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a new start for me.
Just found this site earlier today and i am very happy that i did. I just recently came to the acceptance of being an alcoholic and as of yesterday am entering the journey that is without alcohol.....or going to attempt to.
for me, my problems stem from overindulging. i dont' have a problem with daily drinking but once i start i don't stop. my body has lost that off switch. even if i say before i start that i will only have a few, that few turns into a few too many.
i find myself crossing that line way too often. that line that brings on the apologies the next day. that line that brings out the worst in me. way too often i have hurt the ones i love with drinking too much. blacking out and saying the most hurtful things you can say to a person....to the love of my life. the love of my life i am trying to get back into my life.
i read a post earlier tonite regarding Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde and this explains me perfectly. when i am not drinking, things are great. but when i start, i am a completely different person. i think its time that Mr. Hyde leaves town.
anyways, its after 3am for me and i am pretty tired so i will probably read this post in the morning and it will look like incoherent babble lol.
Again, i am very happy that i found SR because i know i will find the information and support that i need here.
for me, my problems stem from overindulging. i dont' have a problem with daily drinking but once i start i don't stop. my body has lost that off switch. even if i say before i start that i will only have a few, that few turns into a few too many.
i find myself crossing that line way too often. that line that brings on the apologies the next day. that line that brings out the worst in me. way too often i have hurt the ones i love with drinking too much. blacking out and saying the most hurtful things you can say to a person....to the love of my life. the love of my life i am trying to get back into my life.
i read a post earlier tonite regarding Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde and this explains me perfectly. when i am not drinking, things are great. but when i start, i am a completely different person. i think its time that Mr. Hyde leaves town.
anyways, its after 3am for me and i am pretty tired so i will probably read this post in the morning and it will look like incoherent babble lol.
Again, i am very happy that i found SR because i know i will find the information and support that i need here.
