two questions, answered honestly, will lead us into a more thorough look at our day.
When focusing on our relationships with others, we may ask, “Have I harmed anyone today, either directly or indirectly? Do I need to make amends to anyone as a result of my actions today?” We keep it simple in our inventory if we remember to ask, “Where was I wrong? How can I do it better next time?”
NA members often find that their inventories include other important questions. “Was I good to myself today? Did I do something for someone else and expect nothing in return? Have I reaffirmed my faith in a loving Higher Power?”
Step Ten is a maintenance step of the NA program. The Tenth Step helps us to continue living comfortably in recovery.
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Just for today: I will remember to review my day. If I have harmed another, I will make amends. I will think about how I can act differently.
Tenth Step inventory
“We continued to take personal inventory and when we were wrong promptly admitted it.”
Step Ten
––––=––––
A daily Tenth Step keeps us on a sound spiritual footing. While each member asks different questions, some questions have been found to be helpful to almost everyone. Two key Tenth Step questions are, “Am I honestly in touch with myself, my actions, and my motives? And have I prayed for God’s will for me and the power to carry it out?” These two questions, answered honestly, will lead us into a more thorough look at our day.
When focusing on our relationships with others, we may ask, “Have I harmed anyone today, either directly or indirectly? Do I need to make amends to anyone as a result of my actions today?” We keep it simple in our inventory if we remember to ask, “Where was I wrong? How can I do it better next time?”
NA members often find that their inventories include other important questions. “Was I good to myself today? Did I do something for someone else and expect nothing in return? Have I reaffirmed my faith in a loving Higher Power?”
Step Ten is a maintenance step of the NA program. The Tenth Step helps us to continue living comfortably in recovery.
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Just for today: I will remember to review my day. If I have harmed another, I will make amends. I will think about how I can act differently.
