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Im wid a tight crew in a game wow and I really dont think I should burden them but they said yes I should but I dont know Im all messed up :(

I am currently sitting in my bedroom in which I grew up at my parents house 2500 miles away and I am just DYING to hit an NA meeting. My Mom knows I am in recovery, but she just doesn't know how many meeting I attend since I am so far from home. I went thru the whole rehab thing in 1991 and that was hard on them.

I just found a meeting online where I totally know where it is and I need to get up the nerve to just grab my keys and go out. I know it is gonna be AWK-WARD cuz everyone is sitting in the livingroom watching the Packer/ Bears game. My husband could care less if I go, it is just weird around my parents.

I am writting this so I can hopefully get up the nerve. It starts in 61 minutes. Plus, I told my sponsor I would bring her back some schedules from San Diego so she would know I am going. lol

well, that is all, hopefully I will write you all when I get back from it.

Sheila

just saying hey from totally snowed in Seattle.....i've lived here sine '76 and i cannot recall a winter weather event quite like what we've had in the past week or so!!! it's like i went to sleep in Washington State and woke up in Minnesota! just thought i'd shout out and see if anyone else wanted to chime in....still snowing......anybody watching the Hawks- Bretts game can see what's going on.......:XmasCstar.

I cant beleave Im dealing with this again!! Please let me vent,I havent been able to tell anyone. My husband and I Quit meth July 2007.Our marriage,life and business was going down the tube,I couldnt even look at my children without guilt. we both were sick of it.We quit and never looked back...well I didnt...thats where the I can't beleave Im dealing with this again comes in. Im mad..hurt..and feel like a fool. We are very blessed We got another chance..we now have a great marriage..wonderful healthy kids...and a very very good income!! So....did he think I wouldnt notice...hello I was on meth for 2 years I know the game. So why after staying clean for so long and our life back on track would he risk it all again?? I know the pull of drugs and I can say no...so why the hell cant he!!!

thank you to everyone at SR for the support that you have offered me as well as countless others. Since last April, when I "discovered" this forum, I have turned to you in times of crisis and you have always been there. Sometimes I post a lot, sometimes I just read for support and inspiration. But I always know that if I need you, you will be there for me without fail. As I feel I am there for you. What a wonderful family. I try to log on at least every few days, but if it goes longer, I sometimes feel like I am jumping into the middle of a game with unknown players. But in any event, I continue to be awed by the bonds that are forged here. Aren't we lucky, in this crazy world, to be comforted, supported and encouraged by "strangers". I don't know about you, but sometimes when I just shake my head over the state of the world we live in, it gives ME great hope to know that you are all out there. It makes me think that perhaps the person behind the desk might be Anna or Carol or anyone here. That thought makes me regard this "stranger" in a new light; one who has their own life and its attendant issues, a frail human being just like ME and yet is willing to selflessly reach out to someone else in need. So, thank you. :ghug2

This morning is day 21. When I first came into this I told myself I needed to go 30 days with no booze, I am almost there. The thing is, is now I am feeling like once I hit the 30 day mark that it may be OK to go have a few as long as I stay under control. Problem is that once I have 1, I go until the bar closes and get completely hammered. I plan on only having a few but once the trains starts rolling its game over.

The other part of me is saying you been working out, losing some LB's, feeling amazing, kicking ass at work, re focused, no hangovers so why would I want to go back to it? I dont know why, maybe because its what I have always done. Maybe I am having an issue realizing that this should be something I Need to do for more than 30 days.

dont know, Just venting a little.

This morning is day 21. When I first came into this I told myself I needed to go 30 days with no booze, I am almost there. The thing is, is now I am feeling like once I hit the 30 day mark that it may be OK to go have a few as long as I stay under control. Problem is that once I have 1, I go until the bar closes and get completely hammered. I plan on only having a few but once the trains starts rolling its game over.

The other part of me is saying you been working out, losing some LB's, feeling amazing, kicking ass at work, re focused, no hangovers so why would I want to go back to it? I dont know why, maybe because its what I have always done. Maybe I am having an issue realizing that this should be something I Need to do for more than 30 days.

dont know, Just venting a little.

My mom likes to complain. She lives her life to do nothing but complain from sun up to sun set.:kabong:
She is a sober 30 yr. AA old timer. I can't stand her.

She and I made plans a month ago for her to come here for Thanksgiving. She's 3 hrs away. Ok, I was dreading it any way. But she's my mom and I figure I could handle it for a couple of days.

Well, she called me this morning saying she was getting ready to leave. She said that she expects to go shopping at Hamricks (A clothing store that older folks like) first thing Friday morning. I said sure, that's fine. Stephie is coming too. We all want to go shopping on black friday.
Stephie is my DIL. Stephie is also pregnant with grand child #2.

My mom had a fit. I CANT STAND HER! I DON'T WANT TO GO SHOPPING WITH HER. I CAN'T STAND IT WHEN SHE GOES WITH US. I HAD WANTED TO SPEND THE DAY, JUST YOU AND ME

I was standing there thinking, "oh here we go again". She never expressed any dislike for Stephie before. She was just pissed that I was not going to be her shopping slave for the day. She was mad that we might have to go to a store that was not of her choosing.

So she let me have it and hung up the phone in my face.

I had my son call her back later to see what she was going to do. She pissed and moaned to him about how she thought blah blah blah that I was blah blah blah and she was this and that.

After they hang up, I decide I will not call her back under any circumstances what so ever. I don't need the drama. In fact, when I do talk to her again, I will go ahead and clear out the opportunity for Christmas by saying that I have decided to stay with a friend that day.

Isn't it sad? I actually feel relieved that my mother is not coming. Not only that, but it's like I could care less if I ever saw her again, and I mean that in a very serious way, and yet still love her.

Thanks for letting me get that out.

i had a man tonight drink three 7 ounce Manhattans straight up made with Blanton's, which is like 94 proof. he never changed his behavior, never got loud or talkative, just enjoyed his dinner with his wife, watched the Jets game, then went to a concert. he was charming and normal acting. what is the deal?

I'm going to be quick to the point. Here's my issue. I love shooting pool. It's my main hobby. However, I found this passion while drinking in bars. I shoot when i'm sober during the day and I shoot well but it's on league night when I pound beers and shoot. It's alot of fun but I'm just wondering if there is anyone else out there that has been able to remove the booze and still be able to shoot on league. It's a real hang up for me because pool is my main hobby but the game is played in bars. I thank anyone that can relate to my current situation. I want to drop the drink but I really want to continue with my passion.

Thanks for any input!