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I'm back. I made it 29 days and then I drank. I drank harder then I ever have, felt worse then I ever have. And finally after about three weeks or so decided that I couldn't live like that. Plus I had alcohol poisoning. This time around I'm not as happy as I was the first time around. I think I feel defeated. I feel like I have no control. This is it. I make it this time or I think I'll die from drinking. It's been eight days sober now. The proud of myself feeling of last time I did this is gone. Now I'm trying to scrape by one minute at a time. I want my life back. I'm living off of coffee and skittles. I'm losing weight, motivation, determination, all of it. I don't know if I wrote this in the right place or not. I don't mean to unload but just writing this down and seeing it infront of me makes me feel real. I miss feeling real. I just miss feeling. August78

Reading here I see so many things that I tried to get my Ah to get sober. I always thought I went to extremes then I read that I'm normal. I thought we could post some of the things we've tried no matter how crazy they are. Here are a few of mine.
1. Thought pregnancy would make him want to quit.
2. Me getting sober
3. Going to church
4. Putting him in rehabs
5. Losing weight
6. Thinking he could switch to just beer
7. Threatend and acted with another man
8. Hit him (worst thing I ever did)
9. Yelled and screamed
10. Took away his prized possesions
11. Threw things in his face from his past
12. Said "if you loved us you would quit"
13. Filed for divorce
14. Kicked him out
15. Had him arrested
16. Quit answering the phone
17. Cushioned him from every fall to show him kindness
18. Screamed and yelled outside of his hotel room
19. Tried to savatage his friendships with other drunks
20. Begged him:chatter
21. Cried


just to name a few........

First...all I know about the DUI thing is that blood came back a .01.

Basically, I have Stage 2 Hypertension (at age 33!) I'm on some strong medication and I have to get very, very serious about losing weight. They're recommending 100 pounds!!! Atkins and exercise here I come.

I'm borderline Type 1 Diabetes. Again, can be controlled by massive weight loss.

My liver functions came back normal. Can you imagine? After all the drinking I did, I only inflamed my liver; no fatty, no cirrohsis. She said it would be perfectly back to normal in 3-4 months. I really dodged a bullet here.

My kidneys, electrolytes, and pancreas are all operating within normal functions.

Basically, The HP saved me. No more alcohol ever again. Despite what the cops say, I have been sober since January and my body is coming back together.

In the midst of my craziness, there was some good news this week.

Thanks SR!

Still sober, but l find myself wanting a nice bottle of wine. I do realize that there is no such thing. "Bottle" is never a singular thing at my house. I see the recycle pile increase almost daily and I am kind of shocked that I'm not even contributing to it. My husband is drinking alone- and he does fine. But he does get on my nerves. Sometimes I wish he would have another glass of "shut the Hell up" I know that is is me, not him, so I'll handle it. It seems it was much easier to abstain at the beginning and now it is harder for me. My life is dang boring! Is that how it's supposed to be when you're middle aged? I can't stand it. I am losing weight and my face is thinner and not boozey bloated. I feel good physically, but have a ways to go. One foot in front of the other.... I hope everyone out there is hanging in. Nothing worth doing is ever easy. Damnit.