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My Dad passed away last night…..
posted also in the Narcotics 12 step forumLast night I was at a meeting and my hubby called. It was my dad....he slipped away into eternity while watching the Viking game with my mom.... tomorrow I will fly back to San Diego to help my mom.
Please pray I make wise choices and and super vigilant about my recovery!!!!! I really thought I was going to skate into my year of clean time 1/20/09 easily. This will not be easy. I want to come home and give you guys all a good report. I do not even have my laptop, as it is in the shop.....
My Dad Howard was not ill, I had an awesome 2 weeks w/ he and my Mom....I still cannot believe he is gone....he was just 75 and may have had a stroke or thrown a clot into his lung. He was not in pain, only winded my mom said.....then he closed his eyes and was gone.
I loved him so much. He helped form my silly personality, always a jokester he was.....he was kind and a God fearing man. He did an awesome job as a Dad and a husband. He worked at Rohr Industries for 45 years as a tool and die worker. He and my mom were married for 52 yrs. He loved Jesus and the verse I have in my avator is the verse he read as a boy and received Christ as he Savior.
Thanks guys. Sheila
I love you and miss you Daddy and will see you in a little while....love Sam
(he always called me Sam cuz he wanted to name me Samatha and my mom named me Sheila) lol
Howard E. G. 8/29/33-1/4/09
Please pray I make wise choices and and super vigilant about my recovery!!!!! I really thought I was going to skate into my year of clean time 1/20/09 easily. This will not be easy. I want to come home and give you guys all a good report. I do not even have my laptop, as it is in the shop.....
My Dad Howard was not ill, I had an awesome 2 weeks w/ he and my Mom....I still cannot believe he is gone....he was just 75 and may have had a stroke or thrown a clot into his lung. He was not in pain, only winded my mom said.....then he closed his eyes and was gone.
I loved him so much. He helped form my silly personality, always a jokester he was.....he was kind and a God fearing man. He did an awesome job as a Dad and a husband. He worked at Rohr Industries for 45 years as a tool and die worker. He and my mom were married for 52 yrs. He loved Jesus and the verse I have in my avator is the verse he read as a boy and received Christ as he Savior.
Thanks guys. Sheila
I love you and miss you Daddy and will see you in a little while....love Sam
(he always called me Sam cuz he wanted to name me Samatha and my mom named me Sheila) lol
Howard E. G. 8/29/33-1/4/09
My Dad passed away last night…..
Last night I was at a meeting and my hubby called. It was my dad....he slipped away into eternity while watching the Viking game with my mom.... tomorrow I will fly back to San Diego to help my mom.
Please pray I make wise choices and and super vigilant about my recovery!!!!! I really thought I was going to skate into my year of clean time 1/20/09 easily. This will not be easy. I want to come home and give you guys all a good report. I do not even have my laptop, as it is in the shop.....
My Dad Howard was not ill, I had an awesome 2 weeks w/ he and my Mom....I still cannot believe he is gone....he was just 75 and may have had a stroke or thrown a clot into his lung. He was not in pain, only winded my mom said.....then he closed his eyes and was gone.
I loved him so much. He helped form my silly personality, always a jokester he was.....he was kind and a God fearing man. He did an awesome job as a Dad and a husband. He worked at Rohr Industries for 45 years as a tool and die worker. He and my mom were married for 52 yrs.
Thanks guys. Sheila
I love you and miss you Daddy and will see you in a little while....love Sam
(he always called me Sam cuz he wanted to name me Samatha and my mom named me Sheila) lol
Howard E. G. 8/29/33-1/4/09
Please pray I make wise choices and and super vigilant about my recovery!!!!! I really thought I was going to skate into my year of clean time 1/20/09 easily. This will not be easy. I want to come home and give you guys all a good report. I do not even have my laptop, as it is in the shop.....
My Dad Howard was not ill, I had an awesome 2 weeks w/ he and my Mom....I still cannot believe he is gone....he was just 75 and may have had a stroke or thrown a clot into his lung. He was not in pain, only winded my mom said.....then he closed his eyes and was gone.
I loved him so much. He helped form my silly personality, always a jokester he was.....he was kind and a God fearing man. He did an awesome job as a Dad and a husband. He worked at Rohr Industries for 45 years as a tool and die worker. He and my mom were married for 52 yrs.
Thanks guys. Sheila
I love you and miss you Daddy and will see you in a little while....love Sam
(he always called me Sam cuz he wanted to name me Samatha and my mom named me Sheila) lol
Howard E. G. 8/29/33-1/4/09
lost girl again
im sorry to all my dear friends....Miss Rachel has no excuses...I fell off the face of the earth again, which im sure you are all used to....I have limited computer use....my husband left his job (thus lost his laptop which I used)....my oldest daughter tried to commit suicide and sliced her face to pieces with a razor blade...and ive hit the bottle again....trying to survive....but slowly killing myself...Im not expecting sympathy...because honestly I know some of you are going to beat me to death...Ive felt it before...so bring it on....I know Im wrong...so do with me what you will. More than anything I wanted to touch base and wish you a Happy Holidays and a Happy New year...and tell those of you who know who you are that I miss you and Love you...and Im sorry for being a dissapointment...but you are used to that.....
My love always...Rach
My love always...Rach
Thrilled to be back!
To the site that is... Happily, I never left sobriety :) Oh I'm so happy, I have a laptop again! I have missed SR very very much. SR helped me to stay sober through some extraordinarily hard times... helped me get to AA... then my laptop broke... and I stayed sober and got a job, which has enabled me to replace my laptop, and get back on SR. (Also to not be homeless, starving, and/or drunk in a gutter.) So it came full circle!
To be honest I'm a little overwhelmed and feeling out of the loop. Looking forward to getting back in touch with my buddies and meeting the newcomers. I'll be glad to have access to you guys during the holidays :)
Hugs, SS
To be honest I'm a little overwhelmed and feeling out of the loop. Looking forward to getting back in touch with my buddies and meeting the newcomers. I'll be glad to have access to you guys during the holidays :)
Hugs, SS
IS the behavior pain driven or is he abusing drugs.
What do you do when you have some one who says there in severe pain, but act like their using speed? He had relapsed last year, but now claims he's sober. But his behavior is very much like a speed user. Not sleeping, I mean going days with no sleep. Going out late at night, staying out all night, has weird stories to account for his time. Is under extreme amount of stress, due to money problems, legal issues and divorce. Has been staying with me the ex but I don't want to work things out, and after 20 yrs of marriage its difficult, he can't seem to move on, such as in rebuilding his life. He says he's going to meetings... He's been at my house for the past few months....We have money issues of course..who doesn't right now.
Anyway, this morning I found him at a known drug hangout. I told him he wasn't welcome back in my home. I was real mean, called him a drug addict, and told him he can live on the streets. He swears he's not using, that the pain causes him to not sleep, to act weird.. tweaking on things is what I call it, but not really getting anything done. ... he says he does better up moving around when his back is bothering him. Yet he spends hours I mean HOURS on his lap top, or at the computer. He tells me he leaves for long hours because he's uncomfortable being at home around me, and so he leaves to give me my space. But I'm a sleep at night, he's here during the day! Yet when he's here if he's not cleaning something, he's hiding in the bedroom on the laptop for HOURS. He's not sleeping. I check the history on the computer and see the time hes on it. Computer porn another addiction of his. Also he tells me he had treatment...radiation for Luekemia CCL type in 2005, he was in some trail study. So he says. He says his weird behavior is due to the radiation treatments, he can't think straight, can't seem to think of the right word sometimes, so he is using that as an reason for his strange behavior. I don't know, except my gut is telling me he's using illegal drugs.
Anyway, this morning I found him at a known drug hangout. I told him he wasn't welcome back in my home. I was real mean, called him a drug addict, and told him he can live on the streets. He swears he's not using, that the pain causes him to not sleep, to act weird.. tweaking on things is what I call it, but not really getting anything done. ... he says he does better up moving around when his back is bothering him. Yet he spends hours I mean HOURS on his lap top, or at the computer. He tells me he leaves for long hours because he's uncomfortable being at home around me, and so he leaves to give me my space. But I'm a sleep at night, he's here during the day! Yet when he's here if he's not cleaning something, he's hiding in the bedroom on the laptop for HOURS. He's not sleeping. I check the history on the computer and see the time hes on it. Computer porn another addiction of his. Also he tells me he had treatment...radiation for Luekemia CCL type in 2005, he was in some trail study. So he says. He says his weird behavior is due to the radiation treatments, he can't think straight, can't seem to think of the right word sometimes, so he is using that as an reason for his strange behavior. I don't know, except my gut is telling me he's using illegal drugs.
Check in
Im doing fine and sober, this old clunker of a laptop got a signal, so i thought i would let everyone know i am fine. Other than the fact i am in california....
Take care,
John
Take care,
John
hi
sorry i havent been ere 4 awile , laptop broke , son left to start his football carrear, work finished up,wife doing my head in,and i thought things were changin, changin ok all for the worst ,right now i really could through the towel in , i stopped the drink on the 9 june this year and things really were gonin great meet some great friends a lot right here i found a great relise sharein ere so with all that has been gonin on i should have came back sooner than this,o yes the wife nag, nag ,nag, i know she means well at heart ,i am a alcoholic but does she have to call me one i just hate it when she does this sorry about the moan but i had to get it out of me ,thanks 4 listen, knew use would
All falls apart….
My AS has been living with me, going to community college and working fast food. Still hanging out with old friends, but being congenial with no signs of obvious using. I was so hoping....get him into an educational environment, away from the potheads, but it didn't happen. I woke up Friday morning to find a half empty pint bottle of malt liquor beside the couch in my living room. He was so drunk that he didn't even know where he left the bottle. I woke him up before I went to work, told him what I found, said pack your stuff, you're out of here. He started to plead, apologize,etc. I said just do it and I left. I came home from work and packed his stuff up (since he didn't do it) set it out front of my house and left for the evening. I am so susceptible to his whinings. It is better for me not to hear it.
I didn't give him a ride home from work. I figured one of his user friends could do that. I went and sat in a cemetery for a while just breathing, no tears, just acknowledgement of this is where he is heading. Then i went to my boyfriend's house for the evening. My son kept calling me, and I ignored the calls. I came home and went to bed. He began ringing the doorbell at 12:30. I didn't answer. He knocked on the windows, he begged and apologized. I didn't give in.
This morning he was at my door at 8:30 claiming he had to get his stuff for work. I let him in and he began harassing me immediately. I wouldn't give him a ride to work. He's just drunk that money away. He tried to lift me out of my chair, grabbed the laptop from me. Cried, begged, etc. He finally took off walking for work, he was about an hour late.
I don't care if he loses that job. He has nothing to show for it after 6 months except he's paid some of his court fees.
When he was in rehab, they showed us the film Basketball diaries where the mom had to shut the door on her addicted son. I know they showed that more for the parents than the kids. The kids don't get it. I'm starting to think he will never get it. He screamed at me before he left, if I live with my friends I will die. He knows this is my biggest fear. He will not die. He will just have to get himself to work since he lost his license. He will just have to do his own laundry. He will not die.
I didn't give him a ride home from work. I figured one of his user friends could do that. I went and sat in a cemetery for a while just breathing, no tears, just acknowledgement of this is where he is heading. Then i went to my boyfriend's house for the evening. My son kept calling me, and I ignored the calls. I came home and went to bed. He began ringing the doorbell at 12:30. I didn't answer. He knocked on the windows, he begged and apologized. I didn't give in.
This morning he was at my door at 8:30 claiming he had to get his stuff for work. I let him in and he began harassing me immediately. I wouldn't give him a ride to work. He's just drunk that money away. He tried to lift me out of my chair, grabbed the laptop from me. Cried, begged, etc. He finally took off walking for work, he was about an hour late.
I don't care if he loses that job. He has nothing to show for it after 6 months except he's paid some of his court fees.
When he was in rehab, they showed us the film Basketball diaries where the mom had to shut the door on her addicted son. I know they showed that more for the parents than the kids. The kids don't get it. I'm starting to think he will never get it. He screamed at me before he left, if I live with my friends I will die. He knows this is my biggest fear. He will not die. He will just have to get himself to work since he lost his license. He will just have to do his own laundry. He will not die.
Recently off Oxycontin
I am 17 years old and I recently decided (with the help of my family) that I really needed to stop doing Oxycontin. I was doing 40-80mg's a day and upwards of 150mg's when I had the extra cash and would do anything possible to get my fix. I did my last pill the 19th of this month. I pawned my Xbox 360, my $500 subs, and my $1200 laptop to get a quick fix. I even had the money to get them out and I F****** spent the money on a couple 80's so i lost everything. I came forward to my parents and told them my problem and asked them for help. The only thing I asked was that I didn't want to be put into any inpatient program because I didn't want this disease to affect my life anymore than it already has. I am currently talking to a therapist and he is referring me to someone that can get me on suboxone to kill the cravings. I am gonna continue talking to the therapist and be on the medication. Hopefully I can get clean for good. What do you guys think about my plan on getting off of them. Please provide your suggestions.
Are my expectations too high?
Hello Everyone...44 days sober and feeling pretty bad today. Well my family has recently found out that someone has been stealing my great-grandmothers pain pills and of course my family thinks it was me. In the past I have stolen pills from her to feed my addiction and now that it really wasnt me I have so many emotions. First off I'm offended that they suspect me even though I can't really blame them since I need to build back up trust in them. And secondly, I'm pissed that someones stealing her pills. Best part is is that it could be one of her aides or nurses. So of course my mother searched my purse. (mind you i'm 21 living at home) So to ease her mind I let her. However, I couldn't stop my emotions from flowing. I just started crying and tried hiding my face behind the laptop. So after all that went down, I went shopping with my sister. When I came home my mother told me that she feels like she needs to tiptoe around me concerning my recovery. And that's exactly how I don't want her to feel. I've explained to her what I need from them and I don't think that I've been expecting too much. It's just so hard. Its hard to feel like I'm being treated differently now because I'm in recovery. And of course things are going to be different, but I guess that I don't want people to feel like I'm inconveniencing them. I feel like i upset people if I ask them not to use substances around me, or to even keep them in house. But if they want them best for me, then what's so difficult? I'm just in a rut. I'm still very motivated in my recovery. I'm also currently taking 2 8mg of Suboxone daily, so I'm ok. I guess I'm just having trouble with all these new transitions within my family. They can't understand. They try to and I think I'm relying on them for too much support. Sorry if I'm rambling but I needed to vent. *Erika*
