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I am already glad I found you all. A year ago the Alzheimers forums were my life line (I was primary care giver for my grand father until he died), and I find myself once again unable to cope on my own.

I am 42, and have been drinking since I was 15 minus a few good years. I have always only been a 6pack at night, 12 pack on the weekends nights girl, no hiding booze or daytime drinking. I beat a gnarly meth addiction 15 years ago cold turkey on my own.

Many of my friends and family are binge/black out drinkers, and I am always the one trying to keep them safe and telling the stories the next day.

Last Saturday (12/27) it was my turn to over indulge. I had a party, woke up the next day with a hellacious headache, and heard a story from my 21 year old daughter. Someone I love very much came out to find me and her husband in a sexual situation, and I believe others who know and love us both were there and encouraging the behavior.

I feel like I will never be able to face myself in a mirror again. This is not me, this is not who I am. I dont remember any of it. I want to not believe it, but I do. I cant talk to my daughter without crying of the shame. I will never be able to face any of the people involved again.

The only way I can see a light anywhere at the end of this mess, the only hope I have, is that I will never drink again so that nothing like this EVER has a chance of happpening again.

I hurt so badly I could die

It might just eb me..But is anyone else having to click onn things again. Like I will click to post reply. And it runs down at the bottom a countdown of items remaining then wont post and I will have to click it again. And when I want to click on the top limks to certain forums..I have to click again. Sometimes I have to click to another page here to get into User CP or Chat..If I am just in a certain area of the forums it wont do naything. But if I click say Newcomers and change the screeen...the I can go into Those other links. Like User CP ..chat..blog..Anything in that toolbar does that.

It doesnt do it on any other site except this one.
Was juts wondering if anyone else has been experiencing this same thing.

But my computer hasnt been actin right here since the power went out in that ice storm a couple weeks ago. I had Verizon here already and they put a router on my hookup or whatever.

Just wondering.

I am new to this forum but have been on this board for a little while in new to recovery forums.

I feel I not only need support for my sobriety but also to deal with the fact that my partner and child's father is still drinking. I entered treatment in August (outpatient) and he continued to drink. He would just go out all day and come home and pass out. He would lie his you know what off about his whereabouts. I was strong for a while. I can only control myself...but as time went on I ended up relapsing (30 days ago) and hsi dysfunctional family came down on me really hard. It was not easy to pull it together when being treated so unfairly but I did it.

Tonight is New Years Eve and he has told me he is going to work, yet he left very early for his shift and I know he is probably going out. This man chooses alcohol over his family. Each weekend he stumbles in arounf 8 and passes out. He feels this is his relaxatin and he deserves it and I am a stay at home mom so I am lucky to have what I have yada yada.

Can someone be in recovery and also be in Al-anon? I know I need my AA buddies but they do not need to hear about his drama when I need to work on myself..I am just hurt and confused and shellshocked that someone could be so callous. He gets extremely annoyed when I talk about recovery.

I know that step one is to become employed and start feeling some independence..step 2??

Thanks for listening.

Hi, all.

I'm grateful that these forums exist, first and foremost. Here's to the administrators, moderators and dedicated community members for making it so.

I've been substance-free for a week now and while I have my moments ... I am beginning to love not imbibing. Drinking (and consequently blacking out) really took a toll on me, and having just ended a live-in relationship that, in hind-sight, moved along too fast for too many reasons that weren't valid, the two coupled, and a really nasty mode of thinking couldn't seem to stop emerging. Removing the bottle(s) and the person in question from the situation seems to make this path much easier, and I feel it's the one I'm meant to be on. There's much work to be done, but this has been coming for a very long time. This is my first attempt, my first acknowledgment of substance-abuse/major behavioral issues and the first time in a long time I've been proud of myself.

I am also working on anger issues, because when I blacked out, I was not a nice girl. When I am conscious and sober, I am quite the people-pleaser, albeit with a fairly short fuse. The Serenity Prayer is working wonders for me.

I love reading, working out, making music, listening to music, philosophy :D, languages, various trivia and music theory.

As such, I imagine I'll spend quite a bit of time in the most appropriate forums (largely Special-Interest Groups) at this point in my life and in my recovery, but I wanted to say hi to and thank everybody here for their honesty and integrity.

Thanks!

Hey Everyone, just stubled onto the forums and loved some of the stuff i seen, so i thought i would join up heres my story.

Im 21 years old, about 2 1/2-3 months ago i broke up with my girlfriend that i'v been with for a long time, she was also my bestfriend (Not because of alcohol) At that point i started drink every night 7 days a week up untill 2 days ago. I never thought it was a problem I just used it to numb the stress i was going through. Im now going through withdrawl its not too bad compared to some other peoples cases i been reading on the internet, but its still a problem for me. I constantly have a headach, I have i anxiety attacks throughout the day, get the shakes sometimes my i heart beats faster then normal . I know my case is far less severe then some of your guys, but i just want this to go away, i know my body wants alcohol but im seriously turned off of it after going through this for two days. I want to know if anybody out there has had a simaler problem like mine, if so how long should this last for?
THanks to anyway who takes the time to read this and reply

Hello, I am new to these forums. After looking around the forum I decided it looks like a great sober online community. So I registered, that's what I am looking for. I have been sober a month and a half as of posting. I already spammed the server with 42 blog entries. I have an online journal/blog that I update daily so it was great to see a blog here. I am looking forward to getting to know others in recovery and utilizing your experiences, and also sharing mine.

I am currently trying for the 90 in 90 in the AA program. More resources can't hurt.

See ya around

Hey guys, hope everyone is haveing a beautiful day!!

Quick question,

Everytime I click on the "thanks" button on the bottom of a members response -

It does eventually put my name on the bottom, but first what comes up, is an error message saying that I don't have access to edit the page or that my account may not have access to that.... etc.

I then have to click out of that screen, go back to the begining of the forums site, go back under the family and friend, then back to the thread again, click "thanks" on the next one and do that whole process all over-

Am I doing something wrong??

Sometimes, I don't say "thanks" because it is soooo time consuming to go back into the begininng every time.

Thanks,

Cessy

Time for a fresh thread! Here's a link to the first:

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...s-c-check.html

I have been posting on the other forums here and just found there is a poetry one. I scratched this one down while I was bored in class, haven't had time to refine it. I love to write, so here is my debut :)

Fear and Faith

Fear ruins
It paralyzes the strongest
and owns the weakest
Controlling, conniving, cruel
Frozen in place
With a word, a feeling
Something deep inside
There is fear in us all

It can be defeated
We can prevail, if we know how
For faith is available to all
If it is desired
A faith in anything greater
Greater than ourselves
It will replace fear
Bringing movement to the paralyzed
Power to the weak and strong alike
We can own fear, before it takes over our lives
And that is the power
Of fear and of faith

The last part is here:

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...rt-3-a-20.html