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Hi Everyone, just felt like sharing this with everyone. I've had a really rotten New Year's so far. It started out good. My husband and I went to an AA New Years Eve party last night. They had good food, fun, speaker meeting, and an all night Alcothon.

After we got home last night we found our basement flooded. The hot water heater busted. The furnace is right next to it and the water also killed our furnace. So I have no hot water and no heat in the house. Tonight will be night 2 with no heat.

Thank god and AA and that I'm still sober. When i woke up this morning I wanted to drink so bad. I've been crying on and off since last night. Thank God I did as i was taught in AA. I called someone; and right after i got off the phone I went to a meeting. That was an excellent meeting. I meet a woman that had a lot of sobriety. She was so inspirational to me, and then I went to another meeting again tonight.

I feel a lot better tonight since all this happened last night. I'm so glad I didn't pick up that drink. In 2 weeks I'll be getting my 1 year medallion at my home group and I'm really looking forward to that.

Oh, and we do have space heaters to get us by until we can get someone here tomorrow.

Barb

both mentally and physically. Next Sunday I'll hit six months sober. But I feel awful in too many ways. Woke up out of two horrible scary dreams today and still don't feel 'real' or grounded in reality. Got my gas bill and it was huge - way too big for as low as I keep my furnace, so either there's some horrible error in the last meter reading or the girls who were here while I was gone over Tgiving turned the furnace way up and didn't tell me.

Have errands to do but don't want to leave the house. Can't sleep as I had a two hour nap a while ago (the second scary dream). Feel agitated and upset and sick and don't know why. I've had two cups of chamomile tea and still can't calm down. Feeling alone and disconnected worse than ever. Can't sit still and can't rest. I feel like all this sh!t is being thrown at me and no time to get out of the way.:Xmasbah

Am really stressed lately, and now these horrible dreams are intruding on my waking life and this huge bill to pay or argue about with the gas company. Hating my life but can't leave it. Don't know what to say or do or feel anymore. PAWS info says these are normal expected feelings, especially around certain lengths of sobriety. But how do I get past them and feel 'normal' again??

Feeling so alone and afraid and uncertain.:wtf2

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