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my mind is playing tricks on me….
Sober four months today!!! YAY! Almost every night since right before thanksgiving i have some sort of stressfull dream where I drink..just a little. Last night It was a shot of whiskey and in my dream I was thinking " you will regret this " than of course I did and thought way to go looser four months down the drain...I wake up feeling weird...like all throughout the day I think " that WAS just a dream right? No way did I like black out going to some bar in the middle of the night and do one shot and come home and crawl into bed and wake up and wonder? I was a total blackout drinker and my past and all the what if's still haunt me...:a043:But it never fails..every single dream messes with my mind...messes with me good energy..makes me feel kinda weird and almost guilty and depressed..like even as I type this I know it was just a dream but why do I still feel so weird about it like it actually happened? anyone else have this happen?
Re-introduction
Hi everyone,
My name is "dionysianstupor" and I am an alcoholic and compulsive overeater...also a "tortured artist," but I'm working on being a sober one. ;-) I love performance and conceptual art, critical theory/philosophy, and writing. I've posted here before under a different name, but that was back during my questioning period and I figured I'd just start anew. I still don't always believe that I am an alcoholic because my creative mind tricks me into thinking I have multiple selves, but I had a pseudo-spiritual experience last week where my Higher Power was sending me signs (through art!) to stop drinking...so I've chosen to listen.
Nice to meet you all!
This is Day 4 for me. (And my drink of choice is wine.)
My name is "dionysianstupor" and I am an alcoholic and compulsive overeater...also a "tortured artist," but I'm working on being a sober one. ;-) I love performance and conceptual art, critical theory/philosophy, and writing. I've posted here before under a different name, but that was back during my questioning period and I figured I'd just start anew. I still don't always believe that I am an alcoholic because my creative mind tricks me into thinking I have multiple selves, but I had a pseudo-spiritual experience last week where my Higher Power was sending me signs (through art!) to stop drinking...so I've chosen to listen.
Nice to meet you all!
This is Day 4 for me. (And my drink of choice is wine.)
