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Hi there! Just wanted to report that I went to see the psychiatrist/addictionologist for my 1 week check up. All is well. He wants me to stay on the plan of taking 12mg of Suboxone. He gave me a Rx for a month, and sent me on my way! It's so nice not to have to go back to see him for a month! Those co-pays add up!! The last few months were so bad, just from taking so many pills....I spent over $400 last month alone, just in co-pays and medicine! I had to pay cash for the meds since I was refilling them early..and so often!! It sucked! Now it's going to take me a few months just to catch up from all that...but, it'll be okay. At least I'm getting better!! Getting off the oxycodone and on the Suboxone is the best thing that's happened to me in a long long time!!! I feel great!!! :ghug2

Hi everyone. I havent been posting much lately but I continue to read a lot and I continue to inspired by everyone here, from the newcomers who are looking to change their lives to the people who have years of experience, I get E,S and H from all of you and it helps me to get through the day. So thank you very much.

I am doing ok, I have only drank a few times in the last two months, which is still not complete abstinence but it is better than drinking everyday, and I feel that I am continuing to make progress towards complete sobriety.

Im taking a break from the job search until the holidays are over, although I have to admit that I have not been too serious about the job search in the past but I plan to change that and really try to find at least a part time job.

Im on a new medicine and it really helps my moods and energy level when I take it as prescribed, but it is so hard not to take more than the prescribed dose, just to catch a little buzz, I hate how difficult it is to be good with it. But I must take it as prescribed or it isnt going to work long term and I really dont want to mess this up, I've made too many bad decisions in the past and I really need to start doing what I know is best for me. But again, the temptation is so freakin hard to fight. Today I took the prescribed amount, and I will not take anymore until tommorrow.

Thanks and happy holidays. :) :Xmasha

weve been broken up for 7 months. but,we go to all the same places, listen to the same music, and have all the conversations we had- only hes not here! I just think about him and im constantly reminded of him. he still takes up the mental space.

im obsessed with:
what i did
why he did but no longer seems to love me
whether he is or is going to find someone who is going to make him happier who he is going to be a better man for
why it would or wouldnt work in the future

even though most days i think, was it that bad and surely- it was not as bad as the past 7 months of depression/hell that ive been going through and the result of that (failing school, having ambivolance towards the band and maybe quitting, feeling hopeless, being sad and angry at myself all- and i do mean all the time... then i get emotionally exhausted and cant do anything).

my therapist said the only way i could be so sad was to obsess about it, and i know shes right.


ive tried to set a side time to obess and move on, as recommended- but that just makes me sadder.

does anyone have any tips or suggestions how to get unstuck? how to not be so sad and miserable? i take medicine (doesnt seem to have been working and seems really irritating to keep switching about and waiting) and go to a therapist.

even in wanting to get back together with my alcolohic XBF i know i cant because i am depressed and dont love myself so i cant really date anyone. i just dont know how to change my thoughts or behavior.

Well, after doing all the things I need to do for me while living w/my AH, life is still not working to my advantage. I am at a complete and total loss, and I am so depressed right now.
You all know my saga of AH, his court ordered treatment, continuous drinking, cops bringing him home instead of DWI's, cops refusing to put him out of the house even tho I have an order, etc. Anyway, AH is still unemployed and actively drinking each and every day, more on the weekends. There is absolutely nothing I can do about it. I understand that. I am in therapy with the director of the chemical dependency program that AH attends 4 times a week (and get this - 4 times a week, and he still passes the breathalyzer!). I have notified them and told her about his constant drinking, but until he "fails" a breathalyzer, which he is required to take each and every time he goes there, there is nothing they can do about it. Of course, AH thinks that my therapy w/her is a "conflict of interest" cause it's "another set of eyes on him" and doesn't want me to mention his drinking (of course not - why else am I there?????). He met w/the psychiatrist last Monday (with me there) to discuss being put on campral. AH admitted to drinking the entire weekend, so psychiatrist said it wasn't good medicine to give it to him till he was 2 weeks sober. Anyway, AH had to go back yesterday. Told the psychiatrist that he's been doing good, hasn't been drinking and would prefer not to be put on campral if he can do it himself. Pyschiatrist said "that's what I needed to hear" and was happy he was doing so well (WTF????). Today was AH court date for compliance (has to go once a month). The center notified the court that AH relapsed and was increased to 4 times a week. AH was nervous about court today, I told him not to be since he will have them conned. AH was so excited that everything went "great" in court today, not a word about any relapses, nothing!!! He was so excited, that instead of his one on one therapy tonite, he went there right after court today so he can promptly start drinking (he doesn't have group till tomorrow night) and is well on his way to being drunk already (at 11 a.m. this morning!!!!). So after me working all day, I gotta go home to that. And yes, I did have an attitude w/him on the phone, can't help it. Each level I turn to try to protect me and do what I need to do for me, and let everyone know what's going on w/him, is not helping me any at all. It's almost as if he's laughing in my face, he can't be put out of his own house according to the law, court's aren't caring if he "relapsed", his treatment center knows but "what can they do???", it's like ha in my face. I now I have to eventually leave my own house, I know that. I am giving up alot, a house, credit rating, etc. I need to make a plan, cause to be honest, I thought my order of protection against him banned him from drinking in the house, I thought that if he did drink it was automatic jail time (since that's what the DA and judge did say), I thought I could still have what is rightfully mine, and he can leave, which obviously isn't the case. To top it all off, I had a wonderful friendship with my older sister for over 18 years, shared all kinds of confidences, she was my best friend, and I thought it strange that she has not responded to my calls or e-mails in about two months. Now I find out that she has been speaking with my crackhead, ambien addicted, alcoholic sister (who we both cut ties w/along time ago) and somehow, someway they are both against me cause I am a "trouble maker" and always was. And my one sister, the one who was my best friend, betrayed alot of my confidences to the crackhead one. I trusted this sister w/my life, and I got stabbed in the back on that one. My life is not turning out at all the way I'd pictured it, and I've tried to do everything right, and it's not turning out good at all. I used to say no matter what, at least I have good kids, good husband and good family. Now I don't have any of it. My kids hate my AH, nobody is getting together for the holidays, my husband is a drunk who cons me all the time, and my sister betrayed me. I am at such a loss, and so depressed right now. Thanks for listening.

Hi All,

I am coming off 8 7.5 mg percs a day. I went to a suboxon dr and he rxs me the medicine, the orange pills. If have been reading alot on the medication, but I was hoping that some of you may be able to offer some info, personal experiences, and whatnot. I would really appreciate it!!.. Thank you :Dance7:

I need some advice, I have been taking vicodin, 1 pill 3x a day, 7.5 mg, for about 3 months now. Tommorow is my first day off the medicine. I am scared. I have a rx for xanax, .25 mg for my anxiety. I do not abuse the xanax at all. I am also on seroquel 200 mg and ambien 12.5 mg a night. I am wondering how often I should take the xanax to curb the withdrawal symptoms. Am I really physically addicted??? 3 years ago I went to a detox facility for oxycontin abuse. I kicked it for 3 years!! And fell back into this bullshit after 3 years of soberness. I had a bunch of dental procedures done and then wrist tendonitis and cold and I am done with all of that, at this point I am quite frankly abusing them now. I need some advice for kicking this crap on my own. Please, anyone???

last night at work i had a bad headache so i took tylenol and drank pepperment tea and chamomile tea and lots of water but still had the headache two hours later. (perhaps because i'm only a week into detox)

one of my co-workers who is into holistic healing said my headache would go away if she tied rubberbands to the end of my fingers and left them there for five minutes.

it was so ridiculous that i had a good laugh and my headache went away!

it's hard to find humor in some of the situations that we are facing with alcohol and getting sober, but if you can find that one person to make you laugh, it is truly a blessing.

My roommates girlfriend is a rcovering alcoholic, 2 years clean. She has quite a few sponcees & has not only been asked to speak at one of the local NA meetings, which she said was a big deal, but has also recently been asked to speak at some big convention next year.

I'm really good friends with her, but she doesn't know that I'm addicted to speed. I'd like to ask her to be my sponcer, but she is a tiny bit controlling and very obsessive about hitting meetings every day.

Really, my two main concerns are these:

1.) If I fail at becomming clean & relapse, she won't want me to be around her boyfriend, who is not only my roommate but my best friend as well. She's already told me that the best thing to do if he relapses is to kick him out.

2.) I have severe social anxiety, which is part of the reason I started taking speed. I've never found a.medicine that really helps, so once I'm off the speed, i doubt i will be able to hit many meetings. She already fusses at her boyfriend about it, and he hits at least 2 a week.

What do yall think? Should I ask her to be my sponser, or just get a list from one of the meetings and go from there?

Anyone else seen it?
I just picked it up from amazon last week.
It probably doesn't have any information that people on this forum aren't really well familiar with, but its pretty well done the way it ties together people from the courts, medicine, researchers, addicts, families, etc.
I found the parts that dealt with the physical changes to the brain really fascinating, as well as how even the slightest cues to the brain can trigger craving in a recovered addict..even though the stimulus might come and go be so quick that the addict isn't even aware of what's happening.

Between the two of us we are feeling like we have been dealt a really crappy hand. I am sorry, but optimism is not on my side today.

Cam is still struggling with the pain from his JRA. The doctor started him on a more aggressive medicine that is supposed to take 3-6 weeks to kick in - he will have been on it for 3 weeks this Saturday. Now on top of that he has been having vertigo and rapid eye dialation since Tuesday and has not been to school since then. He has missed so much school that he is getting "D"s in most of his classes. His teachers are understanding, but he is still barely getting by. He typically gets very good grades.

I have been doing so much work on myself; have been making it to IOP each day, dealing with a flare up of Fibro, working on skills to help with a bipolar diagnosis and trying not to drink. Not that I have really been craving, but I still get those feelings of why not? It could'nt make anything worse. I feel like if I have to take on one more thing it may be the straw that broke the camels back.

I know alot of you are probably thinking that I just need to deal with it; as life happens. For the most part I have been coping. I am just feeling very down today and wanted to vent and maybe find some support.