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I blacked out Friday & Saturday and drank all day sunday
I have been doing very well with my drinking. Holding back as much as possible but this weekend I gave in again and got wasted. I am so depressed right now. And of course I am telling myself that I will never drink again. I feel so horrible.
There is an AA meeting tonight in my town and I think its time for me to finally go to AA. I keep thinking that I can control the drinking myself but I cant.
I was such an jerk all weekend and it just isn't like me. I really want to change my life. I know that I have a lot of good to offer but all that ever comes out in the end is the drunk. I NEED HELP! My anxiety is through the roof right now. I am also a manic depressive and I know that the drinking is counteracting my medication.
I want a life free of the addiction. I want to be happy without having to drink. I feel as though I have bottomed out. Im nervous, scared, frustrated, depressed, and self loathing.
It has to get better, I have to turn this around and it has to be now! I need control of my life again! I have such admiration for all of you who have been able to remain sober and are now truly living the life that you have always wanted to live. I hope that one day I will be right there with you. By changing your lives for the better and posting on this site, you have all inspired me.
There is an AA meeting tonight in my town and I think its time for me to finally go to AA. I keep thinking that I can control the drinking myself but I cant.
I was such an jerk all weekend and it just isn't like me. I really want to change my life. I know that I have a lot of good to offer but all that ever comes out in the end is the drunk. I NEED HELP! My anxiety is through the roof right now. I am also a manic depressive and I know that the drinking is counteracting my medication.
I want a life free of the addiction. I want to be happy without having to drink. I feel as though I have bottomed out. Im nervous, scared, frustrated, depressed, and self loathing.
It has to get better, I have to turn this around and it has to be now! I need control of my life again! I have such admiration for all of you who have been able to remain sober and are now truly living the life that you have always wanted to live. I hope that one day I will be right there with you. By changing your lives for the better and posting on this site, you have all inspired me.
Any drunks/addicts out there????
Hey all you all....
I am battling manic-depressive emotions daily. I'm not actually M/D, but with new sobriety and "feeling" the feelings - it's been a heck of a roller-coaster ride!!!
Yesterday was a seemingly bottomless pit. Today, great. I know I can't predict tomorrow cuz I'm not there yet but I'm expecting this same up and down, unpredictable -- overwhelming emotional crap that I just can't put a lid on or somehow control. When it's good, it's really good. When it's shhhi... it's bad!
Trying to just roll with it and know "this too shall pass". Easy to say to others, however, not so easy with myself!
I'm thanking God for the great day I had today and am grateful I wasn't on the flip side like the day before.
Hope YOU had a great Thanksgiving, and if not, there's always tomorrow!
:wtf2
I am battling manic-depressive emotions daily. I'm not actually M/D, but with new sobriety and "feeling" the feelings - it's been a heck of a roller-coaster ride!!!
Yesterday was a seemingly bottomless pit. Today, great. I know I can't predict tomorrow cuz I'm not there yet but I'm expecting this same up and down, unpredictable -- overwhelming emotional crap that I just can't put a lid on or somehow control. When it's good, it's really good. When it's shhhi... it's bad!
Trying to just roll with it and know "this too shall pass". Easy to say to others, however, not so easy with myself!
I'm thanking God for the great day I had today and am grateful I wasn't on the flip side like the day before.
Hope YOU had a great Thanksgiving, and if not, there's always tomorrow!
:wtf2
