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About a month ago, my stepmom was locked up for trying to get a fraudulent prescription filled, and was getting lortabs from a friend, in addition to the ones she got by prescription.

My dad was forced out of his denial of her addiction, and she was begging me to help her with this problem.

Now, a month later, I am ready to wring both their necks.

Dad took her to the dr. yesterday. When I got up, and was getting ready for work, I asked him what she got. He just said "the same stuff she always gets..pain pills". He had no clue as to how many, and snapped at me "how would I know? What difference would it make, when she's in pain all the time?"

She got out of bed, (this is at 3pm) and he asked her how many pills she got. She got 90 lortab 10 mg, to take one, 3 times a day. I said "so, in a week, you should be down 21 pills". She snaps "it doesn't MATTER how many I've taken in a week".

Dad tells me she's been doing better and that jail scared her and since she has a prescription, she knows if she runs out she can't get any more until it's been a month. I ask if she's had any pills since she was arrested, and can't get a straight answer. She's ALWAYS had a prescription, ran out, which is why she got them elsewhere.

Honestly, stepmom doesn't have a lot of options to get pills elsewhere, as dad has control of the finances, and she can't just leave the house without someone knowing.

My question is, am I overreacting? I see red flags everywhere, but they act like I'm the meanie, and trying to stir up trouble. I did tell dad, that if she got to where she was passing out again, or did anything stupid, he'd better not DARE to say "why didn't you tell me" again.

I'm trying my best to let this go. When I was leaving the house, I told her I wasn't trying to be mean, I was just concerned. She said "I know, I just don't want my nerves to get bad", which is another excuse for her to get numb. MY nerves were pretty frazzled, and I wanted to just escape, but I went to work.

I tried prayer, said "let go and let God" a zillion times, turned the radio up loud so I couldn't hear my own thoughts. Finally got distracted at work, when we had a lot of customers with adorable kids. It just irritates the crap out of me, that I let this stuff get to me.

I feel better now, but then I knew I would, as soon as I could get to my SR:)

Hugs and prayers!

Amy

alright, as you all know, its been a tough week for me. fighting with the boyfriend...problems at work...yadayadayada. well, two days ago my pc crashed. was pretty worried i wouldn't get it working again. but luckily, with a restore cd and fifty bucks to talk to a guy in india for three hours, i'm back online.

rambling aside... i've been thinking a lot about pills lately. i miss the way they made me feel. i miss the energy. i miss feeling like i could accomplish any task under the sun. i miss feeling fulfilled. i even miss the way i would abuse them (crushing them up and snorting them *i know, it was bad*). i miss that rush. i miss walking around work, knowing i had 5 lortab 10mgs stuck in my bra and i could take one whenever my heart desired.

does anyone else ever think about these things? i mean, we all know that our drug/alcohol abuse was a bad thing, but do you ever miss how good it made you feel?

don't get me wrong, i love knowing that i'm doing something wonderful with my life. its just hard not to think about all the times i've used. all the fun stuff i did. sometimes i wonder if i can have a good time without drugs.

It was one year ago today that my husband told me that he was addicted to Lortab and IV Fentanyl! One year....so many tears....so much hurt and pain. BUT I thank him today because I have realized that I was not living my life!

For those of you who remember me.....an update. He moved out Oct. 4th. He is not who I thought he was. After 18 years of marriage, and the last 6 years being an addict, he is so different. He is still extremely selfish and just a totally different person. Wow! what denial I was in! Now, that he is gone, our house is so much more peaceful. The drama and the tension is slowly getting better.

My kids are angry and don't want to be with him. They may not have known about the addiction, I didn't, BUT they knew that things were just not right. They are amazing. I do worry about their anger. But I have to believe they will okey.

A friend gave me an angel with the the words..."Believe in your own ability to fly". It is so true. The freedom from the hell, the put-downs, the questions, the anger,...is amazing. A year ago, I was determine to stand by his side. I thank him for moving out and for all the friends here. Your words, even at times I didn't want to hear them,....truly helped and comforted me. And to those just starting down this road,.....LISTEN and pray. The answer will come. Just believe.
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I recenlty had some major dental work done and was given 2 scripts of lortab, and in the back of my completly insane head I thought I could control them, well you all see were this is going. I could NOT control them, none of us can because were addicts. My family and friends who don't know probably do as they have been doubting my sobriety, I haven't talked to my sponsor in weeks and have went to no meeting so no wonder I am screwing up. I have 2 days sober now and I have been back in contact with my sponsor and am going back to meetings starting Saturday. Wish me luck guys as I get myself back into the good fight.

Hi all! I am SO tired of my Lortab addiction! I'm tired of that being the 1st thing I think about when I get up and the last thing I think about before I go to bed - and all day in between!
I've been taking them for over 4 yrs now(pain mgmt)...my scrip is for 3-4 10mg a day...I take up to 7-8. So, obviously I run out WAY before my next appt. I have 18 right now...and my next appt is Nov. 12th. Can I ween off with 18 left? I know I can physically...but I've tried over and over mentally. If I have 'em..I take 'em. I feel like I have NO self control...which pisses me off at myself!!
Any suggestions on how to handle these last 18 that I have? :praying

Thanks to all of you who replied to my recent post! It means so much to me to know that there are people out there who do care and understand! As for me and my son...don't worry..he has been my life for the past 4 yrs. And NOTHING will change that! He is my FIRST and only concern at the present time.

As for the husband...well, to the best of my knowledge everything started about 2 yrs ago when he was hurt at work. His doctor wrote the pain killer Lortab, and he said he took them properly. Then just one didn't help, so he began to take more, then more led to more. And now here he is. As for his father, he's one of those self-righteous kinda guys. Doesn't want anyone to know anything, so that's that.

Things have calmed down, and seem to be getting better(I hope). I realize and understand the worst isn't over.

Please be praying for me and my son.
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don't know if ya'll remember me or not, but I am here and working hard toward weening off these stupid stupid pills. I wish I never would have started. I go from blaming me for being so stupid to blaming the F'n Dr that prescribed them to me in the 1st place..

I am on day 2 of cutting out 10% of my dose which was 30 mg a day but I was taking more like 50 - 60 mg a day. I was at a point that 30 mg did nothing anymore and then pretty soon neither did 60 mg. I just wanted to forget about the past and forget all the hurt caused by having to deal with A's my entire life.

**At 1st I was the fixer, enabling all the addicts to do their DOC, just making sure they where happy, and then I took my 1st Lortab and flew.
I could be the single mother, work a full time job, have a clean house and finish school...

Anyhow,

now I am the addict, and I am trying to get clean

I am sick with stomach pain and so so blue, crying and having insane thoughts...:a043:

I have panic attacks even thinking about being clean, no more happy pills.. no more numbing... scares the crap out of me.

I was encouraged by dancinggirl to introduce myself. So, here goes nothin'....

I have been lurking since I joined in April but only first posted in September. I know that soon I will begin my journey into sobriety and wanted to gather any and all information I could. That's what led me here.

I am addicted to Hydrocodone. I was addicted to MS-Contin originally and when I decided to get clean, I went the Hydrocodone route to help me get off the MS-Contin and then the plan was to taper off Lortab. Yeah, like that worked out well.....TWO YEARS AGO. Anyhoo, I've finally begun my taper off Lortab and should be done by the end of next week. I'll let you know how that goes.

Thanks for reading my "story".

OK. So where to start.

I have been useing opiates for a little over three years. Started on Lortab 5's ....Blah Blah Blah.. Now I take 3 to 5 roxi's a daily. 90 - 150 mg .

It is time for me to quit..

I heard about sub treatment. I have tried to quit several times and felled so I figured what the hell.. I'll give it a shot..

OK.. My appointment for the Dr. is Oct 8.

I need to find out what questions I should ask?

Is there anything I should know before I go?

What an I expect during treatment?< Dr. Visits> < reactions to Sub.> <etc.> (from someone who has been there personally)

My basic understanding of the treatment is:

1. You have to truly be ready to quit..(which i am)

2. Get off it as quickly as you can..

My dream treatment would last 5 - 8 day.

Is this a reasonable amount of time to get the oxy out of my system and have as painless as possible WD? I don't want to get addicted physically to the Sub.

Thank you for reading and any all replies

I guess the first place would be to say hello. I am an addict. I am 21 years old. I came here hopeing to find support to help me fight my addiction.
It all started two years ago. I have always had legitimate back pain. I went to several doctors who all told me that I was too young to take pain killers. I wish I had listened. I found that I could buy a lortab 10 for $5 and I could be pain free all for only 5 bucks. Well..... Needless to say 1 lortab 10 turned into 2 . 2 turned into 3. 3 turned to 8.
Now I am starting to get into deep do do. I'm was taking 8 lortabs a day. The Max my liver can safely handle. I found these wonderful blue little pills . Roxicontin I could break one in half and take 2 15mg doses and be fine. No worries about my liver. Well , I bet you can guess what happened. 1 turned to 2 . 2 turned to 3 and now I teeter between 3 and 4 a day. 120mg of oxycodone at 60$ a day just to feel normal. (and a little warm and fuzzy for about 20min).
I just recently had a child. She is now 7 mths old. I am spending all of our extra money on these damn pills. I always make sure bills and food is paid for but there is no money left for any thing else but my addiction. I have got to quit for my family. They deserve a Husband/Father who is not doped up.
Well this is me and my addiction in a nutshell..I hope there is someone on this board who can help me..