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Alcohol or…
Hello everyone,
I told my husband who has alcohol problems (periodically) about this site, now he is wondering what can he replace alcohol with? he is considering to use Kava Kava or valerian root herbs.
He enjoys going into mountains like hiking but due to having full time job and full time school and newborn at home its not possible.
Any recommendations, thoughts....all welcome
I told my husband who has alcohol problems (periodically) about this site, now he is wondering what can he replace alcohol with? he is considering to use Kava Kava or valerian root herbs.
He enjoys going into mountains like hiking but due to having full time job and full time school and newborn at home its not possible.
Any recommendations, thoughts....all welcome
I’m Such a Mess….
I feel like such a mess lately. I need help. I need to go and GET that help (therapist, someone to talk to.) I've just been putting it off lately.
I had a bad morning. I have been sick the last few days and with full time school and having to take care of a toddler, it's difficult. My RAH gets home late from work (restaurant business,) and sleeps until noon, then gets up and goes to take a nap without even asking if I needed help, assistance, aid, a BREAK.
I have a fever of 101 (just a cold, but it still sucks,) and I just had it. I went downstairs where he had just fallen asleep and picked a fight with him. I know he's not using, I know it in my heart, but whenever I see him nap--it's a huge trigger for me. I am taken back to the days of when he would sleep off a binge and be unconscious for days at a time.
The spat was quick and ugly. I was very passive aggressive. I walked halfway up the stairs and told him to go back to sleep and just do all the drugs he wanted. I didn't care anymore. It really blindsided him.
I got upstairs, cried a lot while our child was napping. I was so tired, but couldn't take a nap myself because how could I get pissed at him for sleeping when *I* took a nap? How stupid is that?
He woke up. I apologized. I owned up to my stupidness. He forgave me.
I just feel out of control sometimes. I have so much anger still. I need to be more understanding, more caring, more loving, more empathic toward him. I'm not. I'm just a mean, bitchy person who has no control over her temper anymore. It's almost like I don't feel he's done enough penance for all the pain he's caused me, that it hasn't "Evened out" yet. It never will, that's the thing, and it's petty for me to feel that way. I know this.
Most days are good. Some are bad. I know what I need to do and I'm going to do it. I guess I just needed to vent a little (about myself.) Thank you for reading.
:wtf2
I had a bad morning. I have been sick the last few days and with full time school and having to take care of a toddler, it's difficult. My RAH gets home late from work (restaurant business,) and sleeps until noon, then gets up and goes to take a nap without even asking if I needed help, assistance, aid, a BREAK.
I have a fever of 101 (just a cold, but it still sucks,) and I just had it. I went downstairs where he had just fallen asleep and picked a fight with him. I know he's not using, I know it in my heart, but whenever I see him nap--it's a huge trigger for me. I am taken back to the days of when he would sleep off a binge and be unconscious for days at a time.
The spat was quick and ugly. I was very passive aggressive. I walked halfway up the stairs and told him to go back to sleep and just do all the drugs he wanted. I didn't care anymore. It really blindsided him.
I got upstairs, cried a lot while our child was napping. I was so tired, but couldn't take a nap myself because how could I get pissed at him for sleeping when *I* took a nap? How stupid is that?
He woke up. I apologized. I owned up to my stupidness. He forgave me.
I just feel out of control sometimes. I have so much anger still. I need to be more understanding, more caring, more loving, more empathic toward him. I'm not. I'm just a mean, bitchy person who has no control over her temper anymore. It's almost like I don't feel he's done enough penance for all the pain he's caused me, that it hasn't "Evened out" yet. It never will, that's the thing, and it's petty for me to feel that way. I know this.
Most days are good. Some are bad. I know what I need to do and I'm going to do it. I guess I just needed to vent a little (about myself.) Thank you for reading.
:wtf2
